Hijrah Love In A Third Night
Chapter 22's

Ardan POVs

I'm still staring at Raga's car that's starting to go out of sight.

Arrgh, why am I so stupid.

Why would I let Alisyha be in trouble ?

Argh...!!

Youre....!!

You idiot....!!!

You stupid Ar !!

I still grieve my stupidity that brought Alisyha in a relationship that from the beginning was never sanctioned by the family.

Not to make Alisyha's family like me. It even makes Bang-iyan hate me.

**** so bad with Ardan !!

You begoo !!

I still grieve my stupidity.

I hit the pole next to me, until my hands were filled with blood.

Tired of hitting an innocent pole, I sat down on the stairs and cupped my face between my arms.

Suddenly Elma came and approached me.

" Astagfirullah Ardan your hands tea why ? " he asked worried about me.

" I'm gpp Ma. Go away from here I want to go alone ! " ask me to him, I really want to be alone right now.

Not gone. Elma crouched down in front of me, forcing me to look up my head.

" I don't think tea will go away before the wound on your hand. This tea can be infected in the ar ! " Say it while gently pulling my hands together.

" Let's just ma" said I'm lethargic not excited

" Short of you wait here, don't go anywhere. Ok! " he said as he stood up from his squat and walked a little run inside. I don't know what he's gonna do.

I moved from my seat to the garden chair that a few hours ago became a special place.

A place where I've just been happy with Alisyha. Who knew that a few hours later, my happiness turned into a catastrophe.

I sat in the garden chair looking straight ahead. The shadow a few hours ago sitting with Alisyha is still clearly recorded in my memory.

His shy smile, he said, ahh everything is still clear in my memory until the incident of tears that go down his cheeks.

How stupid of me as a man.

I shouldn't have put the people I love so much in trouble.

Instead of giving him happiness I gave him misery.

Sorry I'm Syha.

Suddenly Elma came to me with a breath of excitement. I looked at him who was looking down embarrassed beside the chair I was sitting on while frighteningly next to my eyebrows.

" Lo why Ma ? "

" O Allah Ardan it turns out that you are tea here, I will find you Ar. I told you not to go anywhere, you go anyway. Here your hands let me medicine" he said while busy opening the medicine box he brought. His gaze was still on the ground.

" emm said ummi gpp kok Ar if we are good intentions inshaa Allah, Allah will understand. Allah is All-Knowing. This is a danger of Ar if not in medicine. Here's your hand ! " he said softly. I was forced to give both my hands that were still covered by the blood that was beginning to dry up.

Elma squatted in front of me. I am still sitting in the chair.

"Awww.." my ringis when Elma cleaned the wound on my hand using a cotton swab that was dripped with alcohol.

" It hurts Ar ? It's been slow "he said without looking at me. He painstakingly cleaned the wound on my hand, gave me red medicine and then bandaged my hands together. I looked at him carefully.

" Done." he said after finishing treating my hand. He stood up and was about to leave.

" Wait on Ma ! " say me

" why ? " tanyanya

" may I ask you please don't I ? .But if you don't want to gpp I understand "ask me to him. He seemed to think.

" yaudah deh "he agreed

" do you want to stand up and do not want to sit ? "

" i'm sitting under aja let's not deketan "he said with a smile. "continue we want to do Ar ?  "

" When I tell you want to hear no Ma ? "

" So much Ar "

" I was wrong, Ma ? " ask him, he doesn't seem to understand where I'm going.

" I'm wrong Ma if I love Alisyha, if I love her ? " Say me. He seemed silent

" you kicked me, right ? "

Elma flinched, but she was daydreaming ? .

" uh iy-a I'm tea with you kok Ar. Love is fitrah Ar everyone will surely love. Just how each person expresses his or her different love-"

I cut the word "different how do you mean ? "

" yes different Ar. Not everyone who likes the same person immediately uttered the taste, some chose to keep silent the taste alone. There is something that immediately reveals to people who like it. There are also people who like other people. Nah-- "

Again I cut it he said "lo mean, I have to tell him as well as other people ? "

" ishh is not that Arya dengerin first if people talk do not like to be cut is not good.

So gini nih, not all parents like you who immediately blatantly reveal their feelings. Keep wanting to be with people you like. Sometimes we don't have to be with the people we love, why ?.

Karna," pause for a moment I still listen to his words carefully.

" Because in love the most important is not how we have it but how we make our loved ones happy, the highest level of love is sincere Ar. It means we have to be sincere even though in the end we can not be with the person we love as long as he is happy. Why Ar you are with the people you love, instead of giving happiness you even make your loved ones fall into misery." said Elma made me stunned.

" It's different Ma, Alisyha also love me. And his happiness is the same with me !! ". My vow

" Ar if he is your match until whenever he will still be yours, so my advice is you better learn to strengthen yourself so that Bang Iyan can also accept you." elma said after that she left me .

My mind is still raging, though,

am I being too selfish ?

Did I get Alisyha in trouble ?

Ask me in my heart.