CUTS
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Rendra was tasked with delivering medical devices and drugs that were dropped off at the airport. Those items will be funneled to every hospital.This is where Rendra is now. Proverb ‘About diving drink air’ deserves to be pinned to Rendra at this time. When his men were dropping things, he stole the opportunity to Cut's nursery.

“Have finished reading the novel?” tanya Rendra looked gently at the black bead in front of her.

“Not yet. New half.”

“Like?”

Cut nodded small. “If same me, like no?”

Cut turned to the man in front of him. A man full of surprises named Rendra. Cut could not bear staring at the man's bead. He immediately cut off the contact of the two. Looking in different directions with a feeling of uncertainty.

“No need to answer! I was just kidding. I'm ugly, right? But you are still sweet and beautiful even if you have children. Your face remains the same.”

Cut increasingly could not bear to hear as a sweet word coming out of the lips of the man in front of him. As a woman who once held memories with Rendra. He could not deny his heart at this moment.

“Abang said he would come here if the novel was finished. Why are you here now?” Cut tried to divert the conversation.

Then Rendra tells Cut about his duties until he arrives at Cut's nursery. The voice of a communication device attached to Rendra's shoulder makes the man forced to leave Cut with a million longings that are still stored.

“I am back duty yes. Healing quickly! If you miss, look at my photos as you like. See you soon, Darling.”

Glegs…

Cut swallowed his saliva with difficulty. It's very difficult for Cut to describe his heart. Various events that happened to him at this time made him not ready to face the future. Son, ex-husband, both parents even a little Rendra that he has not found until now. Every day, he walks into the children's ward to see if there is any chance of him meeting the nephew again.

He also hopes to recover soon and be able to get out of this hospital to be able to gather with his family again. Especially the son who had been with him for six months. Rendra's current presence did not have much effect in his life. Too much happened until Cut still considers if the presence of Rendra is not something that he must take seriously.

“It's not easy to open your heart and forget everything that happened. Not all is well, Bang! Life is playing us. After we meet then we will go back apart again and so on. I'm no longer the girl you met a few years ago. I am not the same now. My soul is not perfect. There is a disappointed heart and a fragile body. What can you be proud of?”

Cut told himself after Rendra's departure. She is aware of many things nowadays especially her position as a mother. He could not have left Iskandar to live with Rendra. He also did not want to lose Iskandar by handing Iskandar over to Faisal's parents.

Cut is unable to reject any book or novel that Rendra sends. Of course accompanied by a letter that was never absent. Rendra told Cut a lot in his letter. From the big to small things he experienced. Unknowingly, Cut often giggles or smiles himself often read the letters Rendra. All that did not escape the observation of a pair of hazel-colored eye beads.

His cheerfulness is not comparable to others but being on his side like there is his own attraction until every being on his side is always fun. Dr. Guney realizes he is unable to move too far to get close to Cut. Until he can only accompany Cut as a doctor without being able to expect more.

Cut spent two months in the hospital after Dr. Guney told him Cut could return home comfortably. I don't know how many times he operated on Cut and a miracle for him when he saw the creation of a dying god can still breathe and now can smile or joke freely. Cut hair has started to grow after shaving it out before surgery. Fortunately she wore a headscarf until her bald head was nowhere to be seen.

Mr. Cek Amir and Mae pick up Cut at the hospital. Before returning home, Cut first say goodbye to other ward residents. Those who have been with him go through everything on their own without relatives. Those still left in the ward are tsunami victims who have not found their families. Some of them suffer from amnesia, a disability because the foot has been amputated or other defects.

“Stay careful and do not forget routine control to the hospital. If you feel something bad in your body, come here. Dad, Mom, I'm asking for his attention for Cut.”

“It's our responsibility, Doctor. Thank you for taking care of Cut all this time.”

Mr. Cek Amir shook hands with Dr. Guney and they left the hospital. Cut could not describe his current state of heart. Sad and happy go hand in hand with him. “Check sir, about where Abu and Umi are buried?” tanya Cut to Pak Cek Amir.

“Why? Do you want to go there?”

Cut nodded weakly then Pak Cek Amir mentioned a place on the driver of the public vehicle. The driver nodded then drove the car to a place not far from the coast.

Cut who had only come out to Mae's shophouse felt his chest tight as soon as he saw how the coastal conditions that were once filled by the houses had now been flattened to the ground. Only a small chunk of concrete foundation is still visible. The rest was flattened to the ground. Tears Cut back spilled, he imagined how the state of Abu and Umi when the disaster came. During this time, Cut only saw the television show but now he saw firsthand how the Tsunami hit the area. The feeling of Cut was a thousand times sadder when he saw the current condition with his own eyes.

“Abu, Umi, Cut confused what should start life like? Without you, Cut wouldn't be able to see directions. Abu, Umi, Cut needs you? O God, why did you take them so quickly? O Allah, I am not strong enough to bear this myself. Servants need them, servants have not made both happy. Even at the end of his age, I gave them sadness and disappointment. O Allah, forgive their sins, forgive their sins. O God, please bury them both. Give heaven to both.

“Cut..”

“Cut..”

“Wake!!!”

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