
In a luxurious apartment a woman was sitting at the dining table facing a birthday cake with a pushy look. there was the name of her two children and a candle forming the number 5. she is Cristin Angeline, who is a, Cristin celebrates his own son's birthday.
"sadly Mommy happy birthday, may you live a long life, mommy prayer is always with you wherever you are. Please forgive mommy dear because until now mommy can not meet you, besides being busy mommy is embarrassed to meet you, will you hate Mommy or vice versa? Mommy hope you are happy there, may you get a replacement mommy who can love you and also your Daddy, mommy want you to build a whole family even without mommy on your side dear." christin said with a sob.
She admitted she was a selfish mother, for fear of the poor she established herself leaving her family. Because she used to be poor her self-esteem was stepped on, looked down upon by others.
the past is not easy to miss before becoming the wife of Rafka, it makes her relationship with Rafka from the beginning of marriage until finally divorced no love is awakened perfectly.
he eventually chose to leave Rafka and her two children, although Rafka begged and promised to build love between the two of them, but because of stubbornness a Cristin finally Rafka agreed to the divorce.
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A man was daydreaming on the balcony of his room, occasionally his tears fell without excuse. various problems hit his mind and heart, there was a sense of tightness that squeezed his chest so that it felt he could no longer breathe.
'why does my suffering never end, God, why? I can endure all the pain, as long as you do not give me the trials that make my son hurt, for whatever I cannot, O Allah.' inwardly.
'whatever I try to cover up the painful reality, but it turns out it's all for nothing, my son knows everything even though I don't know where they can come from.'
Rafka cried in silence, her body trembling with tears rushing down.
Karin who wanted to see the state of the twins undo his intentions, she heard the sound of Isak someone from inside the room near the room of the twins. Coincidentally the door of the room was slightly open, Karin peeked to see who was crying, how surprised she saw Rafka who was sobbing with a trembling body, Karin hesitantly approached Rafka.
"sir you crying?" asked Karin doubtfully.
Rafka turned her head towards Karin who was standing looking at her.
"Can I hug you?" lirih Rafka with puffy eyes.
Doubtfully Karin nodded her head and smiled. Rafka immediately scattered her body into Karin's embrace, her crying instantly broke.
Karin rubbed Rafka's back gently, she also shed her tears. Karin knows what Rafka is feeling, she doesn't know how she should entertain him.
Long standing makes Karin's legs feel sore, he moves his legs uncomfortably making Rafka's comfort disturbed.
"you why ? are you feeling uncomfortable?" ask Rafka slowly.
"hihi, sorry sir has long been established so pegel his feet." replied Karin with a cry.
"yes, we'll just sit on the couch" Rafka said.
Karin nodded her head and followed Rafka from behind, she sat on the elongated sofa next to Rafka.
"So, are you sleepy?" ask Rafka.
"yet sir. I don't know if it still feels reluctant to sleep, why sir?"
"did you hear my story?"
Rafka slid his body on Karin's thigh by closing his eyes, Karin was about to protest but Rafka immediately interrupted him.
"let it be like this first, I beg you."
Karin let out a long sigh, leaving Rafka on her thighs. Fortunately Karin had changed her clothes given mama ayu, a sleeping outfit with long arms.
"Today have you had a boyfriend or a close male friend?" tanya Rafka restarted the conversation.
"sir, I wonder why there are so many questions you ask me now? are you interviewing me? now I feel like I'm interviewing for a job." Karin grumbled.
Rafka smiled at Karin, who grumbled at her.
"you were in an interview, but not for a job but an interview to be the mother of the twins" Rafka chuckled.
deg!
karin's heart was racing.how not, besides the distance was very intimate with Rafka he was also surprised by the words Rafka uttered.
"i don't have a boyfriend or a close male friend, I don't have time for that because my focus is on working for my brother's future, fulfilling the wishes of both my parents who want their children to become scholars even though it is one of them" said Karin honestly.
Rafka heard Karin's reply glad not to be upset, in her heart she cheered happily.
'it turns out she's single, uhh happy with my heart' her inner self.
"forgive me the twins. I don't know why they think that way? you guys only known for a week? but I don't know why they can feel the comfort of being with you? in fact I once hired a baby sitter some people came out because the twins went berserk not liking everyone I chose to be their nanny, she said, are you wearing pellets so my son can get so sticky with you?" Rafka.
"just wear pellets" said Karin annoyed and pinched Rafka's waist hard.
"i don't have to wear anything like that, anyway without me having to use pellets a lot of men are queuing up to me. You know!"
"aww. sick" cried Rafka.
"thankfully, who told me to indiscriminately."
"i was just expecting it, why are you pinching my waist?"
"after doing it anyway, by the way I use pellets all over again, I can't possibly wear such a idol!! I'm also confused why the twins could ask me to be his mother? weird right?"
"huh, it's all my fault that it's too busy working that makes them like this" Rafka said regretfully.
Rafka laments what has happened, as her heartache vents everything into a job that results in her somewhat neglecting her son. Rafka busies herself wanting to prove that she can succeed, without her realizing she has sacrificed her son's feelings, if only he had a busy wife whatever he could take care of his son with full affection.
if time can be turned it feels like Rafka wants to change everything, he wants to spend his time with his son without having to think about work.but, whatever the power of all has happened, has happened, it is true what the saying regret comes at the end, not at the beginning.