Love In Silence
Eat with the teacher in the cafeteria

The weather is no longer friendly. Black fog dominated the morning sky.

Rara who was ready in her gray white uniform went down the stairs with quick steps. Approaching the brother who was having breakfast at the dinner table.

"Well healed, Deck? How do you want to go to school?" ask Ridwan.

"Udah, Bang. The time at home is not good. Bosen," replied Ara.

"Take care of yourself, yeah! If it feels bad, immediately let it go home."

"Yes, Bang. Yes, Ara left first, yes!" Ara kissed the back of Ridwan's hand.

"Well, don't you have breakfast, Ra?"

"No chance, Bang." Ara walked away. Fried rice that was available at the dining table was not he touched what else was eaten.

Ara must be quickly be furious because the clock has shown seven hours or less fifteen minutes. If the time that mepet he still use for breakfast, of course he will be late to school.

***

This morning there was no news. Anxious mixed worry fused within Ara. Worried because yesterday Afi had complained of dizziness. Upset because contacted since dawn there was no response.

Where is Afi? Is he sick?

Ara's frustration multiplied when she received a free lecture from one of the killer's teachers because of her delay that morning. And as his punishment he has to clean the toilet after school later.it really sucks!

Ara walked gontai through the school corridor. His face that looked still pale looked crumpled and bent.

However, her steps stopped immediately when on the way to class, Ara accidentally saw the middle Afi with other women entering the principal's room.

Truly, Ara's annoyance had increased tenfold compared to before. In fact, jealousy is inevitable. With ease, the sense slipped and began to caress his soul.

Who is that girl? Why does it look so familiar to Afi? Is that woman the reason why Afi didn't pick up Ara? Is it because that woman also had no news this morning? Or maybe ... that woman is liked by Afi? Those questions continuously flashed through Ara's mind.

Ara could only look at the unpleasant incident from a distance. With jealousy already heating up.

"What's up with today? Why all the nyebbelin?!" inner Ara.

***

Since that day .. Ara's attitude began to change. The day where the wound scratched Ara's heart so easily. As if away from the friend he loved in silence all this time.

The change in attitude of Ara was so pronounced. Afi was confused bin was astonished by all that. No greeting, no smile anything more guyonan as usual. Just the cynical look that Afi gets every time she meets. The jealousy is the cause of all these changes.

Ara realized she shouldn't be. However, the taste comes by itself without it inviting. Very uncomfortable indeed. But, Ara was confused as to how to behave.

Yes, that's the side effect of pent-up taste. Dare not to be frank. Which sometimes can make the perpetrator like crazy. The smiles themselves even felt pain as felt by Ara.

"Ara, wait!" The call stopped Ara's steps for a few seconds. When he found out that Afi was after him, he continued his steps even faster than before.

"Ra, wait!" Finally, Afi managed to grab Ara's hand. Until his steps stopped again.

"Why are you, Ra? How, how weird? Your attitude these few days has confused me." Afi spoke without letting go of her hand. However, instead of answering, Ara instead prefers to be quiet with passive facial expressions.

"R. Answer, dong! What was wrong with you until you changed like me? Is it because I didn't pick you up? Didn't pick up your phone? Huh?!"

Ara let go of Afi's hand forcibly. And intend to leave in front of Afi. However, Afi held him back.

"What else, anyway, Fi! I'm going to the toilet, why? You wanna come?" Ara said with great emphasis. Which was only reciprocated with a sharp look from the narrowed eyes of Afi.

I don't know, the sharp gaze that was highlighted from Afi's eyes made Ara frown in shock. It could be, this was the first time Afi had looked at Ara so. From the beginning, Afi's gaze was always pleasant.

Is Abby angry? Has it gone too far as to what Ara has been doing for these few days? As much as possible, Ara held back her water from decimating. Because he did not want to look crybaby in front of Afi. Besides, which Afi cares? Remember the woman who was with him at that time. She must be her boyfriend!

In a situation like this, it would be like for Ara to throw away all her feelings towards Afi. Because he realized it would only torture him. However, all of that seems to be impossible to do considering his deep love for Afi.

Ara had intended to go to the cafeteria, not to go to the toilet as she had told Afi. However, seeing the gaze of Afi's eyes earlier, made him so unappetizing. The hunger that struck was gone.

***

She sits alone in her favorite place. A place full of beautiful flowers bloomed perfectly. The location is not far from his home. About 10 minutes to walk.

Of course still struggling with his growing anxiety. About Afi who still survives on the top throne in his mind. Why is this sick?

I don't know, when will the taste end, and stop tormenting the heart. Holding a feeling that already does not know how to respond. Is it true what Ara did? Stay away and always avoid Afi?

The night wind greeted Ara softly. Makes it more carried away. In such a quiet state, Ara actually missed Afi. He longs for the excitement he can create, and also misses his laughter.

But ... Where is Afi? Wasn't he always there for Ara? Moreover, when Ara was alone in her favorite place, Afi usually came unexpectedly.

"I miss you, Fi. But, I hate your presence right now." Unknowingly, Ara's speech was heard by Ridwan, her brother.

"Didn't you meet every day? How, still missing?" Ridwan's voice made Ara a little shocked. Ridwan also stepped closer to his sister who was being overwhelmed with sadness. Sitting next to him and staring at the netra Ara that was beginning to dew.

"Did I know you didn't?! Suddenly without being invited." Ara was trying to melt the atmosphere.

"There are kunti guys" said Ridwan. Following the flow of the atmosphere that Ara was trying to create.

"Figure exception!" Ara was singing her tiny lips.

"Behold brother, who came uninvited home was not delivered it jailangkung, not kunti."

"If the jailangkung come not picked up, not come uninvited," said Ara too smart.

"Their?"

"Whoa. Pick up it pack the vehicle, if invited yes pack the invitation." In a state of sad heart, Ara still had time to laugh. Making Ridwan finally smile and scramble the top of Ara's head was too anxious.

"Abang! My hair is not ruffled. It will not be beautiful!" Ara spoke while tidying up her somewhat messy hair.

"Pretty pretty, really. It's getting pretty."

"Nhaw!" sahut Ara fast.

"Hehe." Ridwan.

"What's your brother doing here?" ask Ara.

"New kayak for the first time. Ara, right, it's been here a lot, Bang."

"Yes, Ara. Brother understands. But not until last night either." Hearing Ridwan's words, Ara immediately saw the watch that was coiled around her arm. As soon as he saw the clock showing at eleven past ten minutes, his eyes rounded in shock.

"Hem, just realized, right, if it was almost late at night?" Ara speechless. Back to his mind. Think Afi spent that long? Why does it feel so short? It's strange!

"Woi!" Ridwan patted Ara's shoulder. Makes Ara finally wake up from her daydream.

"Why bengong?" ask Ridwan. Ara shakes.

Ridwan grabbed both of Ara's shoulders. Facing Ara to him. He looked into Ara's eyes deeply. It seemed like Ridwan realized that his sister was not doing well.

"Why you?" ask Ridwan. Ara silence.

"David, Ara. You why?" Ara remained silent.

"You got a problem? If so, tell my brother. Don't hold it yourself."

Ara exhaled heavily. Feeling confused about whether he answered his brother's question.

"It's okay, Bang." That sentence was finally thrown from Ara's lips.

"lik! Brother knows you not for one or two years, Ra. Brother knows exactly how you are. Now you're honest with your brother. What was? About Afi?" Ridwan asked seriously.

Hearing the name Afi mentioned, Ara turned her face away from Ridwan. Removing the brother's hand from his shoulder.

"Afi has a boyfriend, Bang," replied Ara Lirih.

"Where are you from?"

"Liat himself. Afi often with the girl. In fact, a few days ago, he promised to pick up Ara but instead did not come. contacted also can not. nyampek school, know-tau that boy even the same girl, the new class next door like."

"for sure, if that's Afi's girl?"

"Yes, definitely, Bang. If not which girlfriend might be by her side!" Hearing Ara's reply, Ridwan smiled instead.Ara frowned confusedly.

"Abang, really, laugh, anyway! Is something funny?"

"There," replied Ridwan with the rest of his laughter.

"What's so funny?"

"your. People if they're jealous can make their faces funny, too, huh?"

"Jealous? Who's jealous?" Ara changed sewot.

"if not jealous, what's his name, Dek? Afi deket with other girls you don't even like. whereas not necessarily it's a real girl boyfriend Afi."

"Dragon knows! Ara's own people, really. If it's not a boyfriend, then maybe Afi is like that."

"how is that?" Ridwan does like teasing Ara. So no wonder if his beloved sister was made to die of style by him.

"au' ah! Nyebbelin's brother! The point is Ara is not jealous, period!"

"Ciye .. who again burned the flames of jealousy. Pantesan, stay here until you forget time. Basic, boy! Again, even venting the same flowers, moon, and stars. Why not just the same grass that swayed," said Ridwan.

"One more time you said Ara was jealous, Ara didn't want to go home!" threaten Ara's.

"Eh, don't be that, Ra. Later if you why, brother who scolded papa mama later."

"Bodo's very!"

"In part, if you're not jealous, then why are you so kayak gini that Afi deket with other girls?"

Ara stared fixedly at Ridwan's eyes. The man she loved so much was also staring at Ara. As if to find the honest answer from the look of his sister's eyes.

Right now, it felt like Ara could not be frank about what she felt towards Afi all this time. Other than being embarrassed, he was afraid that his brother would get angry.

"R. Love, affection, and love are natural things. Humanely called. Don't care about friends, new people, or anything like that. Just don't torture yourself."

"Ara just doesn't want to bother Afi, Bang. Afraid that eventually Ara's friendship with Afi even damaged her relationship with her boyfriend. I know myself, Ara Sama Afi kayak how. If Afi's girlfriend gets angry and misunderstands, how?"

"Love comes not as a destroyer, Ara. Even if Afi already has a girl, your friendship bond should also not be tenuous, let alone broken. Besides, you're not sure, are you, if Afi has a boyfriend?"

"why not sure?"

"Yes, not sure. Because if he did, he would have confided in you as his best friend."

"Udahlah, Bang. Let alone. Ara is okay too."

"Saran brother, yes. Mending you find out first, deh! Whose girl, where did it come from. Than you were just frantically doing. Kan, not sure yet. Fear even becomes misunderstood later."

It was actually true what Ridwan said. Ara shouldn't have concluded something that wasn't sure the truth. But that is how love is. Leave a question mark and have to find the answer.

***

Afi stepped doubtfully, approaching towards the brown colored door in front of her. Afi was silent for a moment, trying to convince her intention to meet Ara tonight.

"This hour must have been Ara sleeping" he murmured.

Afi took a deep breath, then knocked on the door in front of him. Once twice tapped, there is no answer.

"Assalamu'alaikum's chat. Ara! It's me, Afi." Several times, the results are the same.

Kathy is starting to be pessimistic. The door is not open yet.

"I don't feel good, Ra. I'm here to make mastiin if you're in good shape, "inward Afi, while continuing to knock on the door.

"Ah, you idiot! Obviously, it will not be opened. Ara also must have slept at this hour. But, I haven't been able to calm down before I'm fine with Ara." Afi said to herself.

Anxiety, worry, and fear seemed to blend into one. For some reason, Afi was feeling so anxious. His feelings are getting less and less. Especially considering Ara's attitude that began to change lately. All of that made Afi even more confused. I started to lose my best friend.

Afi had attempted to contact Ara from afternoon, but was inactive. That is what makes Afi finally determined to come to Ara's house even though the clock has shown twelve o'clock past ten minutes.

"I don't know what to do if you get me, Ra. Why are you staying away? Why have you changed? What wrong? I hope, you're all right. And tomorrow, you will return to being the Ara I know, "inner Afi. Looking at the window of Ara's room from a distance.