Love But Not Be Loved
chapter 1

Hi, my name is Siska, I am the first of three children, I don't know from childhood until now I feel very unappreciated, unloved, unloved.

Every day is always just the same as the children of people, this is what. But I still love ko.kamak I enter ati.

Maybe because I'm bad or something? never mind.

In the morning as usual I want to go to school, oh by the way now I just first class High School. Still booty hehehe.

I get up early, take a shower, wear a uniform, and eat breakfast. As usual before leaving I was lectured first to my mother.

"Siska remember you are the oldest, you must learn the right, not the weird, let alone your brothers are still in school, it costs a lot" I said with a serious tone.

hahh. I got bosen said so, indeed yes I realize that I am a burden on my parents, usually just asking for money.

Moreover, life is already fit-as-an, emang really should be grateful, but yes the name is also human.

But I thought, indeed I had a mind to drop out of school for work, but what work? boro-boro work, nyapu aja already lazy.

I also share my parents. Salim, and leave on the bike, ngueeng.

Eh. but before that I want to pick up my friend, because I want to go bonceng. So yes as a good friend.

Tin! tin! tin! tin!

I also sound in the horn, the sound was heard loudly, let the neighbors angry hehe.

"Siska! can't you don't sound in her horn, noisy tau" said my friend Bella.

"Hehe maap prendd, glint me, I don't repeat it again, ciuss" I said with a whimper.

"Hahehahe lo it has been said many times still so, tired know ga I say lo continue, trus tu lho know g neighbors are uncomfortable with it" said Bella Nerososos.

"Yes yes I know, very rich chatter mak attached" I muttered slowly.

"What??" ask Bella again because it's not scary.

"So, it's okay, yok departing, from earlier by the way truss, when to leave?" ask me while on the bike.

"That's not wrong you know a i, maen yelangin klaxon all, gatel nih my ears" said Bella with a frown.

"Iye iye maap"

"Take another look, not a hhh!" said Bella.

I and Bella went straight to school, by the way, it's only now less than a quarter of the time I leave. In the morning, I am a diligent child.

Kaga kaga kaga just kidding, it was usual to leave in the morning, because the parking lot was full. Understand the school from the village, eh no already masuh city.

Traveling about fifteen km from home, I usually ride a cepet cada about 75/80 km/h, let me squeeze.

"Heh can g anyway do not hurry" said Bella with a tight voice, understandably hit the wind as a shock.

"Ape?" ask me again because I don't see my ears.

"Oh. ok ok" said I ngegas poll montornya because I dengermya less fast.

"Akhh. basic b a n g k e, you want to die yes, I belom want to die woe" tereak Bella while holding me tight.

Duh I feel ashamed of myself, Denger Bella tereak-tereak not clear, even ampe no ibuk-bus menggeliatin us, want me staples tu mouth.

As little as 15 minutes I was to school, my school was called SMK Modern School, the name was rada how it was, but it was also a paporit school, so do not be insulted ye.

My school includes a large school, well.although the parking is only one, still sklh I big. I still want the first time I want to go to school here.

If you want this list of schools, I don't even know where it is? that day I was arrested my name is Siti's mother.

Boncengin tuh me, trus nyokap I gini.

"Where's your school?"

"I don't know, ask people" I said.

I stopped the montornya, then I was told to go down. I also visited my father there and I too.

"Sir, nuwun sewu, you know Modern school school?" ask me politely with courtesy and courtesy. Eh uh ngemeng-ngemeng like I have not told ya if I am Javanese, so that's the language mixed.

" That's the deck, just straight, until stuck, don't turn the deck, then can ask again to the people" asked the father of the man.

I also said in my heart, sir, if you do not intend to make ngasitua stay by the way do not know the deck of the school, this is talking straight trus, ngampe mentok again, maksutnye ngampe end of the earth?

I also tried to hold back the anger that peaked me, astagfirullah patiently patient.

I also continued the journey, initially confused, then asked people again, continue again but no nyampe nyampe, dizzy stayyy.

He said it was 2 miles away said Mas. But kok not yet until too, I finally asked the fifth time, finally nyampe also the school, tired bet dah.

Trus I entered it sklh, astonished, amazed I was stretched school really can big.

After trying to enter the tenga gate, I intercepted fond kakel handsome, and it turns out that only the prospective students can enter it.

I also asked my mother to wait at the security guard post. Let me go in while I bring the files. I also asked the same mba mba there, apparently in addition to the file I brought. There is still less, he said in the caption there.

Damn I did not bring money dong, I returned again nyari nyokap I asked for money, asked for my money back again, it turns out in addition to buying what letter is that, also told to buy a stamp of 10,000 thousands. And it takes two dong.

While my mother only gave me 20,000, back again and I asked for more money. After I returned to buy, I also filled in the letter, uh uh again I was told to ask for a guardian's signature.

Feel like fainting is me, the back of the trus, but whatever power I have no more piles back. Shit bet my life.

Finally asked for a hand, I also approached the committee who was there to check the completeness of the file. There is less dong.

Yes lord what other trials have befallen your servant again, already want to faint again it feels.

And it turns out that the file must be double except for the one with the stamp, while I only bring one-on-one.

With a desperate step I also stepped into the capis again to make a coffee pot. This time there was nothing less. Aminnn