The Bridge Of Love
CHAPTER 60 Forced Kiss

"What?" ask Renan. He did not hear what Miranda said.

Miranda slightly shook her head. "Because of me, your clothes are dirty" Miranda said.

"No problem,” said Renan was still busy cleaning his clothes.

Miranda goes back to eating the food Renan bought. He ate a lot, even though he didn't enjoy the food. His mind wandered, expelling what was on his mind. Eating is one way to get his mind off.

“You say you're dieting? You even spent half of this high-calorie meal,” Renan said breaking Miranda's mind.

“Once in a while no problem. I'm tired of living with a lot of worries. Worried about weight. I always have to look after my appearance. Set my diet every day, even though I don't like it,” explained Miranda.

“Isn't it good? In addition to maintaining appearance can maintain your health, right?”

“But sometimes I feel tormented. I feel like life is not me. Must always smile, as if I were a pure and holy girl. Everything that is attached to me is regulated according to the will of the market. Yeah, so the fans don't leave me. I can't have any bad gaps. Even in real life, I still have to pretend,” explained Miranda.

Renan only heard the outpouring of the girl's day. Not far from her always being nice. Even his father did not know about the irregularities he experienced because he was too close to it. “That's all your choice. You choose to look good. Sometimes we always think what we do is pressure, which makes us want to look perfect. You're drunk, like it's your lifestyle, right? Feeling in that moment, you become yourself, and in the future you will have to play the innocent girl again.”

Miranda looked at Renan. He was sure, maybe Renan already knew his lifestyle first. Moreover, Chrysanthemum once carried him when he was drunk. He smiled a smile. “Yes, that bad as me.”

Renan shakes. “Not bad. Sometimes we deny the good. Feeling trapped in the word perfect, looking good like an angel. Good things are done continuously and repeatedly. Then, do a deflection on the grounds of wanting to be yourself. I think we're just stuck in boredom in that goodness. Feeling that the ugliness we are doing is something fun even though it is all wrong. If you think about it, something is right. The path that has been good, will feel good if we sincerely live it. I think, there's no harm if we waste a little bit of the ugliness we do. Not to be seen as perfect, but to live better.”

“You mean, just keep going?”

“Yes, but still be yourself. Isn't it good to leave alcohol? Not consuming it does not mean you become someone else. But, by leaving him you've been trying to love yourself. You must know, drinking is not good for health.”

Miranda blinked her eyes once. “Yes you're right. But, am I only allowed to eat boiled potatoes every day? It was so torturous.”

Renan chuckles. “If it's different about. Eat good food for the body. However, that does not mean you only eat boiled potatoes. Eat, as long as it's good. You can keep your weight balanced with exercise. Remember, the most important thing is not for appearance but for health. If your intention is not for health. Then, there will be saturation in the process.”

"But you take care of your looks a lot!" sindir Miranda's.

"Appearance is a bonus when I start a healthy life. Learn to take care of the body. Do you know, I was obese when I was in school?"

"Fatty?" ask Miranda not to believe it. He looked at Renan, there was no sign of the former transition from fat to skinny. The fat on the neck did not appear to be sagging. His arms are strong too.

Renan just nodded. His face looked sad. "Yes." Yeah."

"Are you a victim of bullying?" miranda asked seeing the sadness on Renan's face.

Renan shakes. "No. But utilized. I'm a pretty quiet kid and I'm crazy to learn. They invited me to make friends as the key to the answer walked. At school they were very good to me. We chatted like friends. I was happy to cheat on them. But all of this is not sincere. They left together after school without taking me. They created a group chat that I didn't have. I only needed for assignments and school exams" said Renan.

"How do you know they have a group chat without you?"

"There is nothing to cover, there must be a gap that they are not aware of. Sometimes people have instincts. From there, I kept them away. I started exercising. Make myself mean. My body is lighter, I am not easily tired. Muscles started to form, I even took muscle-building drugs. Slowly, my appearance grew. More confident and ...."

Renan could not tell me more. He lowered his head. The scope of his friendship after that changed completely. Find a man she considers true love. The man's attention seemed so sincere, very different from his peers at school.

Renan doesn't understand love. Renan is so crazy to learn that it was never thought to be in love with a girl, meeting a man who was originally just a friend. Their very familiar friendship. Very sincere and very attentive. Until finally .. created the declaration as a lover.

"And?" ask Miranda.

Renan just sighed. "Keep improving yourself."

"No one is perfect. Everyone has their own story. Whether it's dark or happy" Miranda said.

"Yes." Yeah."

"It's night. Let's go home."

They got up to the parked car. Someone is aware of Miranda's whereabouts. Some people ask for photos. As it was getting late, Miranda politely withdrew.

"Come in, it's here."

"Tomorrow can pick me up, right? I'll send you the address" Miranda said as she placed the Renan sweater she was wearing earlier.

"Do you think I don't have a job?"

"Why always say that!" Miranda. "I asked you to pick up after filming. Finished the night. I'm afraid I'm going home too late."

Renan smiled mockingly. "That's why! I told you, this is the last time I'll help you. You have an assistant, you even have a bodyguard, right? Where are they going? Don't tell me you're broke. You're on the rise!"

"Because I want you to be my bodyguard. Pity your muscles if ignored."

"Where is such a reason. I'm not coming tomorrow. So don't wait for me."

"I'll wait for you to come."

"Why?"

"I told you, this is the last."

"But why?"

"Is there a reason?"

"certain."

"We're not that familiar to meet every day."

"Why are we familiar now?"

"I don't want to."

"Why?"

"Don't always ask why!"

"Is my existence bothering you? Am I so bad? Is there not a little heart for me?"

"Why talk like that?"

"Am I not beautiful?"

"Beautiful" Renan replied briefly.

"Then, it's not wrong not to have a serious relationship?"

Renan just smiled wryly. "Don't talk carelessly."

"I'm serious!" miranda said without blinking.

Renan looked into Miranda's eyes which were staring at him intensely. Suddenly, he became nervous. "That's not gonna happen."

"Nothing is impossible" Miranda said.

"Miranda ..it's impossible."

"Nothing is impossible."

"A relationship can't just happen. There must be a heart in...."

"I like you" said Miranda, cutting off Renan's words. "I know you like me too."

Renan just frowned. He doesn't even know his own feelings. He also did not want to hurt the girl in front of him with hopes that he himself could not necessarily fulfill.

"I ...." Renan's words were interrupted. Don't know if you have to tell the truth or not. He wants to erase his past. However, he also did not want to be mistaken for lying.

"You like me, don't you?" connect Miranda.

"If I liked you. We can't be together." Which woman is willing to accept her dark past. It was hard for Renan to say.

"Who can guarantee?"

"We can't be together. I'm not as good as you think."

"I'm not a good woman either. Everyone has their bad side."

"It's very difficult. You deserve to be happy with the perfect man."

"You're perfect in my eyes."

"I'm far from perfect. My past is bad."

"I am the same. My past is bad. I'm a drunk. Almost in the drug world." Yes, Miranda was once a marijuana user, although not to the point of becoming an addict and managed to get out of that world. "bad, right? I can accept you no matter what your past is. Former addict, former playboy ... I can take it."

Renan just shook his head slowly. "I'm worse than that. We can't be together ...."

Grep's! Miranda pulled Renan's shirt. He brought his face closer to the man. Renan only widened his eyes as Miranda's face enlarged in front of him.

Without hesitation, Miranda kissed Renan. A kiss that just sticks. After a while, Miranda took off their lips. They just sat. Miranda re-added her face. Giving a second kiss.

Renan pulled his head back. However, Miranda poked her hand to tighten their kiss. Slowly, Miranda took a deeper sip on Renan's lips. Then ... Renan begins to return Miranda's forced kiss.