LOST IN YOUR HEART
HATRED IN THE PAST

At 01.44

J.O is sleeping. When in his dream he saw the events ten years ago. Where when the massacre they ruthlessly committed to his wife and future baby. In front of his eyes, they were abuzz and tore his wife's body apart.

"That'saaakkk !! " shouted J.O woke up from that nightmare.

J.O's eyes shed tears upon awakening. He looked back at the cruel event in a dream. His body again shook violently and was covered in sweat. Remembering the pain his wife got from the biadap people. Until the young pregnant woman died horribly. In front of his eyes.

AARRRGHHH !!

J.O went berserk and threw all the items on the table. He shouted to release the anger that he had been saving.

His body and eyes were crying over his past. He huddled and wrung the blanket hatefully. His tears are flowing more and more. He can't stand it anymore.

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Then he remembered the envelope he received from Yuki-San yesterday that he had not opened. Trudgingly he approached his desk drawer. He took the envelope and with his body still shaking, he opened the contents of the envelope. It contains some photos.

J.O's eyes were wide open so that his narrowed eyes looked big. The photos are recordings of events when his wife's body was enjoyed alternately. They tore his wife's clothes and body like wild animals.

There are also photos of her being seriously injured with her legs and hands tied in chains.

J.O's heart grew increasingly agonized at the sight of all those images. He cannot control his body. Until he fell down. And all the photos in his hands fell. His jaw tightened so tightly that it appeared veins on his neck for holding back his anger. He is consistent with his promise. That he would search for traces of the perpetrators of the massacre to the ends of the world though.

HUFF !

J. O. took a slow breath. He wiped his tears and picked up a photo that had fallen scattered around him. He put it back in the envelope. He gave me a little writing as a reminder. Then he put it in his suitcase.

Not felt, the morning came with sunlight entering through the ventilation gap into his room. J. O. is still sitting down. Unmoved. His eyes looked still red and slightly puffy with a black circumference around him. When the clock showed at seven o'clock in the morning, he tried to wake up with a face that was still empty with his gaze. But because his body was not balanced he fell back against the bathroom door.

GUBRAAKK !!

The voice was heard by Mika who was standing outside the door.

The girl was worried about the state of J.O inside. What was? thought. He knocked on the door slowly. Repeatedly. Until the last knock.J.O stood up and stepped open the door.

He saw the girl appear with a little pink lipstick. It looks so pretty and sweet. But J.O's mood was bad so he did not comment. It speaks a thousand languages. When he entered the bathroom, he was still silent. With a stagger, he leaves behind Mika who comes to surprise J.O with her appearance.

The girl bit her lip. He felt that something was wrong with the man. Since his last meeting with J.O at the pool that night, he has not seen him again. Because his father beat him. Mika's father knew everything Mika did with J.O that night.

Mika wanted to get a warm hug from the man. He wants to get a hug that can always make himself comfortable and feel protected. As Mika felt a sense of uneasiness in her heart, she only realized that J.O's room was a mess with things falling on the floor and some were broken.

"What happened to her?" mumbling Mika.

Mika cleared up all the mess. And wait for J.O to come out of the bathroom. He closed the door to the room. Then sit on the bed. J.O came out with a white towel coiled around his waist. The man's face and body looked fresh. Smelled of bath soap.

As J.O opens the closet to pick up a change of clothes, Mika approaches him and hugs the man's body from behind.

"Are you okay?" ask Mika.

"Yes" J.O answered briefly.

"You look fresher" Mika felt the towel J.O was wearing.

J.O prevents Mika's hand. And gently remove it. He immediately took his clothes and put them on.

"You're going to school today, right? Let's go now" J.O said expressionlessly.

Mika pulled J.O's arm and stood before him. He hugged and hugged the neck of the man higher than him.

"I'm on holiday today. Don't you remember?"

J.O blinked his eyes. And breathe out. He realized that he was too focused on his past hatred. So that he did not see Mika who was now in front of him.

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