THE BALLERINA SECRET LOVE
Part 14's. Not Enough's
The Donor did not continue to send messages, I can understand, good friends do not need to busy themselves to get involved with personal life too deep. Weren't they there to just have fun.
And I didn't keep replying to the message, there's nothing good about a relationship like that. I had already doubted his good intentions, it made me not feel appreciated, so why go ahead or respond.
I promise I won't be tempted to make myself one of his temporary best friends.
While the staging went well, me, the ballerina and and danseur (the male ballerina) involved in the project were happy to accept the fact that we had a large audience throughout our seven stages.
This morning Nicole and I arrived at the training ground in a good mood. And I found some people gathered, there must be some hot gossip like this.
"Now what are they talking about." Nicole was immediately curious and headed for the crowd leaving me while I went to the locker to rent the leotard (ballet dress) backup I brought this week. He'll get the news and I'll just listen.
Before long he arrived in front of me, his face was a bit strange. Nicole liked the job of retelling gossip, but this time she was not at all excited, I was surprised, why was she not excited at all?
"What news do you hear? Tell me." He looked at me and breathed. I'm pretty sure this has something to do with me, my feelings are getting bad. "What's wrong, something about me? Why don't you talk about it?"
"It's not related to you, but it has an effect on you."
"Say you don't beat around the bush." Nicole was silent for a while before she looked at me with a worried look.
So right, my opponent is less than 50% against Katya. And he's sure to win now. Chances are I'll never be the principal, waiting for someone to retire? Maybe two more years? Three more years? Can I wait. Can you wait, should I make her wait or should I go take another chance.
"Sara, what are you gonna do?"
"Well, I really don't know Nicole, I thought I could get that position but now it certainly doesn't. I don't know what to do..." I'm not good enough, not pretty enough, not perfect enough.
"This is a new rumor, maybe wrong, .. maybe not yet an official announcement, maybe it can still change you don't despair first." He patted me on the shoulder, I couldn't think, this news was so disappointing that I couldn't think anymore. So disappointed that it felt so bad to want to cry.
"You don't have to comfort me, I know the truth. I won't be chosen, that's for sure." I smiled at Nicole who looked at me with pity. Trying not to cry, but I finally couldn't hold my stuff. Nicole also knew I was looking forward to this promotion.
"Sara, ...." He hugged me who was crying. I can't do anything other than vent my disappointment with tears now. Missing was my dream to tell Mom I reached the principal.
Maybe I'm not good enough...
Only those who are quite beautiful, enough talent can step into the principal...
Maybe I'll never be able to...