
It's hard when I first left my little boy, but if I don't work where I buy my son's formula!
My son just finished his bronchitic treatment, the doctor suggested his formula milk in the advanced until his weight was normal!
My ex-husband never helped me!!
Early in the morning before my son woke up I was already washing clothes, shower and leave because the distance to work is quite far and I take public transportation that passed 5 o'clock has departed if left long again even the new 7th half will be no more angkot jd inevitably I have to come at 5 o'clock so as not to oversleep if I join the 7th step is made sure it will be late even though the actual hour of entry is at 7!
If I take the 5 o'clock I get to the 6th step to the workplace I use to hoard/stealing stars because if you want to overtime must get a target if you can not target and not overtime wages that can only replace the cost every day!
Home work is always running out of new magrib until home sometimes my son has not taken a shower from the morning ya aampuun kucel really sometimes also do not eat rice just snack, just snack, I bathed my son and I bribed him to eat and soon after he was satisfied he scrawled coloring his books he fell asleep!
every night there's drama before I go to bed, my tears can't be contained, I imagine if only mamah went home maybe my son will be there to take care of him and I can work quietly!
Until the moment my mamah comes home very happy it feels like there are mamah who will take care of my son and of course my work at home will be reduced because there are mamah who help. But it is beyond belief that his sister mamah came home as well and chose to stay at home with us so that aunt can work and nitip her children to mamah!
aunt's son has 3, please,
2 Girls 1 boys 1 SMA 1 SD 1 is still my age!
all of her all-round compared to me who was only a factory worker at that time her UMR was under 1 million while the husband of the driver's aunt whose salary was 5 million/aunty's own moon working at the diner as a dishwasher but claimed her wages were 300 rb/day!
my mom is among those who I work with also do not know the UMK wage or the restaurant wage!
While I since I worked in the garment I know the kinds of people I know the wages in each region is different, different, the restaurant wages under UMR I know because I also never sleep and wonder before entering the factory.
Who can make a lot of money in that short time at the restaurant but who serves Plus-plus!
Mamah just believe it is the dishwasher time alone at 300 rb/day 🤦 plain his mamah me!
I am not only looking for money, I am also looking for blessings that are nothing but a little bit of origin and useful for my son!
While at home my son often get scorn and mockery even a blow from mamah and not infrequently mamah expel my son tell follow his father not here! my son is only 2.5 years old but bad words always come out of my mouth!
mama always compares my income and aunt's,
forcing me to cooperate with my aunt until I can't stand the anger that I've been holding so far I said that aunt works as a comfort woman in a karokean place but mamah even angry ga believing that my days at home were always quarreling with mamah until one day my aunt's son was caught stealing pencil stationery, pens, erasers, erasers, Type-X etc no matter how long he did it is clear that had a stall wonder stationery kok very quickly exhausted fitting in asked the shopkeeper only a few who buy stationery the shopkeeper took the initiative to trap my aunt's son because he was the only one who often bought stationery back then!
And it turns out right after peeping he put a lot of stationery into his bag but which was shown to be purchased only 1 pcs after that the search was done at his school also turned out to be a lot the pen and pencil were already sold to his classmates and some in his free love told him it was a gift from his father!
After being expelled and in total all of his 600 rb, knowing the incident mamah I just talk
"Don't repeat yaaa ya already da now mah mamah mamah and a lot of money!"
It is so, Allah, while my son who accidentally dropped the glass continues to break on the maki until it is hit even though my glass is still a lot if any of them are also used my glass!
I was disappointed that my child who was protected and thought to be afraid that he was injured even made him more mentally shocked by the broken glass, scolded and hit as well, it's not fair that heartache is certain and it's hard to forget even if I don't see firsthand the stories of my grandmother and neighbors who helped my son but still hurt my heart to hear them!
Until finally my emotions peaked I explained the job of aunt do I explain also the meeting of aunt with her new husband who now knows where??
At l*kalis*si in Jakarta and I explained what her job is so that you know exactly what aunt's job is!
I know where aunt knows uncle from because my uncle told me and my other aunt knows that too!
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out of anger I did not accept with my words finally my aunt left the house contracted elsewhere still in the same area just can be said in her city!
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I think everything will return to normal but it turns out not only my income is limited to UMR is still less cover for my life! I want to feel quickly married again but every time close to a man is always not in the blessing of his parents because my status is single mom!
until I was sick and could not work anymore my asthma relapsed and needed regular treatment until a time that could not be determined because it was not TB,a few times X-rays result in this fine pure asthma derivative!
When I was sick I needed funds for treatment I borrowed 1 factory friends I will change when I work again and they believe in me even love their support to convince me I can get through this all!
But different from mamah when I work not a bit I considered especially when I was unemployed for him I was just a burden, father told me money 50 rb ask mamah to seek treatment today do not borrow any more on other people embarrassed, keep you go to work
afternoon instead of giving money mamah instead throw me and my son because it is not able to stand the mamah caci-maki finally I take care of my clothes and my son's clothes there are 2 backpacks that I will bring later!
afternoon after my father,
I was angry because my mother did not give me money for treatment while the doctor said do not break up if the break up had to be repeated from the beginning and now is the 3rd month I am on medication!
In vain my struggle for these 3 months borrow here and there finally broke up middle of the road period must be repeated from the beginning how much more money should come out????
my father took me to look for my routine medicine to the pharmacy who knows there is but none of the pharmacies that sell the drug specifically not sold freely must use a doctor's prescription! I talk to you it's okay I'm healthy tomorrow want to work again at home, mamah and father fight this because of me, because of me,yes, I am not useful from a small just sickly cry I can not stand the pain of tightness, heartache also with mamah behavior that is not mother nature!
I don't want to be a sick person!
The next day I dress my son in school I carry a backpack containing my clothes early only 1 continue me back home to bring the 1 more I hide my bag in by the road to be close to stop the angkot then I went to my grandmother's house while I was looking for a locker in Fakebuk wondering to friends finally there is an offer in Cirebon and Purwakarta !
In Cirebon one of the 1 chocolate factory but which obviously can not bring children, which in Purwakarta in laundry is allowed to bring children as long as it does not interfere with work.
I decided tomorrow to go to Purwakarta but tonight I will stay at my grandmother's house a little far from home!
But it turns out that the father did not stay silent realizing I was not there and my clothes were also no father directly looking for me even though it was raining day father easily found me because there was no longer my family which might let me go!
Grandma's house is indeed if I have a problem here is where I complain!
The father persuaded my son to come home until my son was crying and wanted to come home with Abah his understanding of small my son used to be the same brother rarely with me because I work! another with me who was dominated by anger and revenge at that time I did not want to see mamah I hate mamah!
I let my son be taken home with his Abah because he also cry to go home but I can't come along I'll work so I can give him what my son needs!
that's my determination!
The next day I leave to bring only the money that my father gave me for treatment yesterday which I can only use for the cost! luckily, the meal was prepared at the mes! I was given a 100 rb cashbon to buy my needs there! my friends there are 4 employees all single mom!
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the days go by every night in the garnish of tears considering the fate of my son in the inbox house, SMS, SMS, sometimes the call from the village who gave the news about my son who was always tortured by this heartache mama heard the news it felt more and more unwilling I would go back home if my son wanted to come with I'm in school here!
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a month passed my sick son wanted to meet me and again he wanted a tablet that his friends already had only him who did not have a tablet!
After asking permission to go home my employer gave me permission to go home 2 days at home I brought home 1.5 million money I used to buy a new Miko tablet price of 750 rb at that time my leftover money give it to Mamah for my son's fee during my stay I only leave 50 rb for my fare back to work!
So every month the money is 1.5 million a month I give to mamah about 1 JT,100 rb for PP fees, PP, the rest I use to pay the debt to friends I borrow for treatment! only 7 months I worked there with given time to go home 2 days /there was a fakebuk friend who invited me back to work at the factory but the different parts of his work at his UMR overtime guarantee had gone up 1.8/months but if overtime continues so far can only be 2 weeks he said so 3 million/month has been confirmed to enter the account because tempted by the offer finally back to the factory!
seriate....