Not A Lover But A Best Friend
not a lover but a best friend
Chap 5's
"Eumm... Rey? Didn't you like anyone after you lost Rania? " that question I already know if Rey won't answer well.
Rey immediately turned to look at me sharply, I don't know why Rey's reaction like this when I talk about Rania, am I wrong?
"Don't talk about it" she said coldly, strangely, not usually like this.
"Why? " let him be angry if I always demand him to answer.
"Alena, please" again she's acting strange
"Okey, sorry"
The order has come, I wonder how the taste of this dalgona coffee, I hear this coffee is made with instant coffee powder, sugar, and boiling water, then shaken until thick and frothy, then shaken, then poured into a glass of milk given ice cubes. More or less like that, and this coffee successfully quenched my thirst.
"Enak" Rey murmured, but I can still hear.
"Hemm yes" I murmured as well.
"Coffee when let stand like this the sweetness will be more pronounced, but if stirred... There'll be a bitter impression" I don't understand what Rey meant
"Whatis that? " just ask her
"Hmm, the person who when he is in residence, he will be calm, but if disturbed, there will be a different impression, can you understand it? " i don't know, maybe I understand it, a little bit.
"Then? Who are you talking to like that for? " i'm afraid if he insinuates me because I kept quiet.
"That's just a sentence, and right now we're drinking coffee. I just said" Rey said as she took the coffee and then drank it, yes, now I can conclude, that everyone who, if he is in residence, he will not stand with our silence, and in the end choose to be quiet and calm, but if disturbed, there will always be things that happen, whether angry, or reciprocating our actions, depending on who is disturbed. Maybe that's what Rey meant.
As time went on, Rey and I decided to go home and get some rest. Long enough we went out of the house, but our goal only wanted to run in the morning, but it was too late.
"I'm taking home, huh? " take Rey to me, and I nodded
Today we didn't tell you much, but to be honest I'm very happy, baby today is over, but I let it go, there's still tomorrow if you want to meet Rey, if you have a friend like Rey, I'm sure, it must be very difficult for you to let her go. When I was sad, Rey would comfort me, give me her shoulder to lean on, when I needed someone to tell me, Rey came with me. I like Rey's attitude towards me that is so caring and loving, what I fear is that when Rey will leave me when she graduates from school, Rey will go to college in the land of people.
"Thanks Rey, you want to stop first or want to go straight back? "
"I want to go straight back, bye, see you tomorrow" Rey left me.
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"Don't you come to make trouble here again, my family is happy after you left, and now you've come to ruin it again? Wasn't it enough you destroyed my family before, huh? " who is it? That voice was like the voice of a papah, and who was he talking to? No, he didn't just talk, rather he was angry.
I went down the stairs looking for the papah who was speaking with a loud tone, I was very curious about who he was fighting with. When I got downstairs, I saw that my mother was drooping on the floor, and Papah looked very angry, then, who was that man? He was wearing a black suit and sunglasses too, I just saw him for the first time. I hope nothing happens here. I ran towards Mamah, and grabbed her, I wonder what exactly happened.
"Mahs.. What was? Why is papah angry? " i asked Mamah who looked weak and pale, her eyes were also swollen, I was sure she must have cried.
Mama didn't answer my question, she just shook her head and looked at me and held my cheeks, I could see my lips shaking like I was holding something I wanted to talk about. As for Papah and the man, they silently looked at me who was confused. How could I not be confused, I woke up and suddenly there was a very loud papah sound.
"Sorry Momahin ya Alen" as soon as the mamah tears fell, saw mamah crying, my tears also fell somehow my tears fell but I did not know anything.
"Why do you apologize?" I saw these three people taking turns hoping to get an answer from the look on their faces, but nil, it was precisely the look on their faces that made a big question mark on my head.
"Alen, mending you go to school, this is adult business" continued papah, I shook my head hard and did not accept if papah still considers me a child, I am not a little child anymore I am an adult, I can take myself on a good path.
"Father, I'm an adult and I have also been able to determine my own path of reward, I'm not a child who should be led to walk" did not feel my tears getting heavier, it felt like my chest was tight, I really wanted to let out all my cries, whatever made me cry, which was definitely not my papah words like this, she said, but something was held back even I just couldn't decipher the contents of my heart at this moment.
Papa held both of my shoulders, looking at me deeply as if giving me some encouragement. "It's nothing, you don't think about what happened this morning, it's all just a misunderstanding and you don't know the root of all these problems, papah can take care of all this" papa assured me, but I'm not that stupid to be convinced as a Junior High child, maybe my presence will only make it more complicated, so I just let myself pretend to be stupid, and like a Junior High child.
"I'm leaving" I said limply leaving them.
"Alen, this is for you" he offered me a box of provisions, but I refused, and I was not in the mood for breakfast.
"Later in school, thank you.. I left" and then I resumed my steps, I was sure that my eyes were now swollen from crying without cause.
I'm not going to school in this state, and the only place I can shout freely is Lake, yes, Lake where I was some time ago with Rey.
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"If I'm destined to be a weak girl, I'm sure someday my weakness will be my strength, and every single one of my beliefs will continue to help me find a way out"
"I want to scream as loud as possible, I want to take out all the burdens I have. If asked if I am tired? So the answer is yes, I am very tired, tired in everything... I need some peace now"
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"Aaaaaaaaaaaa" I cried out a little, I felt my burden had diminished and, I don't know what burden I felt, but there was a burden in me.
Why should there be a secret in my family, then why only now do I know if my family keeps a secret, hopefully I can forget it.
"Why didn't you go to school? " That's Rey's voice, I turned around, right there was Rey standing in her school uniform, putting both her hands in her pants pocket.
"You cry? Jeez Alena... You got a problem? Why don't you tell me the same? " Rey held both of my cheeks.
"Can I tell you the same story? " my eyes were blank but my mind was raging.
"Since when did you get permission before telling the story? " Rey climbed up the sloping tree, I followed her up the tree.
Without further ado I immediately hugged Rey and cried as if in Rey's arms, I think Rey already knew if I had a problem then I would cry first and tell her. After feeling calm, I tried to tell Rey everything, but Rey fell silent to hear my story, then grabbed me again.
"I'm sure you're strong, you're calm, Alen, today will be tomorrow and the story of the future... You just forget it and act normal" Rey said, trying to calm down even more, and smiling again
"You truant Rey? " let me ask Rey, where maybe eleven is home
"You already know" Rey replied casually with her gaze still looking at the Lake
"Why do you know I'm here? "
"Where are you sad to go? Going to the beach? " reply with Rey again
"Hmm, then if I'm not sad?" muttered
"I know you're in trouble, if you don't go to school I'm sure you're sad" I turned to Rey, without retaliating
"Oh" short
"Come with me" Rey grabbed my hand and pulled me towards her car
"Where are you? " many
"Do you want to wear your school uniform? Later someone will see, we must be reported" explained Rey, true also said Rey, if anyone saw us using school uniforms outside the school while still in class hours, for sure we will be reported to the teacher of BK, and the consequences will be fatal if it happens.
"We're going to the dress shop" Rey continued when we were in the car
"I didn't bring cash"
"I exist" Reply Rey again.
Rey and I finally got to the dress shop, there are many models of clothes that we can choose here.
"You choose, keep changing your uniform" I nodded my head as I lifted the clothes near me.
"I want this one Rey, calm" I said showing Rey a dress
"Hmmm, I want this" Rey took the shirt in my hand and showed it to the store employee.
"Well, I check first" then the woman brings the clothes I choose to the cashier's table, calculating the nominal price.
"Rey? You don't buy clothes? Do you want to wear school uniforms anyway? " just ask Rey,
"Udah is there, I just change" while glancing at the cashier who gave me two paperbags.
"You get changed there" Rey told me to
"Yes, wait a minute"
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