Differences
part 12's

"Susceptible humans will fall. When failure comes again and again, remember not to give up. Failure is not the end, there is still tomorrow for you to start again. The earth is still spinning, the sun is still rising from its proper direction. Do not walk if you are afraid of falling. Because when you start walking it means you are ready for everything you might find at every step you create. Maybe not as often as you find thorns, but there you can also find something valuable from a travel story until you can be in the dot of success."

"only when you have a hard time and think about giving up then what is the meaning of the struggle?

Indeed there is pain, especially if you see some of them start to walk far ahead, but occasionally try to look, look behind there are still those who are struggling to crawl, but sometimes try to look back, there are still steps far behind you. That means, you succeed, succeed to keep going strong, succeed because you don't choose to give up"

Tiara recalls saying that during the Tiara incident that did not stop crying about being ranked 20th in her class when she was Junior High.

That afternoon, Tiara was crying beside her father. A hiccup due to so tight his chest at that time. Tiara had promised not to cry but saw the father who was not her scolding her or nagging her father just gently rubbed his head and hugged her warm.

Though if you are angry according to Tiara it will be better, because he really deserves it. How could Tiara experience such a drastic drop in grades, ranking twenty out of twenty-five students in her class.

So with a big smile you say proud"great father"

Tiara even more crying, the father's words make her more hurt. How can he be great, which there is a timid Tiara

"Shy father don't have a child like a tiara?"

On the sidelines of his cries Tiara stared at the face of the father.

"Who said? You are proud, you dare to speak honestly" said the father

Father who if talking is always passionate, difficult to be invited sad.

Sometimes Tiara asks when was the last time you cried.

"But I'm rank 20, Tiara's shy"

"What should be ashamed? I am proud" said Father

"You can beat those five people in your class, you should be proud"

Tiara did not reply to the father's words, still busy sucking his snot that filled his olfactory senses

"You shouldn't cry if you don't get champion one, it means you still have to fight" said the father

"Fragal now does not mean tomorrow can not, it is with kayak gini tuh you can see how much willpower in you to be able to"

"What about those who ranked her last, isn't she sad? Tiara-don't always want to see above may I try to see the people below you"

Tiara stopped crying even though part of her still felt unacceptable.

"How?" Ask the girl

"Many are grateful"

I don't know why the words of the father at that time came back to his head.

His outstretched hand took his cell phone and searched for the name of the solar-person he was going to call.

While there, Surya just finished dinner and intends to return to work on some of his schoolwork but stopped because suddenly his heart warmed when he saw whose name was listed on his cellphone screen.

My boyfriend! Is calling ...

No one starts the conversation first.

And somehow upon hearing the voice from the woman, all her fatigue today just disappeared.

"You've been busy all day with no news"

"sorry"

And it's always that word that comes out. Excuse me.

"Can't be sorry! I want to be angry!"

The man chuckled to himself hearing the words of the girl he knew his girlfriend. Inwardly said angrily how to say more that he chose to pendam himself.

"Why diem?"

"Say you were angry, yes I was diem, so you could hear your voice angry"

"That's not it, suryaaaa"

"Where dear, I want you to be angry too will still love me"

In his heart Tiara had sworn the man over. His intention to get angry was even made baper. Even though the male flutter was of absolutely no quality yet enough to make his stomach feel like it was filled with flying butterflies.

"You know, I've been waiting all day for you to tell me but nothing. I'm worried you know, afraid of what's going on."

The woman's voice while nagging was always something she liked. The way to worry about him, the way that is always attentive even though he is less sensitive, maybe.

Somehow the loud voice of the girl as she shouted her name as it re-energized her mind.

The girl's worried face as it suddenly dragged her away from the bridge barrier. The hard slap he got back then instead of a tranquilizing hug.

"LO CRAZY HUH!?"

Tiara tried to regulate the roar of her breath that up and down held back emotions.

"YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF YOU HAD JUST JUMPED?"

the man in front of him looked down lethargic. Both of his eyes stared blankly at the end of his shoe. The next second sounded a sobbing.the man was crying. Tiara stomped her temple back to Surya. Some time back facing the man.

"After you jump down there, can all your problems be solved?"

Tiara looked at the man with watery eyes. He could never imagine what it would be like if he were a little late.

"Surya look at me now!"

"Surya pliss"

His hand came to a halt as Surya stared at him with a pushy look.

Tonight he was quite surprised to hear the news that someone saw Surya standing on the bridge barrier with an empty view into the water.

"Did I mean nothing to you anymore? Why even gini?"

Tiara felt completely useless, as she could only watch the person in front of her cry. Whether he can't tell her, at least it can make her feel more useful, not even intend to kill herself and run away from everything.

He was angry, very angry. Disappointed? Obviously very disappointed. He has tried to be honest, but why the man prefers to keep quiet and bear everything himself.

"LO'S NOT A CLOWN WHO SMILES STUPIDLY IN FRONT OF EVERYONE, SURYA!"

"Lo doesn't understand" said the man

"What don't I know?"

"Gue knows Everything!"

"You're stupid" she said as she continued to tighten her embrace.

"He's gone--"

"He lied to Ra, he didn't make a promise to watch my concert later"

Tiara was silent, letting the man embrace her, getting more dissolved in her unraveling cry.

"There I am, I came" said the girl.

"Surya-"

"Surya, hello?"

His gaze was fixed on the trees that were blown by the wind outside the window. There are no stars, only cloudy clouds and lightning bolts that signal it will rain soon.

"Thank you" he said

Tiara kept the phone away from her hearing and looked at the phone she was holding. After that, he frowned.

"Hello, hello Surya it's you, right?" Ask the girl doubtfully

Surya smiled his smile wide.

"Why did you suddenly say that?" Tiara's asking across there

"You know, thanks for being my girlfriend"

"You're weird" but even so his smile on his lips can't cover his reddened face.

Had he really ended his life that day, he sure would have regretted not being able to feel how happy he was now. His hands moved to reach the frame on the table near him he put the dark brown classical guitar.

Then smile knot.

"What happened today?" Ask Surya

The shadow of him who is always haunted by guilt when behaving indifferently.Even simple questions to just ask about what he did today never even once he asked. Always being indifferent makes it too late to just ask you okay and always end up with regret.

"Everything goes on like always, nothing different. Oh but now it's different, because Surya has picked up his phone and I'm on a whim"

"Aren't you happy?"

"No, five minutes ago, yeah."

"Tiara" the heavy voice of the man called out his name

"Hmm?"

"Don't go, I don't know how to lose one more person"

"No, I don't promise but, as much as possible, I won't leave you"

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"Lo Block!" Caci the boy whose school uniform came out as well as the collar of the irregular shirt.

One fist managed to escape hitting the face of a man who was often called Dion by students in his class.

"LO WHATIN DITA HAH!!?"

"Why did his face get bruised, I asked?"

Now Noval's voice had weakened, slowly approaching Dion with an intimidating look. The man in front of him could not get up again due to Noval who blindly punched him without the slightest defense.

Dion coughed as Noval violently pulled the collar off her shirt.

"Gue doesn't know she's Lo's girl! I was just giving him a lesson for meddling in my affairs!"

"That's because you're being rough with girls!"

Bogeman violently hit the man's face again. At the corner of his lips was already spitting out fresh blood.

As he was about to take another hit, Noval came to a halt

"NOVAL ALREADY!"

The girl rushed up to him and dragged him away from Dion who had been lying helpless on the floor of the classroom.

It was certainly a spectacle of other children, no one dared to break up, seeing Noval angry until this kind of loyalty made them no one dared to speak. Noval is notoriously calm and doesn't say much who would have thought it could get out of control when angry.

"gue wants to teach a lesson about dit!"

"This is no way!"

"But he dared to touch you!

"I'm okay, Noval's not sick"

The man stopped shouting, momentarily closed his eyes and took a rough breath.

"Val..it's been..." The girl's eyes began to water evident as she stared at Noval and her trembling voice.

Noval is still trying to regulate her emotions. Something he can no longer tolerate when it comes to the girl he loves.

"Don't cry"

His voice began to soften again, pulling the girl in his arms.

"I'm not wrong, he's already ngusik you, I obviously can't stay that way" noval no longer controlled emotions, now he looks more calm.

"It hurts?" Noval shook her head as the girl pointed at the dried blood at the corner of her lips.

Apparently the man also had a knock when he was caught off guard earlier.

still, it was nothing compared to the pain of seeing the woman he guarded so carefully being hurt by someone else.

"We give medicine first your cheek, fear getting worse" said Noval

Dita shook her head quickly. "That's your wound that needs to be dealt with."

Everything is hard to do on your own. That's why men always say.

"the smallest thing you can never cover"

Dita nodded in understanding. But he only tried to defend others who were being oppressed without the help of the man, because it is impossible continuously he can depend on others. He just wanted to stand on his feet without anyone else's support.