Lasta Qais(Not Love Qais)
Safina
2022
Eight years the beginning of the story of the name Safinah ringing in the memory of an ustadz.Yang just heard the name alone was able to make himself a fever all day.And the passing of the story at the beginning of the journey of a Safinah became Santri at the hut Al hidayah,still vividly remembered in his memory.Tak never imagined by Safinah, became an ustadzah who served for four years in the hut Al hidayah.
His intention to get married at the age of twenty years, lupus has crossed the time.Every wish that had been dashed in his heart first, now he has obtained.Starting from his desire to become an ustadzah for a while,being a person who is not underestimated anymore as it used to be and who certainly understands the meaning of a life now.However there is one thing that undermines the principle of his life that he has built since adolescence, namely love.
Love is indeed a big problem for those who have not found a pair of shoulders for his backrest.And love destroys many principles of life for people who do not really understand in deciphering it.
As it is today, there is a pair of broken souls caused by love.Either who is selfish until the sense that it turns off all the muscles that work, sadis that love according to Safinah.
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In this year, as if the world was suffocating and laughing at me for love.Everything no longer meant anything to me, I no longer recognized myself.I was numb.But deep down in my heart, deep down,I still hope for her love for me.I am very sick to bear the pain of the love I have been through for five years with my ustadz.
"huftt.." I took a breath to calm my raging soul.My skin felt throbbing pain, as a result of my disturbed mind.Now, I myself was in the same room as eight years ago,but with a different atmosphere.True to the saying, the sweet is just a memory.Memories eight years ago full of drama, but fun.Very different from the reality of life that I am living now.First, the,we were only five dozen years old, but now we're growing up,towards 25 years.Almost even have fingers of my old hand I was in the hut Al hidayah.If we used to joke cheerfully apart with a bond of love.But not with now.Now, my daughter has become the property of people, the,and already tied with the love of her husband.Just stay me with kia who somehow our fate is almost the same in love.
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"Ciiiittt"the sound of a closet door like an old closet.Look for a thick green book my favorite in the line of books that I put in the first row.
"here she is" I said with sparkling eyes.
This book is the book that contains most of my love story with the ustadz who managed to change my life one hundred and eighty degrees.
"Ustadz, do you miss me this fragile one,"my own words as I held the thick green book.Without feeling my cheek was flooded with endless tears.However, I quickly wiped it off, I quickly wiped it,so that we don't go in and see me cry.
"heummm, it turns out so painful love for humans." I said to myself.
I tried to open the first sheet on the book I have held.See the writing that began to fade, my eyes cheered remembering the events of the past.
And, this is where the beginning of my love story with my best friend, the triumvirate.