DIE Or LIFE
episode 22 The guy I pulled was you?

Arya came to give info if there are still residents who settled here he had asked if this is the I.V.V headquarters but the response of the surrounding residents became aggressive and emotional we finally decided to go to one of the buildings which has been damaged so that Alex can restore his condition while looking for information on where the headquarters is located,

it's like a village that's been ravaged by war despite being free of Kroon, but the conditions are almost the same as the city where we were looking for cards in the early rounds of ', ' he said , indeed, there are only homes and office buildings that are not as tall as buildings in the city

finally we found an abandoned house that was damaged indeed but enough for us to rest and recover the condition of Alex, the house with a not-so-wide courtyard with a messy front porch, we put Alex in one of the rooms luckily there was still a bed there even if it was just one,

there is no water and electricity here, we have to find another source of water hopefully there is a river in the countryside, the village is pretty much residential and populated but they are too cynical and reluctant to help newcomers.

I was sitting in front of Lyta's porch and Kye was trying to find a lamp or flashlight that was still working in the house, "we just traced the fence there must be a river and some wood to warm the body" Alif saw walking with Arya

"hey you guys" I approached them

" you guys want to find wood?, I help ya" just wanted the path Arya has blocked me with her body "why the hell "my question

" you're here to take care of Alex" Arya said

"there's Rachel" I looked away

" Lisa I know you feel guilty but at least talk to her, she saved your life and don't blame yourself too much" Alif tried to give me advice

"Kye take care of the women and Alex, we want to find wood and food" Alif approached Kye who just came out of the house

"let's see why we have to take care of them" Kye replied

"HEY, if it wasn't for them we might have died earlier, anyway from the start I would never have wanted to kill my comrade again" Alif said

"Lisa we're leaving" said Arya

I nodded

Kye stood guard outside I tried to talk to Alex even though it felt like she still couldn't see him because of this guilt,

"Alex, is what you're saying that starts appreciating me that's a sign you've forgiven me? " rachel's voice rang out I hid outside Alex's room and tried to listen

" i do thank you and appreciate what you did, but for that I still can't forget it" Alex replied

" lex was me-at the time," Rachel didn't finish explaining Alex had already brushed off that explanation

" don't make me remember that incident again and make this gratitude disappear" said Alex

Rachel clenched her hand "well, but I don't want just a thank you note from you, you have to reply"

what was with them until Alex seemed so angry with Rachel, I decided to go into the room

" excuse me, Rachel, I want to talk to Alex" I said

Rachel left with her sour face, I was sitting next to Alex

"excuse me" I'm still down still not looking at Alex

" sorry again? you actually have what the hell's wrong Lisa? " answered Alex with a smile

" i shouldn't have spoken harshly to you, when you saved me" I continued

" it's just a small wound" Alex grumbled at me she always tried to calm me down

"this hand is warm, I don't want it to be cold because it keeps protecting me" my inner self

" Lex please stop to protect me and be kind to me just be normal, because it will only make me tormented, I can protect myself" I said in a trembling voice

" what are you? I protect you not because I'm being nice to you, but my body wants it, this heart doesn't want to lose you, this brain commands my entire limbs to protect you" Alex raised my bowed face from feeling rested

" you said you could protect yourself? to me my woman who always cries and is afraid to see blood" she continued

I pulled his hand from my face

"when did I become your woman? and I don't always cry"

" well, well he's angry" Alex laughed mischievously

" when did you say, yes since I first met you, do you still not remember?" ask her

" yeah I was briefly remembered but not so clearly, I forgot" I said

"alright try to remember this" Alex took my hand and put it on his face "you can just give up on the world, on the people around you but never give up on yourself. maybe now the condition is like this but we don't know tomorrow, the day after tomorrow and so on it might be better so take care of yourself until then "Alex's gaze is very deep

" you remember?" ask her again

I looked up at him, "hey I asked you to remember?" Alex pinched my cheek

"aaw" I rubbed my cheek "you can't possibly be that gloomy cat guy right?"

Alex frowned "what, that gloomy catty guy, am I that bad? "

" yes I saw your appearance like that, oh yes at that time you tried to commit suicide by fishing the Kroon horde on the highway right, right, in the end because I saved you I was also hunted by that Kroon"

Alex tried to justify his sitting position with a grimacing face holding back the pain, seeing him grimacing in pain made me worry about the condition of the wound

" is the pain getting worse?" I made sure

" well but I can still hold it, sorry if that time I made you difficult"

I smiled "just want to thank you because with you at that time I felt more confident to face this condition, when you choose to go alone without me and my sister I feel a little scared because I have to fight back to protect my sister alone"

In the Aryan and Alif rivers trying to find food whether it's fruit or deer, they also make sure if this water is clean and worthy of consumption, there is also a silver lining with us experiencing difficult times and having to survive by utilizing the environment, we can distinguish clear water and food worth consuming.

around the river the fence was stretched blocking the entrance of the Kroon, Alif tried to take a water supply with some containers that he brought

Arya tries to find fruit or deer maybe for dinner, "actually where's the base? if there are still other obstacles there should have been some info from the Lieutenant" thought Arya, "Aryaa, what have you got?" shouted Alif

Arya went over to Alif "you don't have to shout" he said "why? take it easy here Kroon free" replied Alif

" don't you think I'll take you for granted, you're our enemy so don't get too close and familiar with me" cynical Arya

"huh, Arya you and I have known each other before, I never wanted to shoot Lisa in the first place, do you still think I'm the enemy? "

" it was then, but now that you're my enemy, I'm not like Lisa who easily believes in others" Arya left Alif

''he turned out to be so annoying'' his cynicism

After talking to Alex my stomach started to feel hungry, "where are you going?" Alex is holding me back from going out to check on Arya and Alif has gone home or "i don't want to see Arya and Alif they've come home from looking for groceries or not, you sleep rest your body''