All For Mother's Sakes
The Intellect of Bulus Sani

"If you feel tired, rest, let me serve them." Sani looks at his parents who are feeling tired and sleepy.

"Let your mother and your servant rest, tell them to sleep, if I'm still okay." Pakde Damar replied.

"Well, they're both very tired, selling in the early hours, coming home from here having to cook, the afternoon still preparing everything, surely they're exhausted."

"That is how, although they look light, but they rarely rest, so it's natural to be exhausted."

"Sleep Bude, Mother.let us work." Sani ordered his mother and Budenya to sleep inside the stall.

"Well then, we'll rest first." Bude Wiwik arranged a place for them to sleep.

Sani then stepped up and stood in front of his stall, a cigarette already wedged between his middle finger and index finger.

Shortly after, Pakde Damar followed and stood beside him.

"How about San..?" Pakde Damar opens a conversation with Sani.

"What is pakde?" Sani did not understand the question of his father, he asked back while smoking a cigarette.

"It's fun not to go to the beach?" Mr. Damar explained.

"Ow.hehe his name is a young man dating pakde, again his seneng, want to go to the beach, want to go to the mountain, or just at home, if alone it must feel good."

Said Sani with a smile.

"But....You didn't cross the line, did you?" Investigate pakde Damar.

"I mean..??!!" actually Sani understood with the intention of Mr. Damar, but he just wanted to make sure, whether the question really leads there.

"San, sirde has also been young, Pakde has also been there with girls other than Budemu before, and we are far past our limits.so, I'm only afraid if you make the same mistake as me.." Mr. Damar explained.

"Why did Pakde get past the limit back then." Sani tries to lead the question to another topic, so that he does not have to answer the question that is intended for him.

"Yaaah, the name of young San, you are filled with unguided passion, and curiosity about it, we finally fell into the valley of sin"

Pakde Damar told me about his past.

"Then, why is Bude Wiwik married, not even married to the girl?" Sani kept trying to keep the topic away from him.

"She was a matre girl, a few days after the incident, she went back there with a very rich man, she went back to doing that, and immediately broke off our relationship, she said, although in the end the rich man also did not marry her, because indeed his goal was only to play the girl." Pakde Damar's regret.

"So that means it's not a mistake, right? He's the one who chose, not Pakde who left.."

"Yes, you could say that, after he was left by the rich man, he whined to ask Pakde back, but Pakde did not want to, where it might pick up something that had become the rest of the people, he said, moreover, he deliberately intended to leave the previous pact.."

"Then, where did he end up?"

"Pakde also did not know, since the pakde refused him, pakde never met him again, even heard the news was not."

"Hmmh.he must have regretted his own actions." Reveal Sani while holding back her smile.

"Looks like that, he thought he could arrange whatever he wanted, he thought men could make toys as he pleased, until he forgot, everything could turn to him." pakde Damar smiled triumphantly.

"Haaaah.." Sani has really moved the topic.

"Oh yeah..no feels yes, your preparation is maxed out right San?" and in the end pakde Damar was carried away by the topic that Sani brought, until he forgot his first question.

"Already donk pakde, as long as Pak Hambali continues to accompany, no need to worry anymore." Sani started to smile as he managed to shift the topic.

"You are right San, as long as you are under the direction of Mr. Hambali, sirde Yakin, you can become a Champion later." The optimisation of Mr. Damar has really made him forget his initial question.

"Hopefully, pray Sani yes sirde.."

"Of course donk, we must all pray for you.."

Then the day traders began to come to shop.

Sani also served them with a big smile.

And one of the reasons to smile is because he has managed to avoid his pakdenya questions.

After the merchants finished buying whatever they needed, they all immediately left and started to travel around the village.

Pakde Damar also began cleaning his wagon to take home, because it was just waiting for housing mothers to come.

"Hmmmh..Thankfully my reason succeeded, otherwise the danger could be, lie sin, honestly shame.ckckckk thankfully it worked.." Sani spoke inwardly while smiling to himself.

After eating, he picked up a piece of paper, wrote something.

As if to reveal everything in his heart, Ayu wrote with a flat expression.

"I'll write everything down, I don't want to hurt you all, I'll explain all the problems through my writing, hopefully everyone understands about this". I spoke softly, then he started writing something.

Over time, his expression changed, which was originally mediocre, now his eyes were glazed over.

I don't know what he wrote, but the longer he shed his tears.

He took a deep breath and momentarily closed his eyes, his hands began to tremble, as if unable to continue his writing.

"I'm sorry, everyone, I'm sorry for my mistakes, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, I just didn't want to see you hurt and burdened because of me."

Then he folded the paper containing his handwriting, then again took out the blank paper again, but when he was about to write, he cried.

"I can't stand it anymore, I really can't, I can't bear to write this for you.."

His tears flowed profusely, his hands clasping tightly to the pen he was holding.

He sobbed, put his head on his desk, his eyes had completely flooded with tears.

And as his friends started to enter the classroom, he immediately wiped away the traces of his cries.

He didn't want his friends to know he was crying.

Until school, Ayu still looks sad.

He seemed to lose his spirit, he also did not have time to contact Sani.

"Do I have to tell this to Sani? But I don't have the heart, I don't want to make her sad and worried."

He was still in great concern, one side he wanted to share what he felt, but on the other hand, he did not want to make Sani sad.

"Maybe I'd better take it upon myself, I don't want to trouble anyone, Dad, Mom, Nissa or Sani.."

He has made up his mind by bearing the burden he is feeling himself, without having to share it with anyone.

"I've decided this...!!!"

With a spell he made this choice.