I Love My Best Friend's
Episode 17's

I also ran after Daffa who avoided my pinch. But Daffa kept running. Eventually, I got tired and stopped chasing him.

“Daffa, ah already, I'm tired.” I said. Daffa came to me.

“You're tired yeah baby.?” ask Daffa worried.

“Iya” reply me briefly while nodding my head.

“Yes we have rested for a while.” said Daffa while leading me towards the park bench. Then we both sat down and rested. I also leaned my head against Daffa's shoulder. Daffa wiped my sweat with his palm.

“Daffa” call me while looking up at him. Daffa then faced his face to me.

“Iya what dear.?” ask Daffa gently.

“I want to ask you something, may.” replied me.

“You ask what dear?” ask Daffa again.

“Why did you say that I was still so innocent?” my answer. Daffa thought for a moment and looked back at me.

“You really want to know baby.?” asked Daffa whom I replied with a nod of my head.

“Emm..Tell me not yes.” joked Daffa.

“Daffa don't joke, I seriously nih” whine. Daffa then shut up and seemed to think of something.

“Oh yes Daffa” I said when I remembered the conversation with papa last night. Daffa looked back at me.

“Iya, why darling.?” ask Daffa.

“Papa said, if my heart beats fast and gets nervous when you look at me deeply, it means I'm in love. And I fell in love because of you. Is that true Daffa.?” my answer. Daffa was surprised by my words. But soon, he smiled too.

“Then how do you think.?” ask Daffa.

“I don't know Daffa. I'm confused” I replied innocently.

“Bingung? Confused why?” ask Daffa curiously.

“Which I love to you is different from the time I used to like Erick”, I replied.

“How different is darling?” ask Daffa again.

“Yes different Daffa. Back when I liked Erick, my heart didn't beat and I wasn't too nervous when Erick looked at me. You know that I used to like Erick because he was handsome, good at basketball and humor”, I replied. Daffa just kept quiet and waited for me to say again.

“Erick is not as ignorant as you are. But when I'm with you, it feels so quiet, safe and comfortable. When you looked at me like that, my heart was racing and I was very nervous. Yeah even though you're ignorant, I'm somehow happy to be with you. Daffa. I don't want to be away from you” I explained.

“Nah, that's the difference Daffa made me confused” added me while looking towards Daffa. Daffa stroked my hair softly and lovingly.

“What you felt to Erick back then is indeed different from what you feel to me right now. Because what you feel for Erick is just a feeling of like or admiration. While what you feel to me is love” explained Daffa.

“Why is that so.?” manya curious.

“Because the feeling of like or admiration is only temporary. The proof is that you have forgotten him. Yes, even though you used to be sad, but it was only for a moment. After that, you smile again. Different from the feeling of love. Where love is the sincere taste of the heart. Now I ask you, how do you feel when I am sick..? Or when I'm away from you.?” daffa.

“What I feel when you are sick, yes I am very worried. I'm afraid you're okay. I was sad when I saw you sick. It feels like seeing you hurt, I feel like what you feel. Then if you're far away from me, I'll feel sad. Life is empty and colorless. I will also feel very lost you” my reply honestly.

“That's love dear. Where to feel what your partner feels. Then feel lost when he was away” explained Daffa.

“Means I love you, Daffa.”.

“It looks like so” reply Daffa with a smile.

“Then do you love me, Daffa.?” my many. Daffa was shocked and then silent.

“Bego, bego..You really are Diana..? Why do you want something that is the answer. Yes, obviously Daffa is silent, he does not love you. He only loves one girl and that is my inner Jelita” regret. I saw that Daffa was still silent and struggling with his thoughts.

“Daffa..” call me and Daffa turns to me.

“Sorry Din, I.” reply Daffa. But not yet able to continue his words, I immediately interrupted.

“Iya I already know. You love Jelita, right..? So there's no way you love me. Because you only consider me a friend and will always be so”, I said with eyes that began to glaze over.

I tried to keep smiling and hold back my tears. Then I left Daffa. But before I left, I heard Daffa speak. But I did not hear it clearly because Daffa spoke very slowly.

“I'm sorry, Diana..Maybe it's not time you knew everything. But believe me, soon you will know it” Daffa murmured very slowly.

I ran away from Daffa crying. I can't help but cry. I do condemn my stupidity. I could have asked Daffa like that.

“Bego..You really are Diana. You should realize, Daffa cannot love you. He only loves Jelita” I said in tears while condemning my stupidity.

“That Daffa will never love you, Diana. Daffa only thinks of you as a friend. Only friends. But why do you always behave sweetly and treat me gently Daffa..? Why..? Why are you giving me hope..? Arrgghh..” My tears are getting louder.

“Yes Lord, why is this feeling so tormenting me..? Why does loving have to hurt this much..? Why.?” I screamed while crying.

“No, no..I can't be like this. You shouldn't cry because you already know that Daffa doesn't love you. Anyway I can't cry. I can't cry” I said while wiping the tears in my eyes and cheeks.

“Diana, you must be strong. Don't cry anymore. Remember Diana, don't cry anymore. You have to be strong” believe me in yourself.

“Daffa..” call me. Then Daffa looked up at me worriedly. Daffa then stood up.

“You're okay, right..? Where are you going anyway..? I was worried” asked Daffa worried. I also felt a little sorry for leaving her all of a sudden. Let him worry.

“I'm fine with Daffa. I'm doing fine. Why me.?” I said as if nothing had happened.

“Do not lie dear” reply Daffa. Makes me a little nervous.

“I didn't lie to Daffa. I'm fine Kok” said I smiled and tried to relax.

“If you are okay, then why are your eyes as moist as someone who just cried, hem.?” daffa asked while looking at me sharply.

Degs…

I was shocked by Daffa's words. I was confused as to why Daffa would know that I had cried. I tried not to cry when I talked to him.

“Keep why did you suddenly leave earlier.?” ask Daffa again. I was silent too. I don't know what to answer to Daffa.

“Why silence.?” ask Daffa.

“It..emm..anu.tadi.em...” says I'm nervous.

“Why darling.?” ask Daffa gently.

“Emm.nothing about Daffa. Sorry if I left suddenly. It was me, me..” I answered nervously.

“I what.?” ask Daffa. Then I thought for a moment.

“I kebelet. That's why I suddenly left because I want to go to toilet” I replied lying.

“Yakin.?” ask Daffa while squinting suspicious eyes.

“Iya Daffa” reply.

“Then why are you crying.?” ask Daffa again while looking at me.

“Emm, I don't cry kok” I replied nervously.

“Do not lie dear” said Daffa while looking at me sharply.

“I didn't lie kok” I said sorry.

“If you don't cry, why are your eyes red and puffy.?” ask Daffa again.

“Yes God, what should I say..? Why is Daffa so chatty today..? What do I have to answer.?” mind confused.

“That was because my eyes entered abu” I replied.

“Truth..? No lie.?” ask Daffa who seems less sure.

“Iya I did not lie” replied I smiled trying to convince Daffa that I was okay. I saw Daffa sigh too.

“Alright then, we better go home now. I want sampum” take Daffa. I was also relieved and agreed to Daffa's invitation to go home. Then Daffa and I got into the car and rushed home.

“Honey..” call Daffa turn towards me for a while continue to focus on driving.

“Iya why Daffa..?” my reply.

“Today I am at your house just yes dear.” said Daffa.

“What..? Today Daffa wants to go home..? What-What-what's this.? He forgot his memory or what..? Kan she knows that tonight is my family dinner and my family” my heart is upset.

“Kok diem aja anyhow dear.?” ask Daffa.

“Gak..You can't go straight home today” I replied firmly rejecting Daffa's request.

“Indeed why do you love.?” ask Daffa curiously.

“You did not forget that our family will have dinner together today.?” askaku.

“Ya no dong babe. What does this have to do.?” answer plain Daffa.

“Isk..You are oon or pretend oon sih”, I said annoyed.

“Kok I said oon heck dear.” protest Daffa.

“Soalya you are indeed oon banget” reply me. I saw Daffa pinching his forehead confused as if saying “What do you mean dear.?”.

“You know that the one who invited your family to dinner was my family” I said. Daffa nodded his head.

“I want you to come tonight with mom and dad. You are our guests tonight. Our special family guest. If you are home, it is exciting dong. Her guests were at home. So tonight I want you to come with mom and dad as special guests of our family” I explained. I saw Daffa seem to think for a moment.

“You Yes Daffa.., Please.” refer me. Then Daffa looked at me in silence.