One Love, One Heart
58.Breaks

When I opened my eyes my head felt heavy and swirling, there were loud noises of quarrels or the sound of angry people who I did not know who.

"If anything happens to your mother's daughter-in-law and grandchildren you won't forgive."

"Patience to the doctor mama has said it's okay just anemia and too many thoughts" Dito's father said. "Father should know a lot of thoughts and anemia for pregnant women is a danger, let alone this double pregnancy risk is also double father. Your child should also know because he is also a doctor, which of course also understands it but this , in the first trimester already 2 times fainted and 2 times in the hospital "said mother angrily before leaving my nursery at my father's follow.

"You're sober. What are you feeling? Where's that sick?" nanda asked in succession when she saw me open my eyes.

"It's okay just my head feels heavy, I'm limp, can I have a drink".

Nanda deftly brought me drinking water to help me to sit and lean so that it is easier to drink.

"My atmosphere is out of control when I see you with other women, even if you guys don't say anything so I'm sorry."

"I'm glad you're jealous, you love and love your mas" Nanda said.

"But my jealousy is unhealthy and threatens sin for me, because as far as I am jealous of my partner it can lead to sins that continue to be pounded from the anger that I instill in me."

"Dek, Adek don't have to talk like "say Nanda.

"As a result of my jealousy, I always had a bad idea about you, which triggered a dispute between us. When the prejudices are already in the heart, then the jealousy is also more so, which causes a wound in my heart. Where when I hate someone, of course the heartache will also be embedded in me. And trigger new problems in our households, starting only a small prejudice into a big prejudice, until the deterioration of communication between us. And the one here who will hurt "my mouth while rubbing my stomach that is starting to look a little.

"What do you want, then,?" ask Nanda.

"We break for a while, yes, until my pregnancy is really strong, so I can introspect with myself" I said, making Nanda shake her head in disapproval.

"By the twins mas, my excessive jealousy has made me 2 times faint "my words are soft."But not by distancing myself from me" Nanda said.

"Until I can control my emotions, we'll live together again ".

"If the influence of the hormone until the third trimester of pregnancy how" said Nanda while shaking his head.

I held Nanda's face with both hands, I stroked her face before I ventured to give kisses on her cheeks and kissed her with a kiss on her lips.

"The miss "said Nanda both hands holding my face connected with ********my lips roughly implied disappointment with my decision and anger, but I didn't know who she was angry with,same to myself or to me.

"Mas allow but you live in the mother's house and I in the apartment "he said with a stingy breath after a hot, rough kiss and with a long duration.

"Why should you stay at home ?"I asked still with our forehead position still stuck to each other."At least if at home mom I can see you, without feeling awkward and you do not get angry father and mother "said Nanda, it's true that.

After being treated for 2 days I was allowed to go home on condition that I could not be stressed and had to bed rest.

Even though I live in the mother's house and Nanda says I live in an apartment, but the truth is Nanda always comes home to the mother's house when I'm late at night and goes home to the apartment after morning prayers. And it was a success that made me feel guilty and sorry about the decision I made, especially after accidentally hearing Nanda's chat with Dito's father a few days ago. At that time Puku 11.30 night because I forgot to bring drinking water I was forced to go down to take drinking water in the kitchen and accidentally I heard it.

"You know how much you lied to Aya by sleeping in the guest room, instead of Aya already asking you to stay in the apartment for a while "say daddy.

"Free well I wouldn't be able to sleep in an apartment alone without Aya" Nanda said. "But here you also sleep separately, just the same" said the father.

"Different, if in the apartment as soon as I open the door there is no one empty. If here even though I get home already night you guys are already in slumber, I can see Aya sleeping. Just by watching him my sleep gets better 'yes it's like my fatigue-relieving drug after a long day at work."

"It's good that you can appreciate your wife, always think positively give up does not mean we lose. I salute you, lest you regret like a father who lost that precious moment" he said to make me curious.

"What because of the regret of the father that makes the father buncin the same mother" said Nanda while chuckling.

"Perhaps, I don't know your mother's struggle through pregnancy and Khalid's birth, which she says put your mother in a coma."

Unable to endure the sleepiness I returned to the room and stopped eavesdropping on their conversation.

"Bun how do I control my emotions ?" ask me after 2 weeks of fighting with my ego, as a psychiatrist I hope you can provide a solution for me.

"Do fun activities for example, take a walk, do a pregnancy massage, watch a movie with a friend or partner, as well as some other things that can eliminate sensitive feelings. Rather than allowing ourselves stress and frustration, it's good to manage it so that it doesn't get worse. The trick is to get enough rest. Eat regularly, exercise, and have fun. You can try a pregnancy yoga class, practice meditation, or concentrate, do not save your own problems and look for solutions to the problems you face. Actually spending a lot of time with the baby's father can reduce the level of sensitivity of the mother during pregnancy, but because Nanda's busyness actually makes you often fight.

Frequent spending time with the father can strengthen the inner bond between the child and the father as well lo".

After hearing all the advice and input from my mother I decided to take a special Yoga class for pregnant women.

I woke up at 01:00 in the morning thirsty after drinking in the kitchen I went back to the room, as I passed by the room I suspected Nanda bed I dared to open it.

Nanda slept well, after I approached I intended to caress her cheek but was afraid to catch her sleep, so I poked her kiss for a moment.

"Dek "says Nanda with a raspy voice typical of people waking up and hands holding my hand.

"Sorry to disturb his sleep "I said softly but Nanda pulled my hand until I fell on her body." Mas misses his "say by licking my neck, I do not fight or rebel as if this body also misses him.Not enough licking my neck Nanda changed position until I slept supine under it.

"By the deck, mas misses "he said. "But in the mas room do not in the guest room "say me, without talking again Nanda immediately took me to move to his room.