WIDOW BECAUSE OF WIDOW (SADNESS )
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Hanan then closed his eyes, the sight that occurred before his eyes made his heart break.

" I used to be like this, could it be the same that Yasmin felt at that time as I feel right now", Hanan's mind pondered over her past.

" Bun .. I'm sorry bun, sorry", Inner Hanan screamed, in the closed eyes came tears rushing from the corner of her eyes, Haya who knew that even then took a tissue and wiped it.

" Are you dizzy?", asked Haya attentively.

" Little boy, you want to rest first", replied Hanan slowly. Hananan tried to sleep.

It feels like being in this house for too long is not hearty, embarrassed like there is no pride, Anang is still Hanan, she said, although impressed cuek and heartless in fact today like faced two sides of the sword between happy and sad heh hujam so one.

Pleased, pleased, can see his three children even his children have grown up smart independent and do not hate him but on the other hand the pain is no less great than the happiness of his ex-wife has married again even already have two the children of his life are calm and peaceful and happy.

The world is like laughing at him, his life, blangsak! his family that he built did not produce children even filled with betrayal and trials that persist.

If honestly his life with the Goddess is now like a life of unwilling death, how not they in this second marriage just status alone reality Hanan never channeled his passion to the Goddess, how not they are in this second marriage, the feeling is no longer there since seeing Dewi related to Mang Usep.

In Hanan's mind at this time he wants a healthy way to be able to immediately return to city A, not strong if constantly see his ex-wife mingling with her new husband.

If in the past Hanan Abai never thought if Yasmin would find the Heart patch so soon, not 5 years apart Yasmin already married and even had two children really beyond Hanan's expectations.

Yasmin who is naive simple does not neko-neko Hanan thought it would not be easy to get a replacement.

But Hanan's mind is wrong even though Yasmin is innocent and simple but Yasmin is a very beautiful woman and independent so it is appropriate if many men who want despite her status are widowed.

" Would Mother be traumatized when I'm polygamous, she never used to dress up or just wear thin lipstick never, ever, but Yasmin who I see now why she looks radiant and also smeared her lipstick even though thin, if not remarried I must be willing to do anything to return to her", inner Hanan in her closed eyes her heart cursed her past folly, the pious wife in her grasp she let go without feeling and was so steadfast just for the sake of a widow far from religion.

Intentions to rest to recover and want to go home before the afternoon before the morning, but his heartbreak is very difficult to send his eyes closed in his sleep, deep sleep, Hanan condemned his folly in the past that made his old days even nelangsa.

3 Hours later Joseph went to the hospital and 1 pm was home again.

After entering the house and greeting with the greetings of the doctor Joseph immediately met his wife who was sitting in the room while breastfeeding baby Jonah.

" how long does it take?", asked Dr. Yusuf to Yasmin.

" It has been but only a little while the baby is crying so yes wake up again and Mother has not prayed" replied Yasmin as she welcomed the hand of doctor Joseph and kissed him.

Yasmin also joined in smiling widely, "the most beautiful ex is Dad, if Dad means the dream husband dong", kekeh Yasmin replied to the husband's words.

" obvious! no doubt it and Mother love Father", doctor Joseph immediately menguyel uyel Yasmin's head while kissing his cheek.

" Oh duh duh duh..dk dad naughty nih mother in random", screamed Yasmin.

" gobbles" said Dr. Yusuf.

" Have you talked yet to Mas Hanan?", asked Dr. Yusuf.

" no one wants to talk, what do you want to say? minglingan also spend time with baby and sister Yafi But Brother Yafinya is boci ya dik ya", said Yasmin as she looked towards baby Yunus.

" if big brother where it is lonely" asked Doctor Joseph about when h.

" Hasan is the same Hussein used to go to the mosque has not yet returned, probably still in the mosque while Haya and his father nemenin took a nap in the guest room" Yasmin replied.

" Don't tell me to get up to Bun prayer?", asked Dr. Yusuf.

" It's already".

" Let me see for a moment" Joseph's doctor kissed Yasmin on the forehead and then exited the room to the guest room to see Hanan.

Joseph's doctor opened the door slowly so as not to make a sound as his eyes stared on the bed, there the doctor Yusuf saw Hanan who was sitting leaning on the bed rest and Haya sleeping beside him, Hanan's hand which was not on the infusion was busy stroking his daughter's head hair.

" Why not rest?", asked Doctor Joseph quietly.

" Already, just woke up his mind wants to go home soon so not calm", answer and a little reasoned.

" Just relax I've said also tell relax, you can permission not have to rush, let's just say I'm your doctor did not let Mas go home if it is not in good condition Mas, Mas, from here to the city of A is not a little distance mas at least 5-6 hours of travel required fit conditions so rest first a lot if you want to go home" said Dr. Yusuf.

" But, Doc, I have to go home there's no way I'm going to bother you to stay here, Thank you because the doctors are taking care of my children, loving them, educating them Thank you Doctor! I feel so ashamed I failed to be a father to them I do not deserve to be called a father by them, I have hurt them, their supposedly beautiful childhood even I was soiled with actions that without a long thought, it felt this regret for the rest of my life until the end of my life, of course, maybe it will not end.... say my apologies to Yasmin if the time can be played and go back to the time where we went to college, maybe I will never accept the father's offer to propose to Yasmin, maybe then I'll give Yasmin to doctor Joseph, live with me only the pain that I offer, live with me only the suffering and the concern then I cast out, I'm sorry Doctor! please apologize to Yasmin once again thank you", Hanan had already broken these tears shamelessly expressed all his heart in front of Joseph's doctor so that his burden today was a little relieved.

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