Thesis or Reception
10 - Shy but Wanna

Kayana was chin-backed, staring at the window with a lethargic look. She wasn't very attentive to Lisa's babble beside her.

I don't know why today felt a little runnyam. Usually Kayana never envied the progress of people, but today she felt a little jealous of the chat her friends about later graduation and make up where, using the services of a photographer who, who, and who, and others.

While Kayana is still struggling with the endless revision of her script, if you remember it feels like she wants to give up every time the results of her revision are rejected by Adrian, in the deepest heart she wants to give up. But Kayana was self-conscious and always remembered her mother who had worked hard to pay for her college since her father died 2 years ago.

However, Kayana also felt very tired with her lecture, she felt like she wanted to cry every time the results of the revision felt was correct but it was not good enough in the eyes of Adrian.

Already so far Kayana suddenly felt that the research was wrong title, missteps and too dare to take sub-topics that look cool, but in fact the field is not her specialty.

"Totally tape me Lis." Kayana leaned her head on Lisa's shoulder.

"Cape why?" Lisa took her eyes off her phone and looked at Kayana confusedly.

"My life feels really heavy,gue pursued the target for graduation this year, but it feels like my brain has not been able to continue TA.Pengen mengen mengen aliasi it feels." Kayana's voice vibrates. Not to mention that her tears came first.

"it's okay, if you feel tired and burdened. Come out all, the question will be horrified." said Lisa soothing and immediately the woman's cry broke.

Although she looks cheerful all this time, Kayana secretly always carries a heavy burden on her and Lisa knows exactly that her best friend is the type of person who always keeps everything herself and tries to look strong. Like glass, Kayana is fragile.

Lisa never forced the woman to tell a story except Kayana herself who took the initiative, and look at the results of Kayana's selfishness to keep all her problems alone, without realizing she was hurting herself.

Kayana always feels not good enough in all things, and feels angry with herself because she can not make the people around her happy. Though it's beyond his capacity, we can't please everyone right?

"If papa were still around, he would say 'father Kay, if you fail. The important thing is that you have tried your best, papa remains proud of you' I continue to be taught around the Sudirman road while buying my favorite martabak" said Kayana sobbing.

"Now I've been telling anyone the same story about the weight of life. Same story nyokap, not make doi down again. Same sodara also gabisa, I really feel alone." he continued another hiccup.

"My thesis is not complicated even though it has entered the 4th year of college, my friends have been on haha hihi graduation photos while I am still stuck here.Gue really feel failed." Lisa only listened to Kayana's sigh without refuting, she kept hugging her best friend tightly while gently patting Kayana's back, trying to calm her down.

"Gue can't be a good child, and honestly I'm stressed thinking my mother has to pay again, if I fail graduation this year." her tears kept flowing without her being able to stop.

"Udah?any uneg-uneg to leave again?" Lisa asked from behind Kayana's back after the woman's cry eased a little.

"Kay, from the beginning you were your own gate. I'm always on your side, so no freakin way! You can feel alone again,okay?if you feel there is a problem and want to tell me the same story, my jabanin time will be. I can be sad if you always feel alone, meanwhile I am always there for elo whenever and wherever, except fitting again ngehalu oppa." said Lisa softly while inserting a little joke to comfort Kayana.

"Bokap lo must have been proud up there, because he had a daughter as great as elo, whose heart was as strong as steel. And you will not be disappointed with Elo! If I have a child as strong as you, grateful plus happy is crazy."

"And about the thesis lo,gue sure will be finished. Sooner or later it will work. Just go through the kay, stop comparing yourself to each other, every human has his own timeline. Just enjoy, if you are dizzy about the cost of college, there will be me. Later we open BO with heheh" said Lisa Cengegesan.

"Anj-b...Perverted lo satan" Kayana replies while pinching Lisa's arm.

"Seriusan deh hahah, don't sedesperate that. You have a pretty face so it's not even useful, kekep it's a rich single child like Bagas, or Mario the next faculty boy, doi can never chase the elo of the time of the maba." lisa begins her perverted advice.

"Heh.gamungkin I scamming money children people" said Kayana annoyed and then took off his embrace.

"Halah.lo also likes money" Lisa quipped.

"Like, but I'm not willing to add to my sin for money,oon!" kayana's reply was irritated.

"Hehe.iyasih.Sin of yak, yaudah now you have a holiday. Refreshing the cake so as not to mumet dizzy seven circumference or should we go to Bali, queen?" Bargain Lisa while raising her eyebrows.

"Lo ga ngerti means gapunya money yes, nyet!" Kayana is angry.

Bali's?he thought the cost to Bali was as cheap as riding bajaj!

"Heh lo ga ga dizzy, sabi nih. My brother who works in Kalimantan wants to give shopping this month and the remaining monthly money yesterday also I saved. Sabilah make it to Bali 3-4 days, we choose the cheapest lodging, if you want to save bin kikr we sleep in the right area, spoiled hard." said Lisa explained,Kayana who had felt the squared mummy did not even finally agree to Lisa's proposal.

"Jaudah free deh, my savings due to the lab also still exist. From today I'm not a misqueen pal anymore!" Fiery words.

Lisa brandishes both her thumbs proudly "Mantep."

***

"Hmm..actually it's good, but if you want to add a little more from the reference I love, maybe it can be more concrete." Adrian commented when reading the draft of Kayana's thesis, again, there is a mistake!

"Okay sir." 

Adrian who realized Kayana's voice that sounded stingy as if he was crying took his eyes off the laptop and looked at Kayana. Her eyes widened in shock, when she saw Kayana's puffy eyes with a flushed top of her nose.

Adrian looked at Kayana clingy and clearly his eyes looked worried "You're crying?"

Kayana shook her head slowly "Cock sir, just lack of sleep." lak Kayana used a lie.  

"Hmm.You don't hurt anymore, do you?or I just want to take you home" Adrian bargained.

"Duh.didakah sir, I really gapapa really. Suer." Kayana brandished her index and middle fingers together forming a peace sign.

"Yasudah..if so, maybe you want to rest first? Or do you want to keep going on his revisian?" adrian asked, his eyes looked soft.

"Ga please sir, gapapa.I want to continue sir, let's hurry kelar hehe." 

Adrian noticed the cheerful forced tone. I don't know why the appearance of Kayana with puffy eyes makes Adrian quite disturbed.

Adrian immediately got up and then took a look at Kayana's arm "We go home, I'm gamau labeled as a cruel lecturer because there are students who came out of my room while crying." invited Adrian not to be denied.

Kayana also just follow Adrian's steps. It felt like today she did not want to be alone, she wanted to be accompanied by someone even if it was from her enemy though, Kayana needed someone to lean on.

Arriving in the car, Adrian rewinds the seat back and makes sure Kayana sits comfortably.

Adrian driving the car at moderate speed, occasionally he glanced next to him, the woman looked sad and the light in her eyes seemed a little dim, not as usual. She prefers Kayana who is nyolot and against her words than Kayana who looks sad like this. a part of her heart felt broken too.

"Ehm...have you eaten?" Adrian asked trying to break the silence between them.

Kayana replied softly "Already sir.."

"Oh.." Adrian's response.Then then silence again.

For a few minutes there was no conversation between them, then Adrian suddenly directed his car to the minimarket and stopped to buy Kayana various types of ice cream.

"More." Adrian handed a plastic bag containing various kinds of ice cream to Kayana.

"Hold dong Kayana, hand me this pegel." said the man.

Kayana looked confused when she saw a bag full of ice cream that Adrian presented to her, her estimate in the plastic was approximately 8 pieces of ice cream. "Make me all sir?" ask him plain.

"Yes to you, I love what you like. So I just buy what's there." said Adrian while running his car back.

"But this is mostly sir, I'm not sure I can run out. You got a or two?" Tawar Kayana while opening one of the ice cream parcels with vanilla flavor variants.

Adrian sniffed his shoulder "That's right. My teeth ache to eat cold-cold especially sweet-sweet so."

"Factor age yes sir." Kayana's response was witty while laughing, Adrian pretended to put on an offended look and did not pierce Kayana's speech, seeing Adrian's face that was bent because it was upset Kayana was back laughing.

Secretly Adrian was relieved, finally Kayana could be cheerful again and laugh, her face also looked light, not as sad as before.

He had only first seen Kayana's expression like that, usually every time they met Kayana only displayed a bright smile or an angry expression and his upset grunt when losing arguing with Adrian about the script.

"Thanks sir, why would you think of buying me ice cream?" Kayana asked as she bit her excited ice cream, thanks to this ice cream her mood improved slightly.

"I feel sorry to see your face, so depressed. Like other people are heartbroken, when I am sure that you must be single" said Adrian joking.

"That's fine, who likes me to know a lot sir!" Kayana stared back, unknowingly her angry nature returned, and according to Adrian means that the woman's condition has improved again.

"More than I like?" Adrian said mockingly.

"Well, not that much either! But anyway there must be.one.two.out there" said Kayana annoyed while biting the ice cream big, making Adrian who was looking at Kayana suddenly sore.

"Your teeth do not grieve, eat directly a lot of it" said Adrian shuddering in horror.

"No sir, my teeth are strong and healthy. Still growing" Kayana's response then opened her second pack of ice cream.

"Mr gamau?" Tawar Kayana's.

"Byeah, but you're a bribe yes" Adrian joked.

"No ah.gamau. Eat alone, you have hands" refused Kayana.

"But my hand is again used for driving or you want me to drive it free style without holding the steering wheel?" Adrian Cibir.

"Eh.don't be hehe sir, danger." Kayana.

"Yes, you're the only one eating. I gausah." replied Adrian relaxed, his eyes remained focused staring at the streets that began to creep because it had entered lunch hour.

"Well.why are you?" Adrian parroting.

"Said you want eskrim, I've already bribed you." answered Kayana.

"Pipetan eaten sir, then the ice cream melted. Your car can get dirty." Adrian also received a bribe from Kayana while holding a smile.

"So he said my nyuapin gamau." said Adrian.

"I gamau labeled as a bad student to the extent that his lecturer cry because gabisa eat eskrim." said Kayana lightly.

"You know, there's a reply." Adrian responded while shaking his head.

Kayana continued to feed Adrian until his ice cream was completely exhausted and when she saw the rest of the ice cream on the corner of Adrian's lips. The reflex of his hand moved to pick up a piece of tissue and then wipe away the rest of the ice cream on the man's face.

"Done..already clean again." said Kayana happy, without knowing that the man next to her was heart gymnastics.

***

Approximately 30 minutes they are both stuck in traffic, car horns interspersed when the traffic lights show green.

Kayana also sighed when she saw the vehicle that snaked along the road, the distance of the traffic light is still far ahead, she was afraid to die of boredom so awkward alone with Adrian.

Feeling like they were dating again, Kayana was embarrassed when she remembered her actions just now. Are you sure that his thesis will be translucent to dare to hold the lips of the lecturer?

For the umpteenth time Kayana sighed seeing the density of vehicles, both motorcycles and cars are just as dense. Even some drivers seem impatient and overtake Adrian's car with courage, whereas Rubicon Adrian gedenya not approximately, if his ayla who overtakes next to this car will certainly be crackers.

"Why are you breathing so hard?yoga again?" Celtuk Adrian origin.

"Not sir, I was really struggling. Mr ga bosen?"

"That's ah, that's normal." replied Adrian kalem.

How to get bored, the heart is next to it. He'll be stuck till night, he'll be monggo. 

"Can I puter song sir?" Ask Kayana.

"Can.just connect directly to his bluetooth." Adrian fiddled with the car tape to connect Kayana's phone with the car audio.

"Hehe..I heard the Korean song gapapa ya sir, again kepengen cosplay so korean girl." Kayana is busy choosing playlists of songs from her mobile phone.

"But I do not look like oppa korea tuh." cibir Adrian .

"Yee..who said I want to cosplay with my dad, I want to cosplay with my future husband" said Kayana arrogant.

"Now, look. A handsome man, right?" Kayana thrust her mobile phone towards Adrian which displays pictures of Korean artists.

"It's not handsome, it's beautiful, it's a girl." said Adrian indifferently. I want to be jealous, but not.

"This is handsome sir, not beautiful." said Kayana did not accept.

"Yeah.yaaa. It's up to you, he loves it he's still a gab can you have."

Kayana immediately frowned because what was spoken by Adrian was a fact.

"It's really bad, sir. Yes, it's a cake."

Adrian just rolled his eyeballs. "Like it is the same realistic thing dong Kay, he just does not know if you are in this world. Like it the same people around you, don't bother far."

'same me for example' continued Adrian in the heart.

"Who sir? Bagas?" Kayana asked innocently, Adrian's smile faded instantly and his mood was shattered.

"No need" said Adrian jutek

'Well.kok became the inner essence of Kayana.

Sometimes Kayana hums while listening to her favorite boyband playlist. But the lyrics in Korean sound chaotic in the ears of Adrian.

"Diem.kamu gabisa korean, let the artist sing. Later my eardrum ruptured if you continue singing" Adrian said.

"I try my best times sir." said Kayana while poking.

"What song is this, don't you think it sounds so sad?" Ask Adrian curious.

"Why not listen to a cheerful song, like blackpink or once what two names of girlgroups I forgot" joked Adrian pretentious to know.

"And I'm sad again sir, the script is so dangling like how to be happy" said Kayana half insinuated, maybe the man could be aware, but as usual the man was born anticritic.

Adrian only snorted and ducked when he heard Kayana's answer.

After being free from energy-draining congestion - Adrian. Kayana finally breathed a sigh of relief.

"Wah..long really stuck his yes sir. Like a line of grocer."

But the man next to him remained unmoved.

"Sir."

Adrian responds to "Hmm?"

"I think I want to be a boba deh sir." said Kayana without burden.

"Just buy it, do you know where it is?" adrian's response was relaxed. 

Duh deh yes if the road is the same guy good account gini there is nothing to worry about. For a long time he felt he had a sugar daddy every way the same Adrian.

Maybe so rich this guy every salary can be donated directly to the charity wallet.

"Tau hehe.but sir." said Kayana hesitated.

"Why?"

"The place has passed since 15 minutes ago hehe" said Kayana while cengegesan.

"Seriously?you can buy them elsewhere. Just find another boba."

"But I like it there sir, the sweet fit and the topping boba a lot" said Kayana memelas.

"How is it different from other boba?"

"If other boba I do not necessarily like sir, I am afraid later even stomach pain" said Kayana reasoned.

"Kal-akalan you alone, I gamau back and forth half an hour to boba-boba you it." said Adrian judes.

"Well...." Kayana sighed disappointed while tapping her index finger on the Adrian dashboard.

"When kepengen drink boba, try to go with Bagas.pasti--"

Hearing the sacred name again called, Adrian also tried to muffle his frustration and sigh tired.

"Jaudah we turn back." Adrian breaks up in the end, the combination of jealousy plus bucin managed to break his logic as a human. Be willing to turn around and wait another 30 minutes to get the woman's favorite drink.

"Yeyyy." exclaimed Kayana happily as she raised her drinking glass high.

"Thank you, sir" said Kayana sincerely.

Suddenly his tiredness became nothing when he saw Kayana's bright smile.

"Cleaned." said Adrian.

"Heheh.ready boss sir." Kayana smiled cheerfully as she sipped her drink.

In his heart he laughed with satisfaction after successfully judging Adrian as he pleased and happy because the man was willing to accompany him until Kayana's mood returned as usual.

"Thank you sir" said Kayana sincerely and solemnly as she looked at the man.

"Yep..anytime." replied Adrian scrambling softly Kayana's hair, making the owner cheek blush embarrassed. He cleared his throat slowly and threw his eyes the other way.

***