I'm him & us
Don't Force Me
After completing the magrib prayer Lia and Riana chose to find the nearest restaurant for dinner, they had been on the move all day, and they should have fed on his stomach that had begun to protest
"Bang, the rooster is two, the same sweet iced tea" said Riana to the brother Abang who works at this place
"Ok mbak, in wait yes" said the brother, and then immediately returned to prepare food
"Capek really know ngak" Riana started chattering while pouring water into the glass, they of course chat while waiting for the food to be served
"Lumayan the hell" Lia replied in a soft tone as she pulled the phone out of her pocket
"It's a good thing that this time did not bother very much" Riana seemed really relieved to have completed this, and she only needed to learn it and then present it next Sunday
"Yes that"
"Lo my good luck Li, if I go there alone kebayang will do me" said Riana slowly, after chatting long enough food came, both of them eat so delicious.
"Lia" Riana said in a soft tone, while Lia was still busy sipping her drink
"Hmm" Lia replied in a soft tone
"Where?" Riana said in a soft tone
"What?" Answer Lia in a question?,
"Lo is the same Ardy" said Riana who arrived wearing a serious face, Lia grabbed a glass and sipped water in front of him, uh fortunately this is the last bribe, and the last, since childhood, Lia did not like to talk while eating, and it was the result of the upbringing of her parents
"As Lo lo saw" he said in such a relaxed tone, his relationship with the man named Ardy was even as the eyes seemed, there was no development at all, because Lia herself was too reluctant to develop it.
Ardy is the person Riana loved the most in the past, the person who always accompanied and took care of her since she was in High School, after finishing school both promised to get into the same University in order to spend more time together
Riana herself knows why she was left behind, he did not even expect that Ardy changed that fast they had been for years but in an instant Ardy changed and turned to a girl named Auliya Riana's own friend, who was a friend of Riana's, he really did not expect if something like this would happen, the reality slapped him so cruelly, all this time he thought if Ardy was a man who loved him very much and would be his companion for life, he said, but in fact?, all ended so cruelly, Riana did not regret a meeting, let Ardy be a story for her and in the future there will be men who can take care and accept it.
Being placed in a position like this just makes Lia so uncomfortable, like he has to keep Riana's feelings, he rejects Ardy with various reasons and ways, he is not even interested in re-establishing a relationship because of his past injuries, he does not have the right to despair but he has the right to lock his heart, he does not want to return to hope that the end will only hurt his heart, let Leo be the most beautiful story in his life.
"Why have you ever tried to accept it He is very good" Riana said in a soft tone
"Lo will know how I am, I can't open my heart with frills try, I can't, I can't, I can't Ri I can't be someone else as my guinea pig" He said in a desperate tone, he really did not want to hurt anyone
"Gue know, but what's wrong with trying first Li" said Riana in a soft tone that even still trying to persuade, this salama she even always persuaded Lia to open the door of her heart, however?, and yet?, Lia insisted on maintaining her principles
"Gue ngak can Ri, I'm afraid the nightmare is repeated, I don't want to be in pain again, I can't be in high again" said Lia in a soft tone
"Lo must try to Li, Lo trying to make Leo's departure, all finished three years ago, God love the same Leo and Leo must be sad to see lo gini" Riana patted Lia's shoulder slowly
"Gue ngak can Ri, I really ngak Ri, I do not want to repeat the same pain" he said with a tone so soft, so clean,
The shadow of the past comes back to haunt him, Leo leaves only to save him, if at that time he does not make trouble with the motorized gang, Leo is still alive and they will spend time together until now, behind the gentle and polite nature of Seornag Auliya, he had a fairly large mass, living as a delinquent boy and spending time on the streets was a natural thing when he was just a teenager, if at that time he did not make trouble Leo certainly would not be the hunted of his enemies, all was really late, Leo was gone and it was because of his mistake
"Gue is worried about the future of Lo Lia, you have to be able to make peace with the past, you can keep on going on Li, like any normal girl, and Lo will definitely get married, he said, any way you need a figure who will take care of Lo Li" said Riana who is very concerned about the situation of this friend
"Gue ngak sure can sincerely Ri, I'm not sure can be peaceful so aja, all ngak easy, it took me a long time to fix myself" said Lia while smiling bitterly
"Lo do not always squirm back, in front there already Ardy who has been chasing² lo since 3 years ago even until now" said Riana in a soft tone, in front there is already Ardy who faithfully waiting for Lia, in front there is already Ardy waiting for Lia
"Gue is too afraid to take risks, I never believe with Ardy, I don't want to happen and then repeated again, the human heart is very easy to change, so easy to change, now Ardy pursues me just because he's curious because he hasn't caught me, he's just curious because he can't melt my heart yet, You know I was scared when I fell in love uh he finally left me, he threw me out because he met a girl who was much better than me, uh, so I beg Ri do not maxain I make Nerima Ardy again because I really ngak can, hm yaudah I tired, let's go home" said Lia and after stepping away from this place, Riana could only let out a long sigh, but the bitter mass was indeed very difficult to forget.