I Choose You
Episode 1's

WHY CAN'T I CHOOSE

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"Claudia Mahdalena Wicaksono, you can only choose between two choices you make. If you mind already. No need to go to college, you just find a prospective husband and get married. Slap it". There was a tone of upset voice Mother filled the ceiling of Claudia's room.

"The two choices you propose are as heavy as Clow's, you know Clow wants to go out of here and that's in Bandung bun". Claudia's clasping once again at her mother. Actually the tone of voice upset the mother was able to make Claudia's guts, but for the sake of her dream of being able to go to college in Bandung like her three best friends, then she tried once again to seduce the mother.

"Claw, once again denied the mother then the decision of the mother can not be disturbed anymore. You mama remarry the child of a friend of mother. Don't go to college all". Finally, my mother was really angry. Mother left Claudia's room with an angry grudge against her favorite girl.

"Bad mother, I don't love mother". Claudia said at the decision of her mother.

Mother is surprised to hear Claudia accuses him of being evil, even saying no love to him. From childhood until now Claudia is a sweet girl with a word of the language of the ghost . But this time, why did the heart of his dear girl speak those words. Mother walked out of Claudia's room, sad. That feeling is filling my heart.

Claudia was silent, she looked down at her fingers with helplessness. There is a deep sense of hate, Mother is not fair, that is what her little heart feels. Why Mas Bram used to be free to choose the university he wanted. Where do you want to go to college? To the island of Java or even abroad there, the mother never forbid anything else against. Trus, why is it his turn now forbidden. Whereas Claudia only hopes to study in Bandung, just like Sinta, Tanto and Rama, her closest friends. Not out of the country I want to go, just Bandung. Said Claudia's heart out between her sobs.

But free, since the father has never changed into a mother figure who can not be in about his words by Claudia, mother's words are ultimatums for him. And now Claudia has to agree to two ultimatums. Want to continue to college may be, in Bengkulu which means he will continue his studies near mother ya. Or in Semarang if you really want to go to college, there are no other options only those two options. The problem is that Claudia does not want to study in Bengkulu, she wants to be independent, wants to continue studying outside the city she has lived since birth, like her dreams with three friends so far. They have decided to continue college to Bandung and he himself will choose a graphic design major as his ideals.

Dear thousand dear, Claudia can only lecture out of Bengkulu just by choosing Semarang City, only Semarang. Matters majors, mother gave her full freedom to choose. So what is the point for Claudia is free to choose a major but not free to choose a university. Claudia was crying in her bed, mother ngak fair mother evil. His heart always repeated those words.

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"Bi, please call Cloudia to come down. We eat together again". Mother's voice requested that bi Darmi call her favorite daughter down.

Bi Darmi agreed and walked towards the second floor to Claudia's room. "Neng, neng Claudia", bi Darmi's voice in front of Claudia's room. But the one called was silent without a sound.

Tok, tock, tock

 "Neng, neng Clow.ayo dong we eat, that mother was waiting for the sweet to eat". Back the aunt tried to call Claudia. But the one called to remain silent there is no telling from inside the room.

Bi Darmi finally decided to go back down to the dinner table to meet his employer after twice trying to call Claudia and he failed. Maybe the cool one again in the bathroom, ngak ngenger aunty called. Think positive bi Darmi for Claudia's silence in the room.

"Sorry madam, maybe neng Claudia's in the bathroom again. You already called twice, then aunt knocked on her bedroom door but there was no reply. Maybe in ten minutes, auntie's trying to call me madam". Bi Darmi explains her failure to bring Claudia down for dinner with her mistress.

Ahh, surely the children are craving the fish and don't want to go down to eat. I'm sure he deliberately didn't want to answer so he pretended not to listen. Hahhh, that kid. Though what I said all for the good of him, why Claudia could not understand anyway. Mommy is sad in her heart to find her favorite girl sulking.

" Yes already bi ngak papah, so be it. No need to call again. Later if he is hungry, he will tourunj as well". Mother gave up on Claudia's stubbornness.

Mommy sits alone at the dining table while playing her spoon on a plate, it seems like the mother dissolves in her own daydreams so that when Bramantio Wicaksono her oldest cyanak came home, the mother did not notice. Bram was astonished by the behavior of his mother, not as usual. What do you do that disturbs your mind until you daydream in front of food. Usually the mother is the most angry if food is used as a toy, but this mother is just stirring food while dumbfounded and where Claudia, why she did not go down to eat. Bram was very curious about the behavior of his mother.

"Mother, Bram's home". Bram greets his mother while sitting next to her chair

"Ohh, are you home, son? Already eaten? Come on, eat with mother yuk". Take the mother to Bram to cover her surprise because Bram's voice had awakened her from the daydream.

"But mother, I did deliberately ngak eat outside so that can eat mallm with mother and Claudia".

Answer Bram.

"If you have to clean up first Bram. Later, after that just eat with us huh". Mother told Bram to take a shower first.

"Whether you do it" Bram replied, acting like someone was saluting.

Mother just smiled at the behavior of her son. Since their father died, Bram has completely changed. Bram turned into the backbone of the family replacing their father figure, Bram turned into a hardworking man to make sure his mother and beloved sister always lived well without anything less like when their father was still alive. But he never forgets the little things that can keep the warmth of the family afloat, such as eating together both breakfast and dinner together. Or the birthday of his mother and sister. Despite being busy running the father's legacy company, Bram still tried to keep the warm atmosphere as it was when their father was still there. Family number one and Bram keep that. Mommy is grateful her son is always there for her and Claudia.

Unwittingly a speck of warm grains fell in the corner of the mother's eye. Bram who was just about to step away to go up to the second floor, his room suddenly stopped his steps. Sure enough, something disturbs the mind of the mother. There must be a relationship with Claudia, it's weird that the kids just don't have dinner together. Thought Bram in the heart. Bram walked towards the back of the dining chair occupied by the mother, and his hands were stretched out to hug the mother from behind. He kissed the top of his head while saying "mommy wants to tell me the same story?"

Mother also returned to drip the next warm grains from the corner of her sad eyes. He held both of his sons' hands. "I'm sorry my mother didn't mean to worry you. Mother ngak papah kok". It was as if you could read Bram's worry about warm grains falling from his eyes.

"Mother does not need to apologize to me, mother actually has to tell the same story me. Mother can not be sad, if mother is sad I will how? Who will spoil me if you are sad. Claudia and I are in desperate need of a mother. So mother story yes, mother why?" Persuade Bram to his mother.

Hehhh, mother breathed a heavy sigh before starting to tell a story. "Your sister Bram, she's mad at you. Mommy objected to fulfilling her wish about studying in Bandung. Now he's locked himself in the room not wanting to eat with mommy son".

"Mother don't be sad", While removing tears on your cheeks, "Bram will talk to Claudia yes". And before Bram went up to the second floor, once again he kissed the top of the head of his beloved mother. Mother also just nodded with Bram's proposal just now.

Before Bram spoke to his sister, he took a bath and cleaned in his room. Bram soon walked into the room right next to his.

Tok, tock, tock

"Claw this mas, can you come in?" Bram asked from the outside door of Claudia's room.

"So, you know, the door's not in the lock". Claudia said from the direction in the room.

"Hi, what else? Come home to be welcomed? Even fun in the room. Snarling again, huh?" Bram asked while smiling.

"Sorry, I didn't go home". Claudia only answered Bram's questions briefly.

"Why don't you eat with your mom downstairs. Pity loh mother herself, fortunately mas quickly go home if it is not possible the work of the mother just play a spoon on her rice plate while crying until the middle of the mall". Bram started to take Claudia seriously.

"What a mas, mama nangis". There was regret in his heart. Ever since their father died, Claudia has made a promise at her father's navel. He will be an obedient child, will take good care of the mother, will not bother the mother anything else to make the mother cry. God, what I did, there was a feeling of regret in his heart.

"Yes mother crying at the dinner table. Can you tell me the same cause" Bram asked Claudia.

"I'm sorry mas, maybe my quarrel with mother this afternoon was the cause. Mom, mother is fair. I was banned from college far from my mother. I can't go to college, just here. Trus after I persuaded the mother was also devastated as well. I was allowed to continue college out, but.but in Semarang mas. Though I want to go to Bandung mas like Sinta, Tanto and Rama. We have promised, we will continue to study in Bandung. But mother forbid, said Mother if you do not want to go to college in Semarang yes already continued to study here just deket same mother. I don't want to go here, I don't want to go to college. Cook yes from birth until I was big gini I am here aja mas. I also want to study independently, study and study at the university that I dream of". Wide swipe from Claudia to Bram.

"Trus, is there anything you haven't heard?" asked Bram later.

Claudia bowed lethargic, hesitating to continue. Then he looked at his brother's eyes with guilt. "Mas, I. I was, said, said that the mother is evil with me, akuu, akuuu said that I do not love the mother mas". Claudia's raucous and stammered voice was heard by Bram. Bram groaned in disbelief, a spoiled Claudia the child was able to speak like that to their mother.

"Mas, I'm sorry, hiksss", Claudia finally broke out in tears.

Bram sat on the bed next to his sister, hugging Claudia to calm her down. Claudia was wrong and at least now she was already sorry for her attitude towards the mother earlier. "You know what your fault is?", asked Bram to his sister. Claudia nodded her head.

"Have you ever asked your mother why she only gave you the option to continue studying here or if you want to continue studying outside only allowed at universities in Semarang City?" Bram asked Claudia. And Bram felt his sister's head shake.

"Claw..after your father died, you must know what the weight of your struggle to try to be a mother figure and at the same time become a father figure for you. Mother always wants you not to feel the lack of perfection of life in a family. Mother loves you more than anything, everything you do for you there is always a reason behind everything. That mother is afraid you will feel different from your friends whose family is intact, complete because it has a father. I'm too busy at dad's company, only the bundle is always with you. Why Claw, why can't you understand mother's attitude? There's always a reason in every way you've treated you, hasn't it been this long? Why did you say you were evil?" Bram tries to remind his sister how much she is sorry for him. Bram and Claudia are ten years old, a long distance away.

When their father died five years ago, Bram had just completed his undergraduate education in Singapore. After obtaining a bachelor's degree in business economics, he returned to Indonesia precisely to Bengkulu City, he returns to his family to take over the duties as head of the household and is in charge of the company that his father owns. Bram is busy, so busy that the recovery period of his sister from suffering in living father figure only the mother as a tranquilizer. When Claudia was in the eighth grade of Junior High, she was always there for Claudia.

Yes, that's the best mother they have. But the mindset to his sister's children at this time has made the mother sad.

"Mas, mas, hikss, ma.ma, forgive me, hikss". Claudia's voice was cut off in between her cries. "Don't apologize equally, but the same mother. Mother is very sad Claw". Bram.

"Yes, I want to apologize to you". Claudia looked into Bram's eyes.

Bram took off his embrace from his sister and wiped away her tears. The nose of the sister was flushed because she was crying.

"Come, let's meet the mother below", Bram took with him while holding Claudia's hand.

When Bram and Claudia reached the dinner table, Claudia immediately ran to call their mother.

"Mother, motheraaaa.maafin Claw bun, hiksss, sorry Claw ya bun, hiksssss". Claudia's crying voice broke out in my arms.

Mother hugged and kissed the crown of her favorite daughter while saying, "yes dear mother already sorry Claw really. No more crying".

"Mother is sad because of Claw, right? Mother, sorry Claw, hikss", Claudia's tears still do not want to stop falling.

"Already, already dear", mother also cried to see the princess grieved. Not until the heart feels for the mother to see her little girl cry, even though the mother knows the cry that comes out is the cry of guilt, the regret of the princess.

Finally the mother and Claudia made up that night, bi Darmi who saw the big employer and her small employer embrace each other, forgiving each other in the novelty of not being able to hold back her tears. Aunt got carried away late. Bram walked over to the aunt and was about to hug her, "cini, cinihhh, Bram peyuk aunty, let her be sad". Bram said with a smile to tease the aunt with a voice that was raised.

Bi Darmi was shocked and stuck his hand forward to block the actions of the young man. "Hahahaa, den, den, don't tease auntie. Later aden has a crush on his aunt will be a barbie for his nolaknya". Answer the aunt santuy as she passes towards the kitchen.

Mother and Claudia laughed out loud to see Bram scratching his head even though he actually felt no itching at all on the part of his head. Then he also led his mother and sister to the dining table, actually Bram was already feeling very hungry from now on.