I'm Not an Old Virgin
Chapters 27.4
"Had he been given the chance to see Safira's grandson, Umi was sure he would have been very happy. Because on the wedding day of Sapphira and Ali, he once said when his age was no longer long.he hoped that in this short time God would allow him to meet the grandchildren born of Sapphira. But Allah's destiny is difficult to guess.he went away without even knowing when Safira was pregnant with twins."
"Umi, don't cry." Sapphira feels cramped again being reminded of Abi's departure.
It was his fault.
If only she was not stupid and negligent, if only she did not doubt herself then perhaps Abi would have known when she was pregnant.
Although she could not see the twins, at least Abi knew that her last daughter was pregnant. That's good news.
"This is Safira's fault, if only Safira more patiently waited for the results of the test and if only Safira did not doubt himself then at that time Abi would be happy to hear about the news of Safira's pregnancy. But Safira is negligent.. Safira was so stupid back then!" And unfortunately she found out about her pregnancy the night after Abi's death.
Isn't that a little painful?
"You don't have to blame yourself, Sapphira. It's all happened and probably the best. God wants this result so we can't say anything. Believe me, son, it does hurt but after the pain of the day we can all smile back when we get the news of your pregnancy. Umi thought maybe it was a medicine that God prepared to comfort our sorrow over Abi's departure." Denied Umi while touching the back of Safira's hand.
He was eager to rub Safira's head but his hands felt very weak. He could only make light movements yet the effect he had almost used up all his strength.
"Umi's right, deck. God may have deliberately concealed the glad tidings to treat our sorrow over Abi's passing. Because the proof is we can immediately smile back when you get the news of your pregnancy from Ali early in the morning. It's as if God prepared it to comfort our lara, deck." Annisa spoke up.
He thought Safira's negligence had its silver lining for them. Or perhaps rather this is the scenario that Allah wanted for Sapphira.
Safira smiled faintly, she returned Umi's hand without realizing something was wrong.
Long staring at the sky, Umi leaned her back on the back of the bench. The wrinkle of her face could not cover how beautiful Umi used to be. The line is still there even though there have been many years with trials he has passed. He turned to look at Saqila who was now sitting near his knees, then his old and old hand touched the top of Saqila's head with a look of contrition.
"Son, are you willing to forgive Umi's mistake for neglecting to raise you?" This question instantly made the three of them shocked.
The topic that Umi was talking about right now was a painful topic that the three of them wanted to erase from memory. Because that day was the day the three of them blamed each other, hurt the weakest, and became the judge for the guilty.
Honestly, they didn't want to remember that sad day.
"It was Saqila so how did it become Umi's fault?" Said panicked.
"Umi was a good mother and Umi never taught Sapphira any despicable deeds. All that happened that day was the crime of Saqila. Umi is completely innocent in it!" Even his voice started to shake.
That pain, he really couldn't get rid of it. He felt very guilty and constantly blamed himself.
It feels so torturous.
Umi smiled gently again. His old eyes could not heal how happy his heart was right now.
"I'm a stubborn man, son, but that doesn't mean I don't have tenderness in my heart. In this life I realized that my stubbornness and gentleness were a disaster for my family. I never felt this hate when I thought of my stubborn years hurting you." He began to look away considering the days when the mistakes began one by one.
"30 years ago my heart was so tender for Annisa. I didn't realize that my tenderness made Saqila and Sapphira feel excluded. It was my mistake to make Saqila grow up to be a biased and alienated girl. If only the tenderness of my heart were divided equally then Saqila would not be a biased and ostracized girl by many. My son, Saqila.Will you forgive Umi's negligence in raising you, son? Truly, Umi never hated the gentle nature except the days when my heart was unfair, son."
Saqila looked at Umi with both eyes that started to form wet ripples. For a moment, she held her breath as she recalled the days where she missed Umi's attention so much. However, at that time Umi loved Annisa more so that little Saqila unconsciously began to cultivate jealousy towards her brother.
It was because of this unpatched attention that Saqila grew into a two-faced girl. In front of her was a gentle and unambitious girl whereas inside she was a biased girl who had to be ambitious.
Those days were painful. Out of jealousy he hurt Annisa so many times that God finally made him realize that his hatred was wrong. He couldn't hurt the people he was supposed to protect.
"I.I forgive, Umi. All Umi's negligence in raising me. I've forgiven her. For me now it's much better than those times because right now we're all happy with each other's lives." Said Saqila in a very light voice.
But the three of them could hear it well.
Umi smiled with relief.
"Thank you, Son. My heart became light after hearing it." He then turned to look at Annisa's soft face that was already wet from tears.