Dira'S Spy (Mata Dira)
Chapter 8 DSP

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Sheila lethargicly walked into the luxurious house that had long been a place to make many memories, her memories with a mother who was now no longer beside her. Sheila's mother died while Sheila was still in the 5th grade of Elementary School.

Sheila used to be very excited to go home because she could meet her mother, who was always waiting for her return. Now it feels reluctant for Sheila to go home, because there is only loneliness. Even his father was rarely home.

Since his mother died, his father was always busy working and there was never time for them to talk and share stories. Now that Sheila was used to keeping everything to herself, it was hard for her to open up. But that all changed since Sheila met him, a friend who made Sheila's life color.

But when Sheila was happy, everything was lost. Going back to how it was even now felt increasingly heavy, just because of one tragedy that even Sheila herself was at a loss for what to do.

With the slightly messy state of clothing Sheila continued to walk weakly, her days felt increasingly heavy. And as Sheila passed through the living room she still did not realize that her father was sitting and watching her.

"Sheila!" Sheila was shocked to hear her father's voice growen once her father was home.

Sheila turned her body towards Arzan, "Papa?"

"You just got home?"ask Arzan base stale.

"Ga needs to be asked, right" Sheila replied flatly, while showing her uniform.

Arzan immediately misbehaved, what topic of conversation should he say, "Oh yeah, how is your school?"

"Okay,"Sheila immediately turned her body and walked up the stairs. Because Sheila's room is on the second floor.

"Until when will you continue to behave like that?" hearing her father's question as soon as Sheila's steps came to a halt, she turned back and looked at Arzan fixedly.

"Papa himself who has made me behave like this," Arzan silent lips feel stiff can not say a word, Sheila's words make her chest feel tight.

Sheila smiled slanted, "Papa never had time for me, papa just loves papa's job. So busy papa, my friends at school think that I'm an orphan pa!"Arzan jerked his chest felt increasingly tight, it was far that he and his daughter.

"Why do you suddenly care now?" sheila asked as much as she could hold back her tears.

Like being struck by lightning sentence after sentence that Sheila said made her feel like she had become a failed parent, she had hurt her daughter's feelings.

"papa did all this for you son!"said Arzan who made Sheila's chest feel tight had been all this time it turns out his father never called him with a call son. It seemed ordinary indeed but it was one of the things Sheila missed from her father.

Sheila lowered her head her tears could no longer be held, "I know," Sheila said and turned her body to walk towards the room.

"Thank you pa, it has met my material needs, but happiness is not forever about pa money,"Sheila immediately left Arzan glued to his place.

"I'm sorry papa son" said Arzan sobbing. Their hearts hurt each other.

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"Alhamdulillah finally finished it all, lessened one load of my mind hehe," said Dira chuckled, he was done cussing his many tasks are not playing it.

And now that Dira was still standing in front of the teacher room, she was still thinking about where else she was going. Today the teacher is in a meeting so the students of Light High School are allowed to relax. Wasn't happy Dira made him.

After a few minutes of thinking Dira finally stepped foot into the roof top, the weather was not too hot Dira wanted to see the view of SMA Cahaya from above. It's not cool.

On the stairs to the roof top, Dira accidentally crosses paths with Bellen and some of his friends. They came down the stairs laughing happily and stopped until they realized Dira's whereabouts.

"Eh Dira, want to go upstairs?"ask Bellen.

Dira gave a small smile and nodded, "Yes, brother,"

"Oh yeah, we-we're going down first bye Dir,"

"Yes, brother,"

After the departure of Bellen and his friends Dira immediately go upstairs. And the first time Dira was not the view of Light High School but one student who was standing on the edge of the building.

Dira tries to calm himself and think positive, maybe the people just want to relax. But it's too woi end, sliding a little must have fallen.

Dira narrowed her eyes ascertaining who the student in front of her was and slowly approached.

The student was still not aware of the presence of Dira which he thought now was to end his life. He is tired of living this life.

After getting close enough to Dira was shocked not to play it turned out that the student was Sheila. Dira took his breath and exhaled slowly, he had to think clearly to deal with this situation.

Dira ventured to call Sheila, "Sheila!"

Sheila turned her head and was surprised to see Dira who was already standing not far from where she was standing, "Ngapain lo here?"ask Sheila flat.

Dira smiled"Well at the sight, you yourself?"

"Gue has never lost don't be pretentious, you're just curious I know!" sheila said coldly.

"Eh?"Dira was surprised, he did not expect Sheila to think that way about him.

For a moment Dira was silent.

"Gue really, right?"ask Sheila again.

"Wrong, you're wrong. I really care about Lo Sheil" replied Dira.

Sheila smiled cynically, "Gue can't believe it's that easy."

"It's up to you to believe it or not, but for sure I have no intention as you say it," obviously Dira and slowly getting closer towards Sheila until they were only two steps away and in the moment Sheila was off guard, Dira immediately pulled Sheila's arm and brought her to the center.

"Well, what's wrong with me?"sheila asked annoyed.

Dira looked at Sheila deeply, "Gue doesn't know what you want to do, but if you intend to commit suicide it's Sheil's fault,"

"Keep what is true Dir? I couldn't have lived this life better I killed myself and disappeared from this world" Sheila's eyes began to tear up.

"Lo think by suicide your problem will be solved?"

Sheila fell silent she did not know what to answer, nor did she know her choice was right or wrong.

"Sheil, with suicide you are even more trouble. Suicide precedes the destiny of God Sheil, God hates it,"

"Gue can not face this test Dir, God is not fair with me why only I am treated like this,"

"Astagfirullah Istighfar Sheil, Allah is fair. Allah never gives His servants a test beyond the limits of His servant's ability. I don't know how much of a test you're having, but suicide is Sheil's wrong way,"

Sheila fell over her body shaking as tears streamed down from her eyes, "What do I do?"

Dira crouched down, she hugged Sheila tightly, "Begging Sheil to be with God, asking for guidance with Him who is all-helper. There is nothing that God cannot do in this world, the harder the test a servant faces, the more God loves him. The prize is no kidding Sheil, the gift is heaven for those who are always patient and surrender to God in the face of all the trials in this life,"Sheila grew sobbing hearing Dira's words there was a sense of regret in her who had thought of suicide.

Dira helps Sheila to stand up and wipe away Sheila's soft tears, smiles warmly, "Lo ga alone Sheil, there is God who is always with you, there is bokap lo who loves you the same. And I insyaallah will also be with you. Don't be sad!"

Sheila clasped Dira's hand, "Thank You, Dir,"

Dira just smiled gently and checked the clock on his phone which turned out to have shown at half twelve.

Dira immediately pulled Sheila's arm brought her down, "Yuk down, soon Zhuhur we pray first, you can also vent as much as Allah hehe," said Dira with a gentle smile.

"Fix your prayers then God will improve your life,"

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