
... Accepting But Not Forgiving...
A very bright morning. Irene and Long An. The two laughed together on the way to school. The hue of cheerfulness emanated so naturally painted from their faces.
“Mama, let's spend more time with pa.. pa.. uncle porcupine hair.” said Long An while laughing widely. Actually, I want to call Papa. But he broke it.
Irene smiled and nodded with a nod of her head.
“What An happy mom with uncle porcupine hair?” asked Irene who was walking while holding Long An's hand.
“Of course mom. An happy woman, look at my chest continues to feel blasts of happiness.” An replied in a happy tone.
Until they were walking towards the gates of AA School. A white car. Suddenly stopped not far from Irene and Long An. A 45-year-old woman got out of the car after it was opened by her driver. The woman was wearing a long white blazer in line with the pants she was wearing. The little bag is in his hand. Her hair is neatly wrapped. Even though he is no longer young. The woman still looks beautiful.
Irene and Long An were walking with cheerful faces. It passed right in front of the woman who just got out of her car. Irene who saw the woman stopped and felt a slight increase in anger. The 45-year-old woman named Kania looked at Irene with a sad look. Irene tried to ignore and continued walking with Long An. However, Madam Kania's voice stopped her steps.
“Rene...” call it down.
Irene tried to ignore the call. However, Long An stopped Irene's steps.
“Mama, the mother called you. Why is mom silent? It's not like mama usually.” said An innocently.
“Later you will be late An,” Irene said with a smile. But his smile was not his usual smile.
Long An frowned. Then glanced towards Madam Kania. Madam Kania looked at Long An with a sad look. Long An instead threw a big smile at Madame Kania. Madam Kania was choked with Long An's adorable smile.
“Mama, whose mother is it? Does mama know him?” ask Long An again.
“An, go inside. Later you will be late.” replied Irene.
“Alright, An go inside.” he said cheerfully. Then kiss Irene's hand. Irene smiled and kissed her cheek.
Long An ran into the school and waved his hand. His face looks cheerful. Irene waved her hand back and smiled. However, the moment Long An had already disappeared from the sight of his eyes. The smile Irene displayed suddenly disappeared. Now, his face looks cold. Then hurried away from Madam Kania. But a voice came from Madam Kania calling out to him.
“Rene, I know it is not appropriate to be forgiven by you,” said Mrs Kania with a soft look.
“Mother didn't mean to disturb your life.” Mrs Kania.
“I don't care about you anymore. We better pretend we don't know. I think you have a very good life. I am too. So, in the future do not call my name or pretend not to know me.” replied Irene coldly.
Not without reason, Irene who usually respects older people. But different this time. The pain was just thrown away by his mother still he felt until now. At the age of 12, Irene lost her father and desperately needed a mother figure. However, his mother also left him just like that in an orphanage. Irene kept looking for her mother's whereabouts. However, his mother seemed to disappear into the earth. He had to live and fight alone. Through the rigors of life in the Capital.
Madam Kania looked at Irene with teary eyes. He was fully aware that what he had done to Irene was very wrong. Madam Kania only obeyed her own selfishness at that time.
“Mother knows, mother is the most sinful and unforgivable person.” Mrs Kania said with tears soaking her cheeks.
“You know, what suffering am I going through? When I was 15, I had to work in three places at once. Sometimes I eat nothing all day. When I was tired, no one gave me a place to lean. When I am lonely, no one comforts me. When I had to bury all my dreams, I could only rest in the grave of my late father. You know how much I suffered then?!” Irene shouted with tears soaking her cheeks.
Anger is starting to overwhelm Irene. Anger that he had been alone. When misfortune befalls him, the figure of the mother he hopes as the only place to share just throw it away. Over the years, Irene has been trying to figure out where her mother is. However, his mother never once showed his nose. After a long time Irene searched. His mother just showed up and apologized. It won't be that easy that Irene will forgive her mother. The pain left by her biological mother was still stuck in the sanitary recesses of Irene.
“If the other day Long An didn't hit you. Do you care about my existence???!!! I think not! Even to search though you wouldn't do that. So, do I sin if I don't forgive you??!” Irene shouted with anger among her tears that continued to spill.
Right in front of Irene, Madam Kania's face was wet with tears. He could only hold his chest which was hurting. Understanding how Irene suffered all this time. Irene who was supposed to be 18 years ago she hugged and protected as the only family. He left it for no reason and never looked back. Even if only for once.
“Rene, I know mom is very selfish and inexcusable. But, at least for once let me see you occasionally,” said Mrs Kania with tears that continue to spill like a stream.
Irene tried to hold back her tears that kept flowing. He held back the anger that was raging in his heart. Back to remembering how his old life was.
Madam Kania immediately held onto Irene's hand.
“Rene, mom will do anything. At least to atone for your sins.”
Irene threw her mother's hand violently. He looked at her with a full of anger. Trying to rush away with a cry that kept pouring from both eyes.
“Rene! Rene!” call Madam Kania with a piteous tone. Tears inevitably flowed with great force.
Madam Kania could only sit down while crying incessantly. Not long after, Rosalind who had just come to see her stepmother crying while sitting in front of the school gate was astonished. He rushed over.
“Mama, what's wrong ma? Why are you crying in front of the school gate like this?” ask the confused Rosalind.
Madam Kania looked at Rosalind with a sad look.
“Mama... mama... has sinned against the biological daughter of her own mama.” Madam Kania's tears are so bitter.
“Brother daughter mama?” rosalind asked in amazement.
While Mrs Kania could only cry and cry. Remembering the sins he had committed 18 years ago.
Somewhere else…
Irene walked over while wiping her tears that kept coming out. This really pisses him off. Why after all these years he still cries when he meets his mother. Between sadness and anger melded within every inch of Irene's heart. He walked until not felt over the pedestrian bridge near AA School. Irene could not stand it anymore and shouted loudly.
“Arghhhttt!!!” Irene shouted while shedding tears. He held his chest that felt tight.
Without Irene noticing, suddenly her hand was pulled by someone. And held him in his arms.
“Do not cry alone. This time you are not alone anymore.” said the person.
Irene was shocked when someone hugged her. But after smelling the scent of the flower's distinctive perfume Verbena Irene knew very well who the person was. The one who had currently embraced him was Ravindra. After knowing who hugged him. Irene cried out in the arms of the man who had stolen her heart. Rava understood Irene's feelings. He just kept hugging the woman who warmed his heart.
Flashbacks
This morning, actually Rava wanted to take Long An to school. However, he came late. Irene and Long An had already left for school. He took the initiative to school. At least want to see two people who have melted the ice of his heart. Right when Ravindra comes. He saw Irene talking to Lady Kania. Ravindra can only wait and does not want to disturb the meeting between the mother and the child.
End Flashback
Irene was still crying in Ravindra's arms.
“It turns out, you are a very crybaby woman.” said Ravindra teasing Irene.
Irene who was still in Rava's arms just smiled cynically. Though tears still flow.
“For this time, I want to be a crybaby.” replied Irene while hugging Rava tightly.
“Abjected.” said Rava while replying to Irene's embrace. He grabbed her and felt the sadness of the woman who had stolen her heart.
In the past Ravindra could not accompany when Irene went through difficult times. But not this time. From this second to forever, Ravindra would always be beside Irene. Being on the side of a woman who has been through a lot of steep roads. Tasting what is called suffering. Rava promised himself to make the world of Irene a happy world of course with little Long An.
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