Dreams To Return: The God Of The Tower
41. Fake Family

My name is Dian and I am one of the people trapped in this dream world...

By carrying the memory of the world of reality I continue to survive in this world. The round I passed was also not small, sometimes I also found people who also had a memory of reality like me, but they were reluctant to get close to me because I was a candidate for god.

There are many names for people who receive attention from gods, affairs of gods, candidates for gods, main characters, and so forth. And people who receive love from gods usually have the potential to play a role in the stories that the gods make. There are various roles from protagonist to figura, but I mostly accept antagonist roles.

No matter how well I do to everyone, from the beginning my role has been decided. And everyone ended up hating me and upholding the main protagonist.

The cold gaze I was used to, even subconsciously I was also emitting the same gaze at them. No one is on my side, no one loves me and destruction is the end of every turn. But even though I did not expect freedom, I did not want to return to the world of reality, because I knew that even if I came back there would be no good news to change my destiny.

In reality, I'm just a child growing up without parental affection, and so is here. But at least in this world I can be a little happy.

"O suffering man, will you stand in my moonlight and dance for me?"

In the end I continue to believe in my choice, I will continue to play this role and continue to live in this world of stories, even if I had to be a puppet for the sake of the gods I would be willing to do that just for the sake of a handful of affection they gave my nipples.

𝑵𝒂𝒎𝒖𝒏 𝒅𝒊𝒑𝒖𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒏 𝒌𝒂𝒍𝒊 𝒊𝒏𝒊 𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒂 𝒑𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒖 𝒎𝒖𝒍𝒂𝒊 𝒈𝒐𝒚𝒂𝒉.

"Dian, you can't cry. Look brother, brother will continue to be with you"

His wound-filled hand continued to stroke my head warmly and hug my body as I began to tremble in tears. "Dian must not be sad because of people's words, Dian will be the strongest and most beautiful woman in this kingdom" those sweet words, all that attention. Everything he gave was the first warmest gift I received from anyone other than a god.

I kept trying not to believe the remark, but the longer he watched me as his sister the trust in the family affection grew.

"Sir Novan!!"

In the midst of the cold and rigid of his Family of Duke Akasa, he was the only sun that shone on us the children forgotten by our own father. I can still remember our family's joyful moments, our warm and sweet childhoods. My twin brother who was silent like a doll became so sweet when laughing playing with us. My disciplined sister became lenient when Brother Novan accompanied her and so did my little sisters. It all seemed like a good dream until I didn't want it to end.

But dreams remain dreams, realities are impermanent and harsh realities are so clearly approaching.

"Sister?.sister...?" Once I stood still in an empty room, my eyes looked around the room but then I fell silent and forgot my purpose to the room. "this is who's room?" It was as if my memory had been erased. At first I still remember the figure of 'sister' that I so dear to it. And yet...

"Sister! Brother Andi! Let's play"

"With Andi and Nikolai, I'm busy"

"Ta, but big brother usually wants to play with us.."

"Since when?"

Slowly I realized, the figure of the brother I loved never existed.

𝑳𝒂𝒍𝒖 𝒔𝒊𝒂𝒑𝒂 𝒚𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒍𝒖𝒔 𝒌𝒆𝒑𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒌𝒖 𝒔𝒂𝒂𝒕 𝒌𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒍?

𝑺𝒊𝒂𝒑𝒂 𝒚𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒆𝒓𝒎𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒖?

𝑺𝒊𝒂𝒑𝒂 𝒚𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒚𝒂𝒚𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒊𝒌𝒖?

I don't know the answer. Even when I asked the goddess, she did not understand what I was saying. Slowly the bitter reality of my story as an antagonist began when Nikolai was sent as a couple from the Candra family's children.

"Goddess.Did not the Candra family belong to you? Why wasn't I the one sent?" When I asked so, the Goddess just smiled and hugged me.

"Not anymore, now this is where you are"

And then slowly my own father began to notice me, give me everything I wanted, listen to all my complaints and smile at me. But instead of smiling, a sense of annoyance filled me.

"Why is it now.. Why?! Why is it that when I'm numb to the affections of others she just recognizes me as her daughter?!"

Grief, anger, resentment and unjustness filled my heart. Envy began to grow when I discovered who was the main lead in this round story, Andi and Vivian. Though the path they went through was just sprinkled with flowers, but the result they got was greater than me walking on the thorny path, isn't this unfair...

"Princess Vivian came riding a horse with a mysterious young man?"

My murder plan for Vivian failed and not only did a character I didn't know of suddenly appear like the male lead in a fairy tale. Her black hair and red eyes were very different from mine, but somehow at the same time I recognized her. Even when my second murder plot failed and he was hit by a glass lamp, I somehow worried my heart.

"Who are you, Novan?"

"Sister Novan is not Arin's older brother.but he's Arin's most dear brother!"

Those words, those smiles, they all reminded me of my small self. Innocent and so foolish was lulled in an undying affection. Even when I asked Nikolai, he couldn't answer my question.

"You don't have to know who he is, kill him and I'll make sure in the next round you'll be the main protagonist!" The words of Goddess Hera who was filled with anger sounded so sweet that I forgot that they were basically playing humans as they pleased.

Nikolai's perfect captivity plan was thrown into chaos when the servant I was assigned to guard Arin was Duke Samuel of Vishnu's family. At first I thought there was still hope because no one could fight me, even Vivian and Abdi had yet to realize my antagonist identity. But once again the appearance of Novan in collaboration with the gods who opposed Goddess Hera completely destroyed all my plans.

And when I saw her holding a dagger, deep inside my heart. I feel sorry for my own nadip. Living as a toy and dying as a scapegoat, very funny.

"I hate everything.."

"My family, I'm gonna kill everyone!"

The sadness and resentment that built up in my heart overflowed and took hold of me, I could no longer sense what was right and wrong. Back then in my head there was only how I could avenge all that was in front of me.

"I'm sorry, sister.."

But when he said that, something in me just seemed to clear up, the black cloud covering my heart was erased and tears just spilled from my face as I remembered who he was.

𝐾𝑖𝑛𝑖 𝑎𝑘𝑢 𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑎𝑡𝑛𝑦𝑎..

𝐾𝑎𝑘𝑎𝑘 𝑦𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑎𝑚𝑎 𝑖𝑛𝑖 𝑎𝑘𝑢 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑖..

"Sister..Novan..?"

Her trembling cry stroked my head like never before and her eyes shed tears just like mine.

"Thank you for holding on.."

"Ka, brother?!"

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Already 7 days after that day, the Akasa family was found guilty and now has no head of the family. I fell silent before a tomb and bowed my head "in the end you were too late to realize everything.father" Duke Akasa had died. Andi does not want to continue his position.

"Mr Duke..." Next to me a pale brunette girl placed a blue flower "thank you for saving Arin..". Arin tried to hold back her tears. At his side, Nikolai patted the girl on the shoulder while the edge of his eyes looked at me coldly.

There was only silence between us, at least before a knight named Kaleid came running towards us and gave us some good news.

"Mr Novan has awakened!!"

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The door opened and in front of me Abdi and Andi stood on both sides of Novan's bed and held back their cries, it seemed that not only did I get our childhood memories. Although not gold in color, the red eyes of Novan looked at us who had just come with a warm gaze and stretched out one hand.

"Sorry to make you worry"

With just that one sentence I ran towards him and hugged him tightly, without a sound I cried on his shoulder and he calmed my trembling back, just like old times.

𝑀𝑒𝑠𝑘𝑖𝑝𝑢𝑛 𝑘𝑎𝑚𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑎𝑙𝑎ℎ 𝑘𝑒𝑙𝑢𝑎𝑟𝑔𝑎 𝑝𝑎𝑙𝑠𝑢..

At least we love each other, even this love may be stronger than just a blood bond.

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