Rainbow In Someone's Cloud
Pdas15. Rainbows in someone's cloud
"Rai, are you healthy?" I rubbed his arm full of tattoos.
It's like being depressed.
"I feel better, but I'm afraid it's in your family's hands. I think his eyes have wronged me. I'd rather be politicized with yesterday's case, than compounded with yours. You guys have the power, I'm sure I'll never see the outside world again once imprisoned with your abduct case. I'm sorry, I accidentally, Can…." He put both of his palms in front of his slightly bowed face.
It got like this.
"You take it easy, we'll drive you home." I took a longer breath. "So, you don't feel right living with me?" I immediately smothered my own mouth from outside the veil.
His eyebrows fused together, his mouth never answered. "What are you thinking, Can?" His expression did not change.
How do you speak? I never talk and I never talk much.
"You have no intention of marrying me?" I immediately bowed embarrassed, it was like being watched by a village person, even though in this room there was only him.
"What's wrong, Can?"
Why does he still ask? Is my speech unclear?
I looked at him again, his eyebrows were still fused and his forehead was still wrinkled. His expression was not much different from the beginning, did he feel astonished by my words?
"I want to know." I slowly throw my breath.
"What do you expect of me? I promised white rice and rendang aja to this day I can not fulfill. Besides, I've never even been married."
How crowded huh?
"Oh that's it." I catch my breath and sit on the nearby sofa.
My leg suddenly went limp.
"What's wrong? Are you being a gossip? I could have sworn to your parents, if I hadn't fucked up with you. Am I charged with responsibility for that? I have no intention of getting married, let alone having to propose to a rich man's son. At least I should know myself. Though poor, uneducated, but I have my pride. Even if one day I was in a match with a woman, I wanted her to be below me, so that I could be respected by her."
Is it because of this, he dodges if I touch him? Is it because of this, he always held himself back? But I should be happy, because he knows the limits. Not disappointed and thinking everywhere.
"You'll be delivered by Kaf doctor. There's more trouble at home, I can't help you with a job." I gulped my saliva and tried to shift the subject.
He's a good man, I shouldn't hurt him. Who am I anyway, to complicate Kaf's happiness? Will I be able to feel happiness too?
In retrospect, there was no harm in also being a rainbow in one's clouds. No loss for me, is it? If it should be happiness for Kaf. With us being a rainbow in someone's cloud, we have the power to bring out someone's joy, happiness and hope. Doesn't seeing other people happy, we can feel it too?
I can't work for someone who doesn't expect us, it could be a disaster for me. Then, the words from Rai's mouth are a savior so that I do not get a big disaster because of the comfort that has developed.
Kaf is also male, he must have the love and protection that Rai created. Three days I went back and forth to his house, during which time our frequency met much more often and intensely. Maybe I just need to get used to it, but papa Ghifar is a soft-hearted man, surely his descendants are not much different.
"Doctor Kaf said he'd take me home in the afternoon. I've been given pocket money, are you still waiting for the same rice rendang I promised? I'll change the money, okay?"
I looked at him, he was reaching into his pocket and his fingers came out flanking the sheets of money.
He's a criminal, but like this? Oh God, my heart is wrong. He is good, but perhaps according to your version, he is not the best for me and all my bad qualities.
"You don't have to offer to keep your promise." I smiled in response to his kindness.
"Usually twenty-five thousand, rice, green vegetables and rendang. You got change?" He held out the blue money.
I laughed until I made a sound. I heard his laughter too, whether he was intentional or not to create such a sentence.
"I'm kidding, Can. I'm nitip one more serving for dad huh? Thanks for not prolonging the case, father of good man, surely luck always turns to his children. You're one of the lucks you got, Can. You can come home safe and you're in good health, Can. I used to rarely eat, eat late, eat anything, my stomach can not eat only the fruit that we can. You're the one that's always organized, guaranteed cleanliness, you can stay healthy until now. You have to believe that your father is a good man and that you're the lucky form of your father's kindness, Can. Later you married a man, you try to take care of his parents your parents. Your mother bridges your prayers to the Powerful, your father likened the streets smooth if you can treat your father well."
It's really not like criminals are even advising me?
"You're just grateful that I didn't take your case, right?" My index finger pointed towards him and I chuckled a little to melt the atmosphere.
"I'm serious time." He rolled his eyes and breathed. "I told your dad, I'm resigned whatever you want me to do. Because I'm scared, Can. I don't ask for mercy, but if I can forgive my mistakes, I accidentally made Chandani a traveling companion. Dad said instead, don't you think about it, it's important that Cani go home safe and sound."
My father once said the important thing is that I go home. Maybe I'm tired of ruining my life, because I often say I want my old age to be calm without dealing with the law or the problems that make him die quickly. He just hoped I would come home safe and it turned out that it was true that I could return home in the same state as when I left, minus my phone that was not strong to face the field of my journey when it disappeared. Until now, I don't have a cell phone anymore because my dad is busy and I can't leave without my role model's permission.
"Where's the growth? How old are your mother and your sister?" If his family were here to work, I would still be able to find out about it.
But, would that not hurt Kaf? Why do I take the opportunity to know the news?
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