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Thirty-fourths

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"If by staying away is the right way to keep

relationships then I'd rather stay away than have to hurt

many people"

The way I saved the friendship this time was by staying away,

try to be a more introverted person than usual, don't get too close to anyone

being this kind of me is exhausting but I can meet

many people easily. 

Is my way of becoming a quieter human being going to make everyone comfortable?

I'm always comfortable in hiding but if I'm alone I'm not sure I can.

This afternoon, as usual, I had to attend a lecture. 

Tutoring activities are not burdensome because of all the most fun things is learning, learning,

Like I escaped by studying because in the world of learning all

the question will always find the answer, therefore all problems will certainly have a solution such as solving a case in a mathematical problem

nor physics.

It's time for me to avoid Raffa, slowly but surely I have to let it go even though my heart can't dodge it anymore.

What makes me shy away from Raffa is obviously because I don't want to fall deeper into this feeling than because the possibility of us being together is

0.09% but there's something else that makes me immediately keep my distance from him.

It was quite a stressful afternoon because I didn't usually leave everyone in the classroom and I didn't usually sit in the last row

like today, maybe some people close to me will feel the difference but what I hope is that Raffa doesn't really care about the current conditions.

"Hmm really heavy it turns out.." muttered Alika.

Before Alika left the class she was stopped by Raffa.

This must have happened, when Raffa questioned my change of attitude, I had to stay calm.

"What's up?" I asked in as flat a tone as possible.

"Why?" tanyakanya.

"There's nothing, excuse me for going home," I replied, carrying a bag over him and leaving from his presence.

Honestly this is very heavy, when you have a great taste but reality requires to avoid it.

It turned out to be holding this difficult feeling. Slowly away but

it was a little torturous because indirectly my spirit was also him for now.

Raffa is confused by Alika's behavior, he wonders if there is something wrong with him. Has Raffa made Alika hurt all this time? Butwhat? Raffa felt like he was missing something when Alika changed her attitude.

Not only to Raffa but to other people around him is also equally different.

As usual before returning home I would take the time to sit around the park that has never been many visitors, then sit among the grass that is allowed to be stepped on while drawing abstract things there.

I don't know what Raffa said if again emotions don't hurt themselves but try to channel it through writing, images or things that can be used as objects of emotion even though the inscribed is never clear but in fact there is the deepest meaning there.

Alika listened to Raffa's words because it could make her feel better in taking care of herself.

"She said she'd go home? Here's a drink," said Raffa while offering one of the fresh drinks.

"Kok lo can be here?," I asked, will my efforts always be in vain

to get away from Raffa?

" if you're different, you're sure to be guessing where you're going, try to remember the early times we identify always there in this place and every time I see the moody lo I will come to this place to be sure lo state," raffa's reply stunned me because I hadn't said hello in the first place. Raffa even to get acquainted with him was lazy because he was always so mysterious and difficult to talk to.

"Gue didn't know that you were the same as me at the beginning of the meeting" I replied.

"Yes because you are busy with other people but never my lyrics or talk to me" Raffa replied with a smile.

a while ago.

"It's okay sometimes you also have to have space to hang out with other people Al, Al, not always people who you think are close will always be there are sometimes people who you never think good is your savior later, but do not try to refrain from the public," Raffa always had an answer to all my fears, but I could not undo my intention to stay away from Raffa.

"So grown-up is scary, because you have to see for yourself everyone goes without cue, I used to not understand how it feels but now everything feels so painful Raff, Raff, everyone you care about must go and slowly fear of losing someone becomes something that is inherent in you so that the way you take is simply to withdraw from the outside world, I don't think it's easy to get through right now" replied

I looked ahead.

Raffa watched every gesture and speech that came out of my mouth carefully.

"Indeed the toughest phase is the transition from adolescence to adulthood because every decision must be taken alone without the other party's intervention, but the fear must slowly be lo the opponent, he said, making your own world is not that easy Al because you cannot live alone in this world," Raffa said can make me understand that in fact I can not do everything alone.

"Thank you, I can't cover this up and from now on I have to stay away from you" I said, it's better to be honest than to avoid it again.

"Why?  why should you stay away from me? I have the same mistake, you?" asked

Raffa.

"There are things that I can't tell you but the point is I can't continue to make you a person who always sees my sadness Raff, Raff, you don't deserve to be shady in the middle of a storm" I replied without looking at my opponent right now.

"Gue never felt burdened with all that Al, do not try to avoid if you can not explain the reason that makes sense," said Raffa

against my will.

"There's a reason Raff and you don't need to know" I replied with some emotion.

Raffa was at a loss for words because he knew that I was a tough guy

chief.

"OK fine if you want to avoid me but I can't Al, Al, all day I felt tormented because you were indifferent and did not care about everything that happened as if to me as a guilty person," raffa's answer makes me feel guilty because what's wrong here is that I'm not

hers.

"I'm sorry because I don't want to get to know Lo Raff too much," I want to be honest with everyone.

Raffa seems upset but he never shows his emotions.

Raffa was the patient man I had met because there was never any anger burning in him even though his face was always flushed red while holding back that anger.

"Don't make me give up on lo Al, all this time my feelings to lo are more confusing, there are times when you always meet my mind but on the other hand I have not found the meaning of real love," raffa's answer surprised me even more and it was hard to write off Raffa in all my stories.

"It's a long way off and maybe it's time for you to give up" my answer doesn't seem to help Raffa at all.

"But I love Lo Al even though the love has not fully grown because there are still others who make me feel guilty about this feeling," Raffa said this time was disappointing.

I tried to smile by looking at him to end the conversation today.

"Lo still doubts Raff and all can still change in the near future so do not expect something that is still in doubt, I don't understand how to express love but my feelings are different, lo was always the person I was looking for when I needed someone and at that moment I realized that this feeling was not just a passing feeling and was swept away by the waves but it was a true feeling which makes me feel love again, not pantes to discuss it but that's my true feeling,"

I've already revealed everything to Raffa.

Raffa did not express anything other than extending his hand to help me stand on equal footing with him.

"If the reason you want to stay away from me is already round then please just lo lasain it, I also want to know whether this feeling should immediately I buried deep or maintained,"

Raffa has stated that he is indeed hesitant with his heart so the right opportunity to immediately avoid him.

Expressing feelings does not mean that they will unite a person in a bond but sometimes they even realize considerable doubt.

The most effective way to test it is to stay away, if you are able to survive it means no longer need to hesitate.

The certainty that must be accepted by two people is to accept reality.

The two have the same taste but cannot be together.

The reason Alika retreated from the feeling was the right course of action rather than her having to go forward but sacrifice everything.

The risk of loving someone who still endures others is quite heavy because he can act as if you are the precious one but on the other side of his heart

not entirely in us.

Raffa does not deserve to regret his decision to let go of Alika, because if later Raffa realizes that losing Alika is the worst moment of his life.

Alika is not a woman who is easy to forget the figure that was once stored well in her heart, if the circumstances require her to forget then she will try hard to remove the feeling slowly. 

..."Stop before reaching the finish line and end before trying...

...being on the starting line is one of the most striking avoidance ways "...

SERI...................................

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