
People say, between feelings of hate and love is different. Someone who is loved will be the most hated. Maybe this is how I feel right now.
For some reason, suddenly the man who was my husband's status was being sweet to me. The softness he gave off was like a needle piercing through the skin. Slowly, but surely it will hurt.
I fretted, my soul thrashed in need of that tenderness. But my heart hurts so much. So hurt. I also chose silence. Ignoring everything he offered. Because, still not able if one time he threw back.
I chose to close my eyes. It's up .. whatever he wants. I don't give a shit. NO MATTER.
Morning .. ah, apparently my body is so strong as to continue to welcome the morning. The nurse brought food.
"It will be healthy ... cepet," he said cheerfully. I just replied with a smile and a nod.
His eyes glanced at the sofa where a handsome man was sitting with eyes focused on the mobile phone.
The nurse smiled with a red face. Oh my God ... Bang David, even with your nonchalant attitude is able to attract the attention of nurses. CK.
I cleared my throat, who was greeted with a surprised look by the nurse.
Bang David looked up, frowning his forehead. Confused maybe.
I stared hard at the nurse. Then, the nurse looked misbehaved and hurried away.
"Why? you're jealous of that nurse?" The man asked with eyebrows going up and down.
I snarl, throw my face. I can't deny there is a turbulent in this chest looking at the behavior of the nurse earlier. Ck.
I don't know what my face looks like right now, it must be red.
"Jealous no papa, either. That's the sign ...."
My ears were burning, hearing Bang David deliberately teasing. Waiting impatiently for the sentence to be said, until a few minutes later it was not continued.
I looked up, looking at the man. Which was looking at me, deep. I'd go crazy if I kept going like this.
Damn, he did not continue his sentence. Instead of smiling, then continue the activity focus on the phone in the hand.
For a moment I realized. Here, he was busy teasing me. However, in his head .. he was busy thinking of another woman.
Ah ....
I put my feet down, wanted to go to the bathroom just wash my face and brain to stay sane.
"Where are you going?" Bang David put his phone on the couch. Standing up straight with both hands outstretched to help me.
I didn't answer the question. Brush away the heavy hand that has perched on the shoulder.
"Where are you going? You're angry ...?" Instead of understanding the rejection I gave her, she hugged my waist tightly.
I was still silent, not responding to his attitude. Then walk to the bathroom.
"Oohh ...."
I rushed in. Not immediately do what I wanted to do. I even sat for a long time in the closet with my hands. Exhaling rough breaths, repeatedly. Decompose tightness in chest.
Have you ever been confused with a man who is loved but never thinks you exist?
Even the man was my own husband. The months of marriage that we had did not produce any results. I was too late to my own feelings and the feelings of those around me.
Then, why is he suddenly so good now? Making my heart go crazy?
"He's just pity, Anna. Just pity ... sober up." My mouth murmured, while my right hand beat my head to wake up.
After a long time, I came out. How surprised, when he found Bnag David was standing with his head leaning, his eyes closed.
I stepped out leaving him. Why should wait for me. There's no work.
"Lho, Ann ...." I got into bed, got my phone. Then call Adrian. Requesting clearance.
One call, get an answer.
"Hello, Anna ...." As usual, his voice sounded soft.
"Hello, Sir. I asked permission not to enter today. I'll send the doctor a letter, yes ... Mr ..."
"What are you sick with?"
"Oh, need a break, really ... Sir. Nothing serious."
"Alright .. if you need anything, please contact me immediately. Don't be shy."
I smile. "Thank you, Mr ...."
Call at break up. I still hold the phone, the shadow of Adrian's smile is printed clearly on the face.
"Call who?" Bang David's sniffling voice casts my shadow.
I'm turning. Frown. "Call who?" repeat with a flat tone.
"Sir Adrian." I answered lazily.
"Well?" Bang David approached, standing beside the bed. His eyes glared sharply.
"Solicit permission not to enter."
"What is the relationship between you and Adrian?"
"The relationship between superiors and subordinates. Did Bang David forget that I was a lowly employee at your company, huh?"
"But, I'm the boss over there. Why did you ask Adrian for permission."
"Because he's my direct superior."
"But I'm your husband. I don't like you saying soft words to other men, even if it's your boss in the office. As for you, never, tuh .. soft talk so same as me. Your husband."
"Oh yes ... Never have you? Never or never want. Come on, Bang ... I .. tired .. want to rest." My voice's choked.
I immediately broke down, pulled the blanket over her body, then lay on my back. Unpreventable. My tears are flowing again. I'mtired. I lost ...
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