The Fate of the Cassanova
Feel Guilty

Ambar entered the room with a berahan. The clock standing in his book shows at nine o'clock in the night. He had indeed told zayn that the cost he was staying at would be closed at exactly nine. 

After putting her bag on the bed, the macaque-nosed girl broke down her tired body. His gaze looked at the thought of his life ahead. The man who invites her to play a relationship, seoalah now ensnare her in a fate that is quite tiring. 

It was all very tiring, pretending in public alone was already very tiring, she said, moreover, facing his mother who is more congruent than his son and his own feelings for the man who is fighting for the future in a military school.

Suddenly he missed the mature brown-skinned figure with a firm face that made the Eagle figure have a strong character. Eagle, for Ambar the man is very special. Since the gray-white age, the two look very harmonious.

Shortly after, the sound of a cell phone ringing disperse his daydream. With a sense of laziness, Ambar grabbed the bag he had just used and took the flat object that now continues to sound. Name ‘ Eagle’ is now plastered on the screen of the phone that continues to light up. 

“Assalamualaikum, Mas El.” greeting Ambar who has been sitting staring at the phone that shows the figure of a handsome man with special hair.

“ Walaakum greetings, Dek .” replied the Eagle with a sweet smile. He was so impressed with Ambar's different look than usual. 

“ Adek, from where? Kok very beautiful.” praise Eagle makes Ambar blush.  The eagle is indeed a gentle man to make Ambar so admire him.

“ Dinner with friends, Mas.” replied Ambar still displaying his sweet smile. 

“ Ohhh.... What chick cwok?” elang continued so curious, not usually amber looks as elegant as it was because the girl he knew modestly preferred casual style.

Ambar was confused to answer the Eagle's question. Actually, he did not want to lie, but explaining the situation he was living in was not enough if it had to be told on a mobile phone.

“My friend is celebrating a birthday party, Mas.” replied Ambar clumsily. This was the first time he had lied to the Eagle and he felt so bad about the man who was so good to him.

“Mas just want to tell if Saturday later, Mas there is ration for plesir, can we meet?” asked the Eagle, being a cadet of the military academy made the Eagle do not have much time for holiday activities. They are required to go all out to learn and practice. 

Ambar was silent, somehow the guilt continued to pursue when he had to face the Eagle. He was like he was betraying a man who had asked him to wait, even without a commitment as a lover. 

“Dek Ambar..” call Eagle aware ambar will be worried. 

“Yes, Mas. Insyallah, I'll tell you again, Mas !” answer Ambar.  In addition to sharing his time in college and work, Zayn sometimes does not let Ambar's life calm down at all. That man is a curse to Ambar. 

“ Yes already, Mas, close first, Adek do not sleep nights!” the Eagle then closed his call. Seeing the beautiful face of Ambar for the Eagle is more than enough to close his daily activities. Eagles do steal time to just see the girl who is always in his shade after the evening apple activity. 

Ambar is again guilty. So good was the Eagle to him but he betrayed the man even though he was just pretending. The guilt that continues to pursue sometimes does make Ambar want to end all this. But , in fact he also has the same taste in the Eagle, a sense of longing that is still enthroned in the heart of the girl so she always wants to wait for her beloved man. 

“Excuse Ambar, Mas.” Ogre Ambar by rubbing the corner of his eyes that are already watery. His heart also breaks when he imagines El will judge him who has been in a relationship with another man. 

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“Sial..” zayn threw his phone on the bed when he failed to contact Ambar number but it turns out the number of the girl who always provoked his emotions was busy. Many times he pushed the number but it turned out to be the same. 

With a splash of cold water under the shower, Zayn continues to refresh his brain and body. Faced with Ambar who he thought was very stiff it only made him quite tired. 

“ But, he's funny too. “ muttered Zayn when crossed Ambar's face shadow that looks like the face of a middle eastern girl.

“ Jeez Zayn... don't be crazy!” his grunts again, when his mouth had time to praise the stubborn girl. 

 Zayn immediately finished his activities in the bathroom. In fact, today his best friend Alvaro invited him to the club to celebrate his birthday, but fatigue after a long day of work and dinner with Ambar and his parents made Zayn reluctant to leave. 

Zayn came out of the bathroom wearing a towel, his body and hair still wet with a few drops of water. His move towards the walk in closset stopped when his phone kept ringing. 

“Hae Zayn, we've been waiting for you!” alvaro's voice from across directly rang out as he opened his call. 

“Who has come? “ asked Zayn, he who initially felt reluctant was feeling uneasy when Alvaro himself called. 

“All have come, terasuk Karin, the sexy girl who had been your target first! He also had time to ask you.” replied Alvaro, the man who had been with his friends was trying to tease Zayn who had long been seen cool after a scandal of romance with the wife of people. 

 “Hem... In a moment I come,” replied Zayn then closed the call. It was not because of Karin that she would come, even though the girl had made her interested because her body was so seductive. But this time, he only felt sorry for his best friend because the day was very special for Alvaro.

It didn't take long Zayn was neat with a blazer that was combined with a T-shirt and jeans.

The existence of the Indo-faced man was always inviting admiration for many people who saw him, especially women. Mature and classy man, any woman will bend her knees unless she judges from the side of heart and feeling.

The sound of the sound of music echoed throughout the room, cigarette smoke and the scent of alcohol filled the room where everyone enjoyed the pleasures of the world. 

A wave of hands from Alvaro made Zayn smile, the man who had a height of 180 degrees was swinging his footsteps to a place where alvaro and some of his friends with sexy girls were enjoying the atmosphere of the club.

“Happy birthday! Hope you have a child soon!” zayn told Alvaro, who swore he would stop going to clubs when he had children.

“ Shit, I don't want to get married yet, Bro.” replies Alvora with a little screaming voice as it competes with the hustle and bustle of music.

“Since Karin asked you!” alvaro gives a gap sitting near the karin. 

The girl wearing a tight dress with a low cleavage smiled at Zayn. Zayn only replied with a faint smile before sitting his body where Alvaro had already given place. 

Zayn directly leaned back on the sofa that made Alvaro stare in wonder. Some time not meeting with his best friend it makes alvaro staring suspiciously. Zayn had indeed changed, he did not glance at Karin at all.

” Could his little sister have not been able to wake up or indeed he has repented?” inner Alvaro while looking intently at the man who was now still sitting quietly leaning on the sofa.