For A Husband Who Doesn't Love Me
03. Debates

Nosebates pondered, turning his back to his mother who looked at him with supplication. A look of disappointment was evident on his tangled face full of voidness.

"Mother decided all this unilaterally without hearing the consideration of Hidayat first..." Said Hidayat in a bitter voice.

"What else do you need to consider, son? It's been Mom's decision... Please, please this time act like your brother's late home..." Said Zainab's mom.

"But this is different, ma'am..."

Hidayat turned his body to face his mother, then he walked closer. While the rest of his family just quietly heard the debate between them.

"What's different? Say it! Tell me why you refused Mom's request..." Zainab insisted on her decision.

"Hidayat... Emm..." Suddenly became nervous. He no longer dared to look at his mother.

"Why? Try to give a reason to mom, why are you acting like this? What is Maira's lack? Why did you refuse to marry her?" Urge Bu Zainab mercilessly.

"There's nothing wrong with Maira, ma'am... It's just that Hidayat has no taste for him..."

All the members of the family who were originally just silent, now turned to look at him sharply.

"Then, is there another woman in your heart?" Asked Muslim, his older brother began to intimidate him.

"Absolutely not if this heart has a taste for someone, Bang? Bang Mus is going to marry the woman that Bang Mus likes..." Hidayat's complaint sounded dislike of the question.

Muslims rise with fierce faces. He looked angry, but the Umayyads swiftly held him back so as not to speak again.

"There's nothing wrong with how you feel, son... It's just that, isn't marrying Maira, our family will still strengthen the relationship that your late sister's house has built with the Maira family? We also know the details of their families... Maira's parents, who only have two children, are willing to give their two children to be made a son-in-law by Father and Mother... In fact, they might be looking for something better than our family..."

Hidayat. He actually still does not understand the decision of his family who united forced him to accept this match, but he as the youngest child can only resign and give up.

Zainab approached Hidayat again. He looks softened. "Have your brother never been wise to you at all, son? Maira is a good boy, and has long laid a heart on you... But this is not only for the sake of his heart, but for the sake of your brother and all the relics of both of them. Remember that! Something bad for you is not necessarily bad for God... It could be what you don't like, even that's best for you..."

Hidayat. He becomes an opponent in the heart. Rebelling without daring to shout expressed his argument that strongly rejects this matchmaking.

The discussion this morning is over. Hidayat swallowed the disappointment of his family's decision that was contrary to his own will.

Her chest feels tight. He can no longer argue, but this is not what he wants. He leaned against the lower wall of his bedroom window facing the plantation behind the house. In his hand was a picture. He lifted up, then looked at the picture of the face in the photo.

"I like Kirana, sister..." His words meandered to the photo that turned out to be a picture of his late brother, Zahrana Habibah Marwan.

"How is it possible to marry Maira is sister's will, while sister likes Kirana too, right? He said he wanted to go in the hijab after this. He wants to leave the entertainment world for Hidayat..." Hidayat said to pour out all his heart, and maybe it was much better for him at this time.

***

It looks like a dilemma. Hidayat's gaze that night still disturbed his mind, looking at his heart. He was worried, afraid that Hidayat would not like his answer.

"Why is Maira daydreaming? Is Maira still saddened by the passing of bang Ajiz?" Maira's mother came and sat down next to her. He gently rubbed Maira's back lovingly.

"Maira can't be selfish, ma'am... Bang Ajiz must have missed Brother Zahra, and they must have gathered by now. They're both good people, ma'am..." Maira answered trying to encourage herself.

"That's right... Then, what now is Maira's unease? What about Maira's match with Hidayat? Was Maira just pretending to agree yesterday to please Zainab's mom?" Ask her mother again gently.

Maira's speechless. He lowered his face, silent a thousand languages. He didn't know where to begin to tell his mother.

"Maira's? Here, Son... Look Mother..." Pinta his mother while slowly pulling Maira's chin, then make Maira face directly to her face.

"Maira's free to refuse, and then I'll talk to you..." Maira's mother said so wisely.

"Actually, emmm..."

Maira's mother simply watched Maira's face with love, without her urging Maira to speak frankly to her.

"Maira was like a durian fall when bang Hidayat's mother asked Maira to be his daughter-in-law, Ma'am... From the beginning, Maira had indeed liked bang Hidayat..." Maira admits her feelings for her own mother.

"really? Why didn't Maira ever tell Mom?"

"Maira's ashamed, ma'am..." Maira replied then lowered her face again.

"Maira's ashamed of her own mother? Isn't the confiding friend to the girl's own mother, huh? Have you ever ignored Maira's feelings before?" Ask Maira's mother to look sad.

"Sorry, Mother... It's not..." Maira looks nervous. He was also confused and feeling guilty. "Before Maira only told the late sister of Zahra..."

"Keep, what did Zahra's late house say, son?"

"Maira's very happy, ma'am... At first Maira was a little disappointed, but after brother Zahra said do not remove God from the heart of Maira, Maira became convinced that the intention of brother Zahra was very supportive of Maira's feelings to bang Hidayat..." Clearly Maira with a smile reminisced about her conversation with her late sister-in-law a few months ago.

"Your sister-in-law's house is special, son... Deserve your late brother so much love him. I did not expect, the proud son of Mother would leave Mother so soon, had not even had time to give Mother a grandchild. Great man for Maira after dad..." Mother wiped her tears, then looked at Maira with concern.

"What about Hidayat? Is he gonna love Maira? Will Hidayat please Maira? Only Maira is left as the most precious treasure for Mom and Dad, son... I don't want Maira to suffer, even a little bit..."

Maira clasped her mother's hand. She wiped away her mother's remaining tears. "Maira feels, with bang Hidayat Maira will be happy, Mom..."

His words were so convincing, but not to his own mind. Hidayat's gaze yesterday still made him doubtful.