
"Hufh".many times I take this breath in, hoping that by doing that all my heart can be a little calm.but all that always fails.in fact my heart is still chaotic and messy.
The bus that I was visiting soon will reach the dark city that made my life slumped for several years, but I could not continue to run from reality, and yet my lecture was finished, but also my college was finished, it's time I started living for my future.
Almost five years I went to college while working in the city of Bandung alone.tampa family, tampa kinsfolk, what else is Father and Mother.
I'm an orphan, my name is Jasmin (which means rose bunga) I wish I could be as beautiful and as fragrant as a rose.I'm 23 years old, 175 cm tall pure white skin, my hair is shoulder length, my nose is pointed,my lips are thin and flat.
''Mbak has arrived''?.lamunanku crumpled, when a Bus knek called himself this because I happened to have reached the Jakarta city terminal.
''Eh yes, sorry Bang'' I replied as I grabbed my big suitcase and carried it out.
''Hufh''?.back I took this deep breath, my head lowered hoping that the dark memories would soon disappear.
''Bismillah hirohman nirrohhim'.lirihku slowly.
''Taxi''?.Call me when I see a taxi pass right in front of me.
''Where is Mbak''?.was the taxi driver glancing at me at a glance.
''Bekasi Pak ''.putku mentioned an address where the boarding house that I had booked a few days ago, melui social media at a time when I was still working on humming.
''Until Mbak''.
''Oh yes Mas, why''?.tanyaku while opening the handbag that I have been wearing since.
''Fifty thousand Mbak''.
I put the fifty thousand bills on the taxi driver''Makasih Mas''?.
''Yes equally''? answered the man who was about 27 years old while opening the car door.
Kulrikik left and right looking for where the location of the room costing referred to the owner of the boarding houses that I then contacted.
''Eh Ma'am Jasmin isn't it?' asked a grown man who had a very sweet face.
''Eh yes, this is Mas Ilham ya''?.tanyaku while pointing at him.
''Yes.iya''.the man replied.the man chuckled making me also smile, a smile that I rarely show now.
''Ayo-ayo, I take her room''.The sweet man helped me carry the suitcase that I had been dragging around.
''This is Mbak''?.I call him Jasmin aja ya''?.asked with a gentle gaze.''Let's be more accrap''.sambungnya again.
''Yes, as per Masnya aja''?.my answer is accompanied by a nod of the head.
''Please, this is the key to his room, if anything is needed or his room needs help just my apartment, my house there'?.pointing out the house that looks luxurious among other houses.
"Teach the cost manager".into me, my eyes looked at the house of the owner of the cost was takjup.
After the departure of the boarding house owner, I quickly opened the boarding door and dragged my suitcase into the house.
"Woven too".I put my hearty suitcase in the corner of the room, my feet stepped into the house that is not too big but very comfortable for me to occupy.
For almost an hour I was busy cleaning up all the stuff I was carrying.
"Dret..dret..dret".create my vibrating flat object.
"Wulan"?.my light when I see who is contacting me.Slowly my finger shifted the green mark on the screen of the device.
"Assalualaikum Lan"?.
📲"Walaikum greetings"!.lho now where is it"?.
📱"Gue again in Jakarta".
📲"Lah''?. instead of yesterday being tripped"?.
📱"Yes it's been jakarta now, lho nelfon what's the matter, tumben"?.tanyaku because my best friend had not contacted this self for a long time considering Wulan lecture in a different campus with me.
📲"Nothing, I just asked to pick up the same you know tomorrow at the terminal".his words made me frown.
📱"Fetch where sotoy"?.
📲"Yes terminal Celilitan where else kesik".keselnya make me chuckle.
📲"Yes Ok".what time"?.
📱"He said three o'clock"?.
📲"Oh yes already".telfon directly I closed. somehow I am now very lazy to talk, for me to talk only as necessary, the color of talk a lot will only waste time.
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At five o'clock in the afternoon.
After finishing the bath I decided to go out for a while looking for kitchen needs, because tomorrow maybe I will be busy considering tomorrow I have to pick up Wulan and shop for all the needs for work.
I have been working in the city of Bandung for a long time, I actually had an internship there, because of my good performance until I was immediately recruited by the company where I interned a few months ago,that was also the reason why I was able to be in this city, the city that made my chest tight and sad.
My feet stepped down the road which was still quite blistering even though it was late afternoon.
''Hey Jasmin''?. Where''?.
My head turned to see who was calling me.
''Oh Mas Ilham, want to supermarket for a while Mas''.I replied briefly with a flat face.
''Oh, if that's so with me aja''.kakinya stepped closer to make me reflect back with a body that has begun to vibrate.
Troumaku crumbled again, I was always scared and shaking when men were very close to me.''Don't go near''.I'm sitting on the road with teary eyes.
''What''?.
''Don't, please don't?'.I got more and more histris, as the man named Ilhan got closer.
''Yes-iya Ok, I'm away''?.
Seeing the man begin to drift away I tried to neutralize my heartbeat and read as much as I could.
This is what I went through for almost five years, this bitter incident a few years ago caused deep trouma in me.I could not get too close to foreign men at all,what else until physical contact.color it can all make me reflex fear.
''Jasmin, are you ok''?.
My head is crying weakly, my eyes are looking at the man who is now looking at me anxiously with a palanquin look''I'm sorry I am Ilham.
''Is Ok, just relax, so kesupermarket ngak''?.
''Yes Mas so''.my wind is weak, I force this foot to stand up and start stepping footily towards the supermarket.
''What do you want to start''?.
''Please, a little bit away''?.when a Supermarket employee approached me quickly Ilham asked the man to stay away.I think he was afraid if I told him again.
"Until this time, O God".I sat down because I was really tired of all this.
I want to live a normal life like before, but why is it so hard to forget that dark incident"?.
"Jasmin"?.
"Eh".i gasped when suddenly Ilham was standing not far from me, I know that now the man is keeping his distance from me, I'm afraid I'm like that again.
I don't think anyone in my whole life will ever want to get close to me, take this deep breath to neutralize my faster racing heartbeat.
My eyes began to glaze over, but I quickly rubbed, afraid that anyone would see me crying.
Almost six o'clock in the afternoon I got bored, after shopping for kitchen necessities.
While Ilhan''?. The man had gone home, at first the man wanted to help me with my groceries, but I insisted on refusing his help, she said,because I don't want to trust anyone too much.what else with men.
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