Heart Heart Heart
Why Like This?

"Am I really stupid for still holding on forcing you to remember me? But, that's my belief, though I have to admit, the more I wonder, who am I in your eyes?"

"And not only are you asking who I am, but I am asking myself who are you currently standing before me? You don't know who I was all this time or I don't know who you are now? You've forgotten me and I don't recognize you anymore."

"Your figure every day I see and your voice is always heard, but it just feels like it's getting further and further away for me to reach. Do you know how much I miss you? Our memories together are still alive in this house and my heart, even now as usual I still miss you..."

"Hindu looking at your handsome face.miss seeing your smile.have longed to hear your laughter.I miss your sweet attitude that is always romantic... miss your naughty gaze and sexy voice when teasing me. miss your warm embrace.. long for the fragrant aroma of your body.. long for your sweet kiss! Maybe if I stop you then, none of this will happen, we'll stick together."

"It feels like, just last night I saw a sea of love in your eyes, but now it's gone nowhere. You changed! Now, there's no lover I know, so sweet to love me, that makes me fall in love every day."

"All that remains is you tormenting me at all times with a cold treatment that slowly freezes my soul, your harsh and hurtful speech that always pierces my heart and the look of your hatred that always stabs at my race."

"Are there no longer left your feelings that were only for me, even in the deepest recesses of your heart, even if only a little? Do I really have to give up on my race? Is this what you want?"

"I am a fool! All these questions are getting out of control and slowly devouring my entire soul, driving me crazy, sometimes even I start thinking about hating you."

"I want to get out of this. I'm getting sick waiting for you to remember me, to remember your love for me. I'm getting sick of it, V!" said Putri lirih monologue alone in the middle of his pill cry while looking at the back of Vincent who was getting away from him.

***

The next morning, Vincent was walking in the hallway of the room, when he found the door of the Princess's room open and as his eyes barged into the room, he saw the sleeping Princess curled up on the floor, in the same position he left a few hours ago.

Vincent approached the lying body, he covered it. With a hard-to-interpret look, he noticed the sleeping Princess, "The more days I get more and more confused with my own feelings. I hate you for no reason, but for no reason I feel sorry for you. So, you better give up! Stop this!" he said as he stepped back to leave the Princess.

Outside the room, Kei rewinds his steps hiding behind a wall until Vincent passes him downstairs. He sees Vincent fresh out of the Princess's room, but he is lazy to greet her.

Kei came to see the Princess as a friend to comfort her after Madame Adhitama recounted the events yesterday. Kei frowned when he saw Rosalind coming out of the room that the Princess was going to use as her bridal room with Vincent.

Kei looked at Rosalind with a dislike look, while Rosalind casually ignored Kei's existence. "Based on witchcraft!" rutuk Kei quietly after Rosalind passed him.

Kei was even more surprised to find the Princess still curled up on the floor, "Don't Vincent have been from this room? Why would he let the Princess sleep on the floor?" muttered. Slowly, Kei raised the Princess to put her to bed.

The princess did not open her eyes at all as Kei carried her. "Are you still a sleeping princess at this age?" muttered Kei while smiling, recalling his memories with the Princess who was difficult to wake up from his sleep.

"Or did you just fall asleep, after crying all night, even on the floor?" kei began his monologue alone, as his smile was lost when he realized the Princess' eyes were so swollen.

Kei sat down on the side of the bed and spread his head and looked at the Princess with a sad look. "While everything hurts, are you just going to look at it forever? Just like I'm just looking at you..."

"Did you really love her with all your heart, until you survived until now? Even though his gaze now always hated you? Even though her lips never smile at you again? Even though his hand doesn't want to hold your hand anymore? Do you love her so much?"

"But I don't like it! I don't like to see you hurt like this. I can't keep looking at you crying from a distance. I want to cheer you up. I want to make you smile again."

"I want to hug you, kiss your lips, touch you and whisper in your ear, I still love you. I still love you so much, Put. Forget him and come back to me! You're my only reason to live..."

Kei bowed, softly, sighing, "can I say all this? God, can I be greedy for the rest of my time?" he continued slowly so as not to be heard by anyone.

Heavily, Kei left the Princess who was still closing her eyes, she chose to let him rest first. Kei went back downstairs, meeting the owner.

When Kei had completely left the room, the Princess opened her eyes. Actually, he's been awake since. Although it sounded slow, he could hear Kei's words, although not all of them. It was also Vincent's words that told him to give up on his feelings.

***

"How, is Princess okay?" asked Madame Adhitama who saw Kei coming down the stairs. "Princess is sleeping, Bun," Kei replied kindly. He did not want to add to their worries by saying the state of the Princess he had seen earlier.

"Do you want to wait for him to wake up?" ask Mr. Adhitama. Kei answered with a smile. "Then we're talking in the dining room, you haven't had breakfast. Besides, it's raining outside, you better wait for him to wake up in a minute. Let the waiter wake her up later," Madame Adhitama asked.

The hostess called a servant, and told him to wake the Princess, after the servant had finished his work and to take her to breakfast.

They walked together towards the dining table, but their steps came to a halt when they saw Rosalind sitting with Vincent there.

Vincent, who noticed the dislike of his parents, decided to move from there, and invited Rosalind to find breakfast outside. Vincent only wants to avoid further conflict because it feels like his head has started to hurt by just imagining it.

"Why should we eat out?" ask spoiled Rosalind. "Don't argue! Just follow me!" said Vincent coldly. "But my baby wants to eat here" said Rosalind, embracing Vincent's affectionate arm.

"Give it!" mrs Adhitama said with great emphasis. "Darling, mother scares me," whined Rosalind. "Who are you calling mother, huh! Damn the damned woman! A snake like you is scary!" snapped Madame Adhitama loudly.

"Dear, relax!" said Mr. Adhitama, hugging his wife, "do you not want to listen to your mother's words, V? Get him out of this house!" continued. Vincent relented this time and pulled Rosalind's hand to leave.

***

"Madam, Miss Princess is not in her room" said the maid. "Maybe he's taking a shower" Kei said. "In the bathroom, there is also nothing, sir," the servant replied making his master look at each other.

Kei rushed to the Princess's room to check on her, but it turned out that the Princess was really not in her room. Later, Kei assisted several servants in searching for the Princess throughout the house, but the results remained nil.

"How come? I left him in a state of sleep. If he gets out of the house, the only way is this ladder. Did the Princess secretly pass him when we were in the dining room earlier?" said Kei.

***

Vincent paused his intention to leave when he saw some busy looking waitress, like he was looking for something around the courtyard, even in the rain like this.

"Have you found him?" asked one of the servants to the other servant who passed by him. "Not yet, neither here nor there," said the servant.

Curious, Vincent closed the car door and asked one of the servants nearby. Hearing the Princess who disappeared out of nowhere, Vincent went back into the house, while Rosalind who saw him from the car was confused.

***

"Why none of you saw him!" vincent suddenly asked angrily at the servants who were just bowing their heads, "why are you quiet!" snapped again.

"We don't know either, sir. We're doing our own thing this morning, sir. Said Master Kei, Miss Princess is still sleeping in her room," replied a servant in fear.

"What do you mean! Do I have to order you to watch him and you do it!" chanted Vincent furiously. "Yes? Do we have to do it?" ask the other servant who was also frightened.

"Are you all stupid! Your employers are gone and you don't know it! Do you all want to get fired!" vincent said he was getting fiery. "Master, please don't fire us. We are sorry, sir," said all the servants at the same time, pleading with Vincent, even to the point of prostrating at his feet.

"Alright, I'll give you a chance, but you'll need to find the Princess as soon as possible. Ck! It sucks! How dare you make me angry so early!" said Vincent who really went with Rosalind this time.

Kei and Vincent's parents fell silent at Vincent's reaction, which they thought was too much. "Why is he this angry? Hasn't she been the one who wanted the Princess to leave?" think Kei.

***

That evening in Vincent's study at the Adhitama residence, "Have you found him?" ask Arjuna who he ordered to find the Princess. "No, yet" answered Arjuna briefly.

Vincent's eyes rounded to hear him, "It's late at night and none of you have managed to find it?" ask Vincent flat.

"Actually, there have just been reports, there were people who saw the Princess walking in the rain while crying and looking very chaotic like. I'm sorry, I said this, but once again we lost track of him" Arjuna replied hesitantly.

Prangs! Vincent throws the glass in his hand until it breaks on the floor, "Find him out!" his yell. Suddenly, he saw the Princess passing in front of his study in a drenched state.

Vincent rushed over and pulled the Princess, "Where have you been, huh! Why are you walking in such bad weather? Are you stupid!" he shouted while squeezing both arms of the Princess.

"It hurts!" ringis Princess quietly with a raucous voice. "Say, where have you been?" ask Vincent again without letting go of his grip. "Why are you asking? Didn't you tell me to leave?" sahut Putri was soft with a limp body and spoke without looking at Vincent.

"I asked, where have you been? Answer me, Princess!" chanted Vincent louder. "Take me off!" she said with a bitter smile, "do you not want me to go, and why are you angry now, young master Vincent Adhitama!" continue with a flat face.

Vincent glares. "What did you call me? You!" said Vincent while pushing the Princess to fall to the floor. Mr and Mrs Adhitama who heard the commotion came to them.

Arjuna, who saw the Princess fall, wanted to help her wake up, but Vincent forbade her, "Don't touch her!" it was very hard on Arjuna.

"What's this?" ask Mr. Adhitama. "Daughter! What's the matter, son? Are you all right? Where have you been? Mother is very worried about you," said Madame Adhitama while hugging the Princess.

Suddenly, the Princess laughed in her arms, "Do you wish I didn't come back again? Unfortunately, I will not leave father and mother with that demonic woman!" he said while looking sharply at Vincent who also looked at him no less sharply.

The Princess' gaze weakened. He lost and lowered his eyes. It hurts so much to be stared at like that by the people he loves. "Say, would I rather die?" the question was like someone in despair.

"Daughter! What are you saying, son?" said Madame Adhitama who tightened her embrace. "V, you've gone too far!" snarled Mr. Adhitama.

"Take off, Bun. I want to be alone" asked the Princess who released herself from her arms. Slowly, he walked to his room.

"Remember! From the day you can't get out of this house without my permission!" shout Vincent. "Daughter's right! Why am I this angry? Shouldn't I be happy if she's really out of this house?" his inner.