Last Pack Rice For Nabila
Unfulfilled Desire

Raga takes Nabila around several stalls to find a safe hideout. It's not too late, baby if you have to leave the market. In addition, the sustenance obtained is still four thousand rupiah, at least he is looking for six thousand more rupiah for dinner and sahur later.

Nabila's round eyes sparkled when he saw a row of kiosks selling children's clothes complete with cute sandals. Sometimes he sounded amazed from his small mouth.

Raga who had looked at the face of the sister, suddenly felt pain in the heart. Not that he didn't know that Nabila would want new clothes.

"God willing, Lebaran will buy a new hijab for you," he said suddenly, even though Nabila did not speak anything.

Hearing the sentence of the brother, as if saying a promise, Nabila immediately commented a happy smile. "When you want white, yes, sister," he asked.

"White? Don't you like pink, which you call pink?" asked Raga a little surprised, the article during this dress or items that asked her sister always request pink color.

"Yes, but If you remember the word Amak white symbolizes holy and clean, on the feast day if you want to look clean, Brother."

Raga nodded. "Alright, Brother will invite you to make your own choice."

"Eh, sister, in the shop that was missed earlier when you see the white hijab is very good," said Nabila.

"Which shop, Dek?" Raga stopped and looked at the stall selling clothes one by one.

"That's Brother in front of him there are a lot of sandals." Nabila's tiny finger pointed at the stall to the five they had already passed.

Raga fondled for a moment, thought nothing just asking the price so that he was more eager to collect money. He turned towards the stall which looked more complete than the other stalls.

"Sir, Ms ...!" Raga called the owner of the stall, who was either the owner of the fathers or mothers.

Out a mother with a carefree face and immediately approached them. "What's wrong?" As always, it is cynical. Perhaps, seeing the appearance of Raga and Nabila has brought disgust.

"Sir, which veil do you want?" Raga asked Nabila first.

"That, sister," pointed Nabila up, the veil along with the Muslim robe of a small child hanging there.

"How many hoods is that, Mom?" Raga turned to ask the stall owner.

"That's if it's ninety-five, if the hijab is forty-five thousand."

"Fourty-five thousand, ma'am?" reload Raga make sure.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Mom, may I ask you to please save the suit first, if my money is enough I will go back to buy it." Raga begged expectantly, hopefully the stall owner will be kind.

"How many days will you be back? For a long time I could not promise. It's been saved the taunya you didn't come, it's a loss in me."

"I'm definitely back, Mom. Before Lebaran I must have bought the suit." Raga.

"Well, I can't promise. Byeah, sana-sana .. disturbin aja, do not buy. It was hot weather, it was hotter! Go!" drive the stall owner away while shaking his hand.

"Yes, Mom, please save that suit first. Poor ma'am, for my sister. He likes that one."

"Fucking time! If I sell it, if it still does not sell it is your sustenance."

Raga dragged her step away. Sad, but he was determined to be more vigorous in search of sustenance. His heart continues to murmur prayers, hopefully before lebaran later the money has been collected. Ninety-five rupiah is a very large nominal for him, who has held the most money twenty-three thousand only. How did he get that much money?

Despite being a heavy burden, but he did not blame Nabila's wishes. He was well aware because he had been like that to his parents.

"Mom, Lebaran will buy a new sarong Raga like Hendri's. Two years Raga did not change the sarong, it was torn also the tip was covered with nails."

It looks like Amak is breathing heavily. But Raga as a child also only wants to express his wishes.

Then, three days before the Eid. Amak came home from the market carrying a plastic bundle and called his two children.

"It's for the Raga and when."

Raga attacked the scabbard. "Amak, there's no stamp, it's a used scabbard, huh?"

"Sorry, enough money to buy used ones. It's still good, just a flaw in the end, it looks like it's got a cigarette butt."

"Yes, Mom, it's okay. Raga's changed the sarong, Hendrik the same Inspiration will not mock me again."

"Sorry, yes, Ga."

"It's okay, Mom, thanks."

A few memories come back. He had once expressed a desire like his sister, for that he understood and did not blame him for Nabila's wishes.

"It's expensive, brother."

Nabila's question awakened Raga's daydream. "Highly expensive, Dek." While continuing the steps.

"Sister's money won't be enough to buy, yeah."

"God willing, Brother will keep trying to find money to buy that outfit, Dek."

"Sister, if you wait there for Brother."

Nabila's designated spot behind the market with weeds flourishing. Slums and lots of puddles, but quite far from the crowd of people transacting.

Raga was speechless with a sad look at the place her sister pointed to. That place is more unfit to be a shelter. "Don't be there, Dek."

"No pa-pa, brother."

"But ...."

"If you want to be there."

Raga breathed a heavy sigh, forced to lower Nabila there. Trying to entrust the safety of his sister to the destiny of God.

"Sister not long. Brother will be back soon."

"Yes, Brother."

•

Nightfall.

Raga took a bottle of mineral water whose contents were no longer water, but rather several sheets of paper folded into small pieces. That's the new Raga savings containing nine thousand rupiahs. If he bought a suit for Nabila, it would still be less than eighty-six thousand.

"O Allah, in this holy month I plead earnestly, making it easy for the servant to seek money. For Nabila. I really want to see Nabila happy with wearing the desired clothes."

Both palms are placed all over the face, hoping that the prayer that is asked can penetrate the sky.

Already praying, but Raga's heart was not completely relieved. Keep in mind the rupiah that must be collected, quite still very much. A speck of his heart hesitated, whether in 26 days he could gather that much.

Nabila can still be given understanding, but he will not be able to see the sad face of his sister. Moreover, he had also felt sad when his wish had not been fulfilled. He doesn't want Nabila to be like that.