Tiba Khitbah
Innate Emotion

Again and again, this self is still unable to accept the destiny and life provisions that God gave so Zahra tried to find justification for the arguments he thought and created himself.

"No prayer is rejected by God, perhaps God will grant your prayer one day or perhaps God will replace it with an abundant reward that will save you in the hereafter, Son."

Abi Abdullah always gave religious understanding to his beloved daughter with a light language that was easy for him to understand. So, as a servant who has just migrated with a very minimal religious understanding, what is conveyed by abi is enough to enter the heart of the princess, until for a moment Zahra was silent because she felt that what Abi said was true.

"Zahra, there's Nak Fahri outside, he's been to our house a few times today just to make sure you're okay, son."

"Well, that guy doesn't have a job?" my words were spontaneous to make abi Abdullah shocked by what was ejected from the oral Zahra.

"Son Fahri came and went home to finish his work, then came again for your sake, son."

Abi Abdullah is the same as Ummi Fatimah, he also really likes the man named Fahri, even all the things that the man did were considered as a form of the man's concern and sincerity for his beloved daughter. Yes, it is not wrong if a fiance is worried and wants to make sure the state of his fiance is fine, but it applies to lovers who love and love each other from both sides, but it is true, not just one side.

For Zahra, the arrival of Ustadz Fahri into his life is a bad luck that he did not expect. Zahra didn't want to get to know the man and she didn't want to get close to him very much, so she didn't want to meet him because it would only make her pain worse. But if Alex were to come and explain the misunderstanding between them, it's possible that this whole disease would instantly leave his body.

"Son, Ummi likes Nak Fahri and little heart Ummi is very sure that Nak Fahri is a good and right man for you, so do you want to meet Nak Fahri for just a minute, son?" abi Abdullah asked with a million wishes that were clearly drawn on his face which was now beginning to wrinkle.

Zahra knew and understood very well that Ummi was very eager to meet the man named Fahri. However, for some reason he felt so unwilling to meet the man, when he heard the name of the man alone Zahra's blood boiled with heightened emotions.

Zahra is not the type of woman who is not easily close to new people because of past traumas that always hurt her heart and feelings. If at the first introduction Zahra felt uncomfortable, then he could not be forced to continue to communicate, except when everything went like running water, friendship that occurred over time until the natural feeling appeared. However, this time he was forced to do something he did not like and this made himself more emotional.

"Bi, I'm so sorry, but Zahra's tired, Bi."

A word that is a subtle allusion if he does not want to meet other people now let alone the man with the label of his fiancee.

"Pity Nak Fahri, he has been waiting for a long time in our house" said Abi Abdullah.

But Zahra persisted with this conviction of heart, not because she disrespected her father or disrespected the well-intentioned guest who came to her house, but Zahra wanted to show that she was not very receptive to the match. He also wanted to say that matters of the heart and feelings cannot be forced.

Abi Abdullah looked disappointed, the face that was originally filled with a sinister smile turned into a forced smile. Abi Abdullah also rushed out of his room, as if he wanted to quickly meet his favorite son-in-law.

There is guilt and sin in Zahra, because she has made her loved ones sad and disappointed with her attitude. However, this was one of the forms of rebellion that Zahra did indirectly.

'Here you go, Zahra, now you go to sleep and think nothing!'

Zahra laid her body back on the bed, tried to close her eyes, hoping that when tomorrow came to say hello, she could say, "Zahra, it's a dream" Zahra said, pinching her own cheek.

However, the more Zahra forced herself to sleep, the more she imagined things, one of which was her vacation plan with Alex. Yes, the two of us had planned to travel to Yogyakarta this year, but how could they possibly leave while she was about to marry another man.

Since being close to Alex, Zahra and the man never went for a walk, the two of them only occasionally spent time at the cafe just to buy their favorite ice cream. However, the closeness of the two is intertwined due to good communication between Zahra and Alex via phone calls. They sometimes have an inner bond where the heart thinks the same thing in each other's heads, even they both miss each other even though they both never express each other's feelings. Yes, maybe both of them are not aware of what is felt in each other.

The night changed in the morning, Zahra's eyes still remained silent for a second, as if he did not feel drowsiness at all, even though the girl was very sleepy. The dark circles that looked like pandas with pale faces made Zahra look like an undead. But, Zahra forced herself to stay in the office, because in her house she felt uncomfortable at all. Zahra also avoided fighting with her mother.

Yes, by hurrying, Zahra prepared to do the routine in the morning, before leaving for the office. Although she has not fully recovered, the nurse must also be standing guard in front of the girl's room to take care of Zahra, or rather be her mother's man to keep the princess from escaping.

 "Miss Zahra, Miss has to mi-,"

The woman came to Zahra's room as she thought about it, even the sister did not continue her words when she saw the girl in uniform while preening in front of the glass.

"Just put the breakfast and medicine there, and I'll take it, Sister," said Zahra gently as she pointed at the table in her room.

"But the Madam asked me to make sure that Miss has to eat and take medicine, Miss," the nurse said.

"Suster, don't interfere, I'm in charge!"